Zephrun’s Imperium

Four years ago today, 13 year old me decided to join the Shard. And boy howdy, if that wasn't the best darn decision I ever made.

In years passed, I've written up a post a few days before my Shardiversary, but I decided against that this year. Think of this as an unedited video of sorts. I gotta say, 2022 was probably the hardest year of my entire life. My depression and anxiety have been worse than ever, I've lost some of my closest friends, I've been to the ER twice, I've renounced my previous religion, and I burned myself out on art so badly that I haven't drawn anything in three months. That's not to say it's all been bad - I made huge progress on my writing, I got a new dog, I went on a choir trip to Chicago, I learned how to do calligraphy, and I made all state choir - but it's been hard.

And yet... this last week, something changed. I can only describe it as a realization that the way I've been treating myself is not sustainable. This year, I am committed to handling myself kindly. To me, that means starting to do yoga again, listening to more music, journaling, spending time with friends, and paying attention to what I need. It's about time I let myself be happy. I deserve it. 

I really just want to thank everyone for great memories and support. I cannot overstate how much joy has come from being a member of this site. I may not be nearly as active as I once was, but my younger self owes her happiness to the friends and stories she made here. 

If you're reading this, go have some chocolate and listen to your favorite song. Happy new year.