Zephrun’s Imperium

I am impaired and I hate it.

This morning I went upstairs to get something to eat and I literally couldn't handle it. For those who don't know, I have a lot of sensory issues, particularly with sound. It's the biggest part of my anxiety. I love people to death, but sometimes I literally can't handle noise. It gets to the point sometimes where any small noise at all is piercing and I want to scream and kill something. And for someone with 5 younger siblings... it's too much for me to handle a lot of the time.

I spend most of my time in my room in the basement. And I hate it. I like being alone sometimes and my room is amazing, but it feels like my cage. I don't WANT to stay down here. I WANT to go to activities and be able to hang out with my family, because despite what I try to convince myself, I actually do like being around them quite a bit. But sometimes I literally can't because my STUPID head is so sad and messed up. I hate that people have to accommodate me for me to be normal. I hate that I'm so broken up that sometimes I can't even function. I am such a wreck, you guys. It's not okay.