Boys. Not ONLY boys, but... Boys.

[InfiniteInsanity she/her]

I don't think it was just meant for people in the cult. I'm not in the cult.

[That1Cellist he/him]

12 minutes ago, InfiniteInsanity said:

I don't think it was just meant for people in the cult. I'm not in the cult.

How will they enforce their laws?

I sound stupid! I'm dumb for making people sad over something stupid! I'm being an idiot! I contribute nothing to any conversation because I'm always being stupid!

[InfiniteInsanity she/her]

10 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

How will they enforce their laws?

I sound stupid! I'm dumb for making people sad over something stupid! I'm being an idiot! I contribute nothing to any conversation because I'm always being stupid!

No. Please. You're not I promise you.

[That1Cellist he/him]

9 minutes ago, InfiniteInsanity said:

No. Please. You're not I promise you.

Here, maybe it's best I be left alone. I'll get over this part of being stupid. I really should be able to do more of this on my own.

Why am I even writing these?

Edited January 11, 2023 by That1Cellist

[Shining Silhouette he/him]

13 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

Why am I even writing these?

I made a chart for a reason this sometimes happens:

Spoiler

 

[That1Cellist he/him]

16 minutes ago, Shining Silhouette said:

I made a chart for a reason this sometimes happens:

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I like this. A lot. It certainly is a piece of how I think.

I'm so annoying.

Edited January 11, 2023 by That1Cellist

[Shining Silhouette he/him]

1 minute ago, That1Cellist said:

I like this. A lot. It certainly is a peace of how I think.

I'm so annoying.

So the way to deal with this is to notice how you're feeling and how you're thinking. One thing you can control is the way you choose to think. Just notice the cycle you're in, and make an attempt to change, cause usually the things we stress about are things that don't matter in the long run. It's okay to be embarrassed and make mistakes. I was in a much better place once I realized that.

[The Wandering Wizard he/him]

Just now, Shining Silhouette said:

So the way to deal with this is to notice how you're feeling and how you're thinking. One thing you can control is the way you choose to think. Just notice the cycle you're in, and make an attempt to change, cause usually the things we stress about are things that don't matter in the long run. It's okay to be embarrassed and make mistakes. I was in a much better place once I realized that.

You are very wise, and I think experience has been your best teacher.

[Shining Silhouette he/him]

Just now, The Wandering Wizard said:

You are very wise, and I think experience has been your best teacher.

Lol y'all I'm not wise I've just made a lot of mistakes in my life

[The Wandering Wizard he/him]

Just now, Shining Silhouette said:

Lol y'all I'm not wise I've just made a lot of mistakes in my life

But making those mistakes makes you wise, doesn't it?

[Shining Silhouette he/him]

Just now, The Wandering Wizard said:

But making those mistakes makes you wise, doesn't it?

Making mistakes, probably not, but learning from them, yeah.

But wise isn't the word. Reminds me of like Gandalf when in reality I'm just a normal hobbit

 

[That1Cellist he/him]

5 minutes ago, Shining Silhouette said:

So the way to deal with this is to notice how you're feeling and how you're thinking. One thing you can control is the way you choose to think. Just notice the cycle you're in, and make an attempt to change, cause usually the things we stress about are things that don't matter in the long run. It's okay to be embarrassed and make mistakes. I was in a much better place once I realized that.

Yes, but I think I might not deserve to feel differently. To do so would feel like self deception. I am quite confident that those things I say about myself are true.

[The Wandering Wizard he/him]

2 minutes ago, Shining Silhouette said:

Making mistakes, probably not, but learning from them, yeah.

But wise isn't the word. Reminds me of like Gandalf when in reality I'm just a normal hobbit

 

Was walking to the portable and I remembered this.

Knowledge is learning something through experience. Wisdom is applying that knowledge and sharing it.

So thus, you are wise in this instance.

[Shining Silhouette he/him]

2 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

Yes, but I think I might not deserve to feel differently. To do so would feel like self deception. I am quite confident that those things I say about myself are true.

Why do you think they are true?

[That1Cellist he/him]

1 minute ago, Shining Silhouette said:

Why do you think they are true?

Because I see them. I feel them. I hear them.

Plus, I would rather that then think I was worth something that I am not.

[Shining Silhouette he/him]

Just now, That1Cellist said:

Because I see them. I feel them. I hear them.

Plus, I would rather that then think I was worth something that I am not.

Why?

[That1Cellist he/him]

3 hours ago, Shining Silhouette said:

Why?

Because I don't want to be ignorant or unrealistic of my own failings and stupidity. It is only realistic. I'm not smart, I'm not creative, I'm not attractive, I'm not helpful (In fact I make a lot of things worse because of my stupid attitude), I am boring, I am socially inept, I am not special, I do say a lot of stupid things. It would be only foolishness to say that I am not those things or don't do them.

So yeah.

Edited January 11, 2023 by That1Cellist

[Morningtide she/her]

4 hours ago, That1Cellist said:

Because I don't want to be ignorant or unrealistic of my own failings and stupidity. It is only realistic. I'm not smart, I'm not creative, I'm not attractive, I'm not helpful (In fact I make a lot of things worse because of my stupid attitude), I am boring, I am socially inept, I am not special, I do say a lot of stupid things. It would be only foolishness to say that I am not those things or don't do them.

So yeah.

Even if most of this is true (which I seriously doubt bc you are awesome) it doesn't change the fact that you are an incredible person! You are amazing and you are special, especially to the people who care about you! Self-awareness is good, but you should think about the amazing things about yourself too! I know they exist. YOU ARE INCREDIBLE!

Also, I just want to say that this thread being super supportive and understanding is making me feel really happy and generally hopeful about the human race. Most of the boys that I know irl are kinda mean and this is just making me happy.

[Lord Gregorio he/him]

5 hours ago, That1Cellist said:

Because I don't want to be ignorant or unrealistic of my own failings and stupidity. It is only realistic. I'm not smart, I'm not creative, I'm not attractive, I'm not helpful (In fact I make a lot of things worse because of my stupid attitude), I am boring, I am socially inept, I am not special, I do say a lot of stupid things. It would be only foolishness to say that I am not those things or don't do them.

So yeah.

I felt like that as a 7th grader. Still feel a bit like that sometimes. Pessimism is rough. No matter what you say, there's some skill you have. Don't stress on yourself too much, if you have a passion you're bound to have a skill.

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

On 1/10/2023 at 7:48 AM, Shining Silhouette said:

Why, of course!

And for the course of why!

'Tis oft said that boys doth fear the fairer sex. Forsooth, their delicate countenance and gentle demeanor, are oft a mystery to young men, who know not how to parse their words and actions. Yet, verily, they doth make the finest of friends, for they are a solace in times of sorrow and a source of joy in times of mirth. Indeed, 'tis said that they are a blessing and a gift to be treasured. But yes, as thou speaketh, they may on occasion causeth thee much fear. Reach past thy fear, good sir, and find the friend, loyal and true, one who doth stand by thy side through thick and thin.

This is happying me cuz many old words  

10 hours ago, That1Cellist said:

Because I don't want to be ignorant or unrealistic of my own failings and stupidity. It is only realistic. I'm not smart, I'm not creative, I'm not attractive, I'm not helpful (In fact I make a lot of things worse because of my stupid attitude), I am boring, I am socially inept, I am not special, I do say a lot of stupid things. It would be only foolishness to say that I am not those things or don't do them.

So yeah.

That is NOT the person I remember. Who are we talking about again? 

[That1Cellist he/him]

16 minutes ago, The Halcyon Girl said:

That is NOT the person I remember. Who are we talking about again? 

Me. That1Cellist. Depressed sharder person or something. You can’t remember me probably because we haven’t ever really talked at all.

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

1 minute ago, That1Cellist said:

Me. That1Cellist. Depressed sharder person or something. You can’t remember me probably because we haven’t ever really talked at all.

Oh my scudding chasms I very much do

I remember chasing you at a youth activity with Ranryu

It was a good opportunity to study the Cellist when his native ground had been breached by people 

[That1Cellist he/him]

3 minutes ago, The Halcyon Girl said:

Oh my scudding chasms I very much do

I remember chasing you at a youth activity with Ranryu

It was a good opportunity to study the Cellist when his native ground had been breached by people 

Hmm Yes as you apparently remember, I was trying to escape people. This fits into what I’ve been saying. How is it a fair assessment to say I sound differently when our interaction was very limited?

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

2 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

Hmm Yes as you apparently remember, I was trying to escape people. This fits into what I’ve been saying. How is it a fair assessment to say I sound differently when our interaction was very limited?

It’s fair because 1) you’re Ranryu’s friend 2) because from those limited interactions, that’s what I remember, 3) I just know these things. Ask anyone—I’m always right about people.

[That1Cellist he/him]

42 minutes ago, The Halcyon Girl said:

It’s fair because 1) you’re Ranryu’s friend 2) because from those limited interactions, that’s what I remember, 3) I just know these things. Ask anyone—I’m always right about people.

Those are decent reasons.

But still, yes, I’m talking about me.

Edited January 12, 2023 by That1Cellist