Darkness Ascendant

.... Regular Crew member...fml

Life doesn't discriminate between the sinners and the saints And it takes and it takes and it takes and it takes But we keep living anyway And we laugh and we cry And we break and we make our mistakes.

As I said, maybe once upon a time (last tuesday) I was a risk, but eh, I've realised there's no point to it. Why fight for this long only to give up eh?

oooh nice I love mythology myself

I'm hibernating I sincerely appreciate what you're trying to do. It's a helluvalot more than what anyone else has done for me, and I love you for it. But I honestly just post my woes and sorrows here just to vent a little. I don't intend on taking any action, I absolutely hate confrontation.

I honestly don't want to complicate matters. I just want to hunker down and weather the storm.

Blerhg. I've been staring at your message for the past 9 minutes, failing to type up an adequate response. Apathy is storming great

So what is one supposed to do when threatened to be kicked out of their home? EDIT: Blah, pressed enter and it sent for some reason. I wanted to provide some context. So last night dad rushes into my room and starts yelling at me (among other....things) at how I ruined my parent's lives, how I'm a failure of a son etc etc and how, because of a few events in my life, I don't deserve to live under their roof. And this is the sort of thing that I've put up with my entire life. So, It like, hurts, but It doesn't, I usually just feel myself drawing back into my depression in the morning. But this morning is different, I feel alot more broken than I have before, I've tried pretty darn hard lately and I thought, I thought I was slowly getting closer to my parents, I found myself forgiving them and forgetting about all the rust they've done. But like, today is different, I wouldn't say I'm suicidal or that any of my thoughts are leaning towards self-harm; because to be quite frank, I've been so scarred and beaten down by those around me, I don't see the point in adding to my own misery. But I'm just so tired and weary, I kind of hope my parents kick me out....just so I can sort of drift off and forget everything, perhaps just die. And yes I know I said I wasn't suicidal, but I've transgressed all that depression crap I believe. Emotionless Robot State Achieved.

Ayye

Immovable object? Meet unstoppable force!

So guys, like. 17th Shard went offline. And I was like. Freaking out. But it's ok now.

Well, like delightful says, thinking this can really alter how one acts. You'll tend to be in the background, just hovering around, yeah I know this feeling very well heh. LIIIST MY FRIEND! start focusing on what makes you amazing and awesome Not sure 'bout this. I've been faking alot of crap my whole life, and well, it hasn't gotten me anywhere, it's just a cycle that slowly gets tighter around you, strangling you. 'course, could be different for others. What you need to do Quiver is start with yourself. LIST! Do some soul-searching, find somewhere to just stop. Stop thinking, stop worrying, just let it all go. As @A Budgie has stated, remember, YOU HAVE FRIENDS, tell me, how comfortable are you here? Clearly a fair bit comfortable here, you seem to be happier with yourself while you're here. Try and make that happen irl, engage more with others, smile, laugh, joke, mess around with others. Stop listening to insults, absorb them, and use them as added momentum. Push yourself, try and better your flaws. I honestly cannot stand you beating yourself up this much.

aaah. that's what u were referring to XD. Same here bro *highfive. Though mine is like a background static, then it randomly just spikes XD

>> Elaborate?

@Arraenae You can always do it punch by punch. Like The first punch grazed Tom's chin, knocking his head back a bit. He ducked under his opponent's next swing, a wild roundhouse, a satisfying swoosh as it cleaved the air above his head. Seeing his chance, Tom lunged forward, arms open, and tackled the other guy, pushing him into the wall behind him, then lifting him using the momentum he had gained, dropping the fool onto his rear-end.

Ah man. *MASSIVE GROUP HUG* @Sunbird YOU'LL NEVER BEAT MY RECORD MWAAHAHAHAHAHA ----------- Anyway, now for my suddenly developed bad day. Family went out to watch Beauty and the Beast and left me behind. Sure, I have assignments to do. But I at least expect to be aware of the fact y'all are going out somewhere, and even nicer if you ask if I want to tag along

Oh dear I tend to just twitch randomly every few moments. Yay for recurring villains!

mhm, I avoided him for that reason entirely XD

You're Elend and You're Elend, EVERYBODY'S ELEND! jk Elend is everybody, not the other way around. We are Elend.

middle-aged midget amputee

hey! I cut myself too! EDIT: Accidentally of course

Plants actual farm us, giving us oxygen, until we decompose, upon which they consume us.

Hi, I'm spikes in my eyes Johnson.

oh I was just kidding. You spoke as if you were reminiscing about old times