Trans Hangout Thread

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

4 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

I am like 100% not the person who calls others at any point and I'd get so flustered

i don't do it often, but sometimes i just gotta. I'm sure they're used to it.

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

Hehehe sometimes I call random business to practice my girl voice, it works… 90% of the time? 

But puberty also hasn’t affected my voice a whole lot yet so

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

that's a good tip lol

but also kinda prank calling

Just now, Honors Ghost said:

Hehehe sometimes I call random business to practice my girl voice, it works… 90% of the time? 

 

 

omg wait how do u do girl voice pls tell

Edited February 23 by Usseewa

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

2 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

that's a good tip lol

but also kinda prank calling

 

 

omg wait how do u do girl voice pls tell

Uhhh idk I kinda just talk, I mean it’s a low girls voice and like I sound like I just smoked a 12 pack but uh it works?

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

Just now, Honors Ghost said:

Uhhh idk I kinda just talk, I mean it’s a low girls voice and like I sound like I just smoked a 12 pack but uh it works?

i want to practice

but i dont talk that much idk

 

edit: ong that's the perfect catch-22. i wanna practice my girl voice so i can be more comfortable talking, but im not comfortable talking so i don't practice?

Edited February 23 by Usseewa

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

7 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

i want to practice

but i dont talk that much idk

 

edit: ong that's the perfect catch-22. i wanna practice my girl voice so i can be more comfortable talking, but im not comfortable talking so i don't practice?

Orrrr u could smoke a bunch of cigarettes then everyone will think it’s that…. Jk don’t do that lung cancer is bad

[Aeoryi she/her]

43 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

i want to practice

but i dont talk that much idk

 

edit: ong that's the perfect catch-22. i wanna practice my girl voice so i can be more comfortable talking, but im not comfortable talking so i don't practice?

you have to practice at some point tbh

 

47 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

that's a good tip lol

for me I found that speaking like a catgirl with like, almost a cat-like smile really helps with making the voice lighter (not like, higher, or anything, but specifically making it feel less heavy and less from the chest)

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

3 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

you have to practice at some point tbh

 

for me I found that speaking like a catgirl with like, almost a cat-like smile really helps with making the voice lighter (not like, higher, or anything, but specifically making it feel less heavy and less from the chest)

oh oh

ppp always talk abt where the voice is coming from, like head or chest or idk but what the heck does that mean and which one should i do

[Aeoryi she/her]

Just now, Usseewa said:

oh oh

ppp always talk abt where the voice is coming from, like head or chest or idk but what the heck does that mean and which one should i do

Think of like, your average male gym coach who shouts at everything. He speaks from his chest, maybe from the throat but mostly from the chest. 

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

1 hour ago, Aeoryi said:

Think of like, your average male gym coach who shouts at everything. He speaks from his chest, maybe from the throat but mostly from the chest. 

uhh cool interesting

 

hey guys i might be or have been feeling dysphoria? More physical dysphoria ig? I just hope it's not cuz I'm transitioning to girl and im actually a cisman.. but anyway doubts aside, i just feel generally uncomfortable. maybe not always, but sometimes. like i can't find a comfy position, and my whole body just doesn't feel comfy. similar ig to when ur restless/can't fall asleep and tossing and turning and nothing feels right and u don't get tired and just wanna cry from frustration that u can't just fall asleep and get this hell-of-a-night over with. so like yeah. also i think some of it is "down there" (the dysphoria). It might also have to do with clothes. cuz, like rn I'm wearing a nice crop top ish thing, but it's also kinda tight so it feels slightly suffocating (tho not in actuality. i think). but also it just hugs my body and feels a little wrong. probably cuz, you know, my body isn't feminine. another hopefully good analogy or whatever it's called is, you know when you get out of the shower and maybe ur not fully dry, or ur hair's still wet, etc? And then u go to ur bed to watch tv, read, go on the shard, or whatever but ur hair's wet. or same thing but u showered and now are going to bed. but ur wet hair doesn't feel comfy against the pillow. *totally-not-me-rn.* so like it just doesn't feel comfy. but also for my maybe-dysphoria, u just feel uneasy? maybe heart is a drop faster than normal and you feel slightly anxious. then occasionally u cross ur arms over ur chest and squeeze. u hug urself sometimes. u curl up in ur bed. but anyway when i feel this maybe-dysphoria, the clothing doesn't help and i feel agitated or not comfy or restless or something. like u put on a cute outfit and hope it'll feel nice but it doesn't feel quite right. u love how it looks, you even maybe look kinda girly in the mirror, but ... it fits wrong ig. and when u could normally get comfy, u can't.

 

so, what do u think? relate to any of this? don't? does it sound like dysphoria? doesn't?

 

the thing is, i like my new clothes, even the ones that aren't baggy. i mean, they look cute and are nice. idk.. maybe i just won't wear this one shirt.. sigh..

edit: my body feels weird especially in the chest area when i wear tight stuff like this shirt. I'm know that sounds like a blatant dysphoric sign, and i acknowledge that. but i literally feel it.

 

edit2: like ig maybe i feel no matter what clothes i wear i won't feel comfy. but not always. I'm not always feeling bad. but i have noticed I've done the arms crossed hugging self a lot. ig sometimes it's cuz i get feeling anxious or stressed and need comfort.

edit3: i guess kinda another example is, like, u know when ur legs just hurt? like the bones, kinda? maybe you've been on a car ride for literal hours and you and your stupid tall legs are cramped as heck and then ur legs just ache and hurt afterward no matter if u stretch them out lying in bed and it just sucks but u can't do anything to change it? yep. kinda like that ig.

Edited February 23 by Usseewa

[Aeoryi she/her]

1 hour ago, Usseewa said:

so, what do u think? relate to any of this? don't? does it sound like dysphoria? doesn't?

Do I relate to the specific example you've given? no. 

For me dysphoria is pretty simple. I'll spoiler it because it's depressing.

Spoiler

Dysphoria for me is like when you stare at yourself in the mirror and realize that you do in fact exist and that you do have an actual body. For me it's with quite a few things. My voice, I know at the very least, I have always hated, because I never thought it sounded like me. That doesn't led me to not speak at all because that'd be stupid, but it leads me to limit situations where people know me as female and I have to use my voice- I'll never use voice chat with people who've never heard my voice before. 

Besides that, there's also just... kinda this hatred when I look at my own reflection. I see every negative aspect about myself when I look in the mirror. I see my hair (which on a positive note actually somehow looks good when it's very windy? Like I thought it was impossible?), I see my face, I see my skin, and I realize that so, so, much has to change if I have even a chance of transitioning. 

I see my skin, which has hair all over it, despite the fact that I shave fairly often, and it reminds me that I now will have to do that for the rest of my life. I see my nails, which sometimes have traces of the nail polish I've used but been too afraid to run with completely, and I see my face, and my eyes, and everything that I haven't seen yet. 

For me dysphoria is the feeling of being stuck with a body. If I had my way, I'd just shed my body like Lezrian the Pursuer and just not have a physical form. But that's not the way things work. I can't do that, obviously. So instead I just learn to resent me, not myself, but rather the shell I've been stuck with, and resent that fact that it should look more different than it actually is.

 

1 hour ago, Usseewa said:

edit: my body feels weird especially in the chest area when i wear tight stuff like this shirt. I'm know that sounds like a blatant dysphoric sign, and i acknowledge that. but i literally feel it.

Mmmm fair

I don't get that much dysphoria from wearing things that are tight to my chest (because they're comfy) but that's probably because I don't really care about that 

Spoiler

That being said I do sometimes get upper body dysphoria it's just moreso of a "wow I should have something here" thought rather than a persistent uncomfortable feeling

 

1 hour ago, Usseewa said:

edit2: like ig maybe i feel no matter what clothes i wear i won't feel comfy. but not always. I'm not always feeling bad. but i have noticed I've done the arms crossed hugging self a lot. ig sometimes it's cuz i get feeling anxious or stressed and need comfort.

I do that a lot when I'm feeling physically cold. 

1 hour ago, Usseewa said:

edit3: i guess kinda another example is, like, u know when ur legs just hurt? like the bones, kinda? maybe you've been on a car ride for literal hours and you and your stupid tall legs are cramped as heck and then ur legs just ache and hurt afterward no matter if u stretch them out lying in bed and it just sucks but u can't do anything to change it? yep. kinda like that ig.

Interesting. Whenever my legs hurt, I feel great comfort when I am able to stretch them. It's quite relaxing. 

Same with the wet hair thing. I kinda just don't mind it, because at the very least it makes me less prone to changing position

[Akimikoisthecutest]

13 hours ago, Honors Ghost said:

But puberty also hasn’t affected my voice a whole lot yet so

Luckyyyyyyyy...

My voice is chopped

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

45 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Luckyyyyyyyy...

My voice is chopped

Wdym?

Like, sounds bad?

girl same...

 

guys do u think i should update name & pronouns for school?

[Akimikoisthecutest]

1 minute ago, Usseewa said:

Wdym?

Like, sounds bad?

girl same...

Itś so low. Iḿ almost a bass and itś bugging me. I don't think that Iĺl be able to have a feminine voice even after voice training.

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

Just now, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Itś so low. Iḿ almost a bass and itś bugging me. I don't think that Iĺl be able to have a feminine voice even after voice training.

uhmm...

what's with all the diacritics?

śḿĺ

 

i think u could. have u done voice training much?

[Akimikoisthecutest]

2 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

śḿĺ

 

It's because of my Spanish keyboard, bc I'm in Spanish class.

4 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

i think u could. have u done voice training much?

I've done some, but should do more, but I feel like stupid testosterone  just keeps undoing all of the progress I've made

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

4 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

It's because of my Spanish keyboard, bc I'm in Spanish class.

I've done some, but should do more, but I feel like stupid testosterone  just keeps undoing all of the progress I've made

Yorp.

idk iv'e never tried voice trainingg.

 

also guysssssssssss i still have some lingering doubts but...u should've seen me last night i was basically soaking my pillow with tears lol and was like "i would press the button 100%. i wish i could just have been born a girl. i wish so bad." so basically zero doubts then, but now it's day and idk anymore?

[Aeoryi she/her]

9 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

It's because of my Spanish keyboard, bc I'm in Spanish class.

I've done some, but should do more, but I feel like stupid testosterone  just keeps undoing all of the progress I've made

you have to really commit to voice training to get it to work

although you should be trying to voice train if you're actively going through puberty at the moment, you'll make no progress

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

4 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

you have to really commit to voice training to get it to work

although you should be trying to voice train if you're actively going through puberty at the moment, you'll make no progress

should or shouldn't?

 

edit: or do you mean "although you should be doing it, you won't make any progress."

Edited February 23 by Usseewa

[Aeoryi she/her]

1 minute ago, Usseewa said:

should or shouldn't?

shouldn't 

[Akimikoisthecutest]

7 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

also guysssssssssss i still have some lingering doubts but...u should've seen me last night i was basically soaking my pillow with tears lol and was like "i would press the button 100%. i wish i could just have been born a girl. i wish so bad." so basically zero doubts then, but now it's day and idk anymore?

That's really rough. I would absolutely press the button. Even before I "knew" I was trans, I wondered what it would be like to be a girl.

6 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

although you shouldn't be trying to voice train if you're actively going through puberty at the moment, you'll make no progress

Well that sucks, That's exactly what I worried. What should I do then?

[Aeoryi she/her]

1 minute ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Well that sucks, That's exactly what I worried. What should I do then?

Are you finished puberty yet? if you're not and still in the early stages you could get blockers

As long as your voice has not been changing for a while you can probably determine that it'll stay that way for a bit and at that point you can probably do voice training.

[Akimikoisthecutest]

22 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

if you're not and still in the early stages you could get blockers

I can't it's illegal where I live.

 

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

20 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

I can't it's illegal where I live.

 

that sucks, girl

can u at least try transitioning in other ways?

 

Also guys i haven't finished but here's a good book, with the main character being friends with a trans girl. It's a "light novel," which idk what that means. seems basically like a manga but as a book lol. i mean, it's set in a rural/backwater japan town in a high school. the trans char. has to deal with a bunch of bullying and stuff too.

 

"The Mimosa Confessions"

(And it's part of a series, I think. So if u read it and like it, there are more.)

Spoiler

 

[Akimikoisthecutest]

30 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

can u at least try transitioning in other ways?

 

I mean, not really.