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    Ad Astra Per Aspera
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    Traditional artist, writer/RPer, editor, yogi, soprano, lover of Mistborn and Gravity Falls.

    Check me out on Tumblr for Cosmere (@zephyscosmere) and Gravity Falls (@zephrunsimperium) content!

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  1. Zephrun’s Imperium

    I had a great trip with Guard. The best time ever. I love his family, I love him. I’ve never felt quite so happy in my life. But now that he’s on his mission…

    TW: Suicide, religion, minor swearing

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     I don't think I have ever wanted to kill myself more. I don't even know why I carry on anymore. Is happiness even worth it, when every moment is coated in either dread or misery? I am so done with going through depression and trauma and anxiety. 

    And now I find the person I'm fated to be with the rest of my life, the one I love more than anything and God takes him away from me. What is the damn point. What "loving" God? I see no love here.


    I have had pain and more pain by being in the church. To hell with being "stronger" for what I've been through. I don’t want to keep going. 

    I… I can’t do this anymore. But I can’t kill myself because of who it’ll hurt. I hate that. I hate being kept alive by those I love. My head knows I’ll be okay, but my heart can’t be convinced and I just….. I’m terrified and I’m in pain. I don’t know what to do. I haven’t felt this dark since before I met Guard…

     

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    2. Maddie The Survivor

      Maddie The Survivor

      We love you! 
      Hugs?

      Just think about the people who love you. Personally, doing some sort of service helps me. 
      you got this!

    3. Nathrangking

      Nathrangking

      @Zephrun's Imperium this darkness is very good at what it does. It burrows in deep and thrives off of doubt. The cycle seems endless you know. Everything becomes darker and darker simply because of who we are. Let me say this its not stronger than you are! That pain that you feel is a powerful its source is your love as you put it. You can take it and turn it into something immensely powerful. It can be an all consuming beast or a warmth which will keep you going even in the worst of times. This darkness is yours to control it could not exist if you did not care. 

      The warmth will come again. *Hugs.* My DM's are open to you. 

    4. Thaidakar the Ghostblood

      Thaidakar the Ghostblood

      oh no! that sucks. *hugs*

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