Mental health club!

[Through the Living Questio he/him]

2 hours ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

I'd recommend taking sometime to journal if ya can, it's super useful for figuring emotions out. Distractions can be helpful sometimes, but be sure to give yourself time to just *think* and be honest with yourself, with no distractions. 
 

While I can't know your exact friendships, I'll say that real friends won't view you as weak for opening up and being vulnerable, whether or not you think it makes you seem weak. Often opening up to others can be one of the hardest things there is, and is a sign of strength, not weakness. Anyone can hide their inner doubts and insecurities and mental battles, and put on a mask. But opening up and being honest and trusting others? That's hard.

 

@CoderDrag0n8 And as much as I love the large amounts of hugs, let's maybe tone it down a bit, as that level of emoji spam can cause lag for folks

Thank you  

I like to journal in kind of a Sanderson in-world book excerpt kinda format! It helps. 

And the problem isn’t my friends seeing me as weak, it’s me seeing me as weak. Most of ‘em understand that struggle.

[MirkerLurker she/her]

5 hours ago, WhyEverNot_8 said:

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Something I hate about myself is my tendency to trust people too much. I find myself getting closer and closer to someone and I end up… dropping the walls too much. So much that I end up seeming weak and useless, and eventually, it comes back to hit me. Like letting a bunch of water into a closed pool, eventually it’s going to flow back and encompass the source. I trust people too much, and it makes me worse. Not because I trust them, but because of me. I realize that I can trust that person to support me, so I loosen my grip on the stronger parts of myself, and when it gets too much for them to support, I just… fall. And I end up near the bottom of yet another pit, and they’re above me, looking down. Sometimes I can manage being consistent, being decisive, and actually functioning properly in text conversations. Other times I’m held back. Not by them but by me. It’s not their fault, it’s mine. Maybe I just need time away from people, maybe I need time with people. I don’t know. I don’t even know if I’m mad right now. I feel like I could be, but it’s gone before I can register it. I think I need to do something with my hands now. Maybe I’ll go screw around with legos or something…

 

It's not weakness to need or want support from people you trust. It's normal, and healthy. 

However, the counterpoint to that is different then you might expect. It's not "It's strength to let your walls down and let people in." Which might sound counter to what Taln said, so let me explain, because I agree with what he said. 

It takes courage to let your walls down, to trust people, to lean on them. But as you've noticed, it can also be easy to rely on them too much; to dump too much them, to ask for more than they can give, and end up feeling like you described - weak, fallen down, useless. 

But we need to lean on each other; we're built for community, for connection and support. So how do we navigate that? 

Communication and mutual support. Check in with your friends. Just like how sometimes you're engaged, consistent, and functional, and sometimes you're not, they will sometimes not be in a good space to support you. Not because you are too much, or too weak, but because they are humans with human needs and struggles. And sometimes they will be able to support you. So check in and ask. "Hey, I'm really struggling. Can I vent to you for a bit?" Or "I know I've been leaning on you a lot lately. Let me know if you need some space to take care of yourself, ok?" 

Bonus: this gives you the opportunity to support them in return. You are showing them you care about them and letting them feel listened to by checking in with them. And when they say there's other things going on, you have the opportunity to offer them a shoulder to lean on, or a listening ear, or alone space if that's what they need.

So it takes courage to take down your walls. But it takes strength to build bridges. 

Side tangent: It's ok to be there for someone intermittently. I know we all want to be there for each other all the time, whenever we're needed. But we're not always able to be there, for a number of reasons; and that's ok. Especially here on the shard, we have a group; if one person isn't able to engage for whatever reason, there's others who can step in and support whoever needs it. And even irl, it's ok, and healthy!, to be able to say to friends "I need to take some quiet space for a bit, get myself recentered and whatnot. I'll call you/message you when I'm up for talking." But that last part is key - communicate it! Even if it's not until after the fact, let them know that you love them and support them even though you come and go. Communicate.

And you're not useless for messing up, or doing it wrong, or trusting too much or leaning too hard or falling down. The strongest link in a chain is the one that broke and has been repaired. The work you put into learning from your failures and repairing things that went wrong is work that builds those bridges between you and your friends; and the stronger those bridges are, the better you can both support each other. 

10 hours ago, WhyEverNot_8 said:

personally I’m hoping for the “Level Complete: Free Play Unlocked.” screen to show up and to get my own pocket dimension

Creative mode. Go hog wild.

[Through the Living Questio he/him]

On 7/10/2025 at 11:06 PM, MirkerLurker said:

It's not weakness to need or want support from people you trust. It's normal, and healthy. 

However, the counterpoint to that is different then you might expect. It's not "It's strength to let your walls down and let people in." Which might sound counter to what Taln said, so let me explain, because I agree with what he said. 

It takes courage to let your walls down, to trust people, to lean on them. But as you've noticed, it can also be easy to rely on them too much; to dump too much them, to ask for more than they can give, and end up feeling like you described - weak, fallen down, useless. 

But we need to lean on each other; we're built for community, for connection and support. So how do we navigate that? 

Communication and mutual support. Check in with your friends. Just like how sometimes you're engaged, consistent, and functional, and sometimes you're not, they will sometimes not be in a good space to support you. Not because you are too much, or too weak, but because they are humans with human needs and struggles. And sometimes they will be able to support you. So check in and ask. "Hey, I'm really struggling. Can I vent to you for a bit?" Or "I know I've been leaning on you a lot lately. Let me know if you need some space to take care of yourself, ok?" 

Bonus: this gives you the opportunity to support them in return. You are showing them you care about them and letting them feel listened to by checking in with them. And when they say there's other things going on, you have the opportunity to offer them a shoulder to lean on, or a listening ear, or alone space if that's what they need.

So it takes courage to take down your walls. But it takes strength to build bridges. 

Side tangent: It's ok to be there for someone intermittently. I know we all want to be there for each other all the time, whenever we're needed. But we're not always able to be there, for a number of reasons; and that's ok. Especially here on the shard, we have a group; if one person isn't able to engage for whatever reason, there's others who can step in and support whoever needs it. And even irl, it's ok, and healthy!, to be able to say to friends "I need to take some quiet space for a bit, get myself recentered and whatnot. I'll call you/message you when I'm up for talking." But that last part is key - communicate it! Even if it's not until after the fact, let them know that you love them and support them even though you come and go. Communicate.

And you're not useless for messing up, or doing it wrong, or trusting too much or leaning too hard or falling down. The strongest link in a chain is the one that broke and has been repaired. The work you put into learning from your failures and repairing things that went wrong is work that builds those bridges between you and your friends; and the stronger those bridges are, the better you can both support each other. 

Creative mode. Go hog wild.

Thank you. 

I know I’m late in replying but this helped. 

I’m doing a lot better now!

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

19 hours ago, WhyEverNot_8 said:

Thank you. 

I know I’m late in replying but this helped. 

I’m doing a lot better now!

That’s great

[MirkerLurker she/her]

On 7/13/2025 at 11:02 AM, WhyEverNot_8 said:

Thank you. 

I know I’m late in replying but this helped. 

I’m doing a lot better now!

Yay!

You're very welcome.

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

I um had a panic attack and started crying mid rehearsal today because I was doing really bad and the conductor was going so fast and my neck hurt and I was messing up and yah. Um that was fun. I don’t get panic attacks very often this was the second one I’ve ever had and um they aren’t very fun but the counslers let me leave and take a second so that was good. #lovemusiccamps

[MirkerLurker she/her]

1 hour ago, Honors ghost said:

I um had a panic attack and started crying mid rehearsal today because I was doing really bad and the conductor was going so fast and my neck hurt and I was messing up and yah. Um that was fun. I don’t get panic attacks very often this was the second one I’ve ever had and um they aren’t very fun but the counslers let me leave and take a second so that was good. #lovemusiccamps

*hug*

Panic attacks are scary; and sometimes embarrassing, and confusing, and exhausting, and lots more. I'm glad they let you leave to take a break. Music can be a field with a lot of pressure; even if you love it, it can be very stressful. *more hug*

 

So I found this online today: 

And I located the actual PDF here: https://qprinstitute.com/pdfs/Forever_Decision.pdf

It seems like something that we should all have tucked in a back pocket, whether for ourselves or for someone else. I've started it, and I like the way the author talks directly to and respectfully about people who think about suicide. 

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

14 hours ago, MirkerLurker said:

*hug*

Panic attacks are scary; and sometimes embarrassing, and confusing, and exhausting, and lots more. I'm glad they let you leave to take a break. Music can be a field with a lot of pressure; even if you love it, it can be very stressful. *more hug*

 

So I found this online today: 

And I located the actual PDF here: https://qprinstitute.com/pdfs/Forever_Decision.pdf

It seems like something that we should all have tucked in a back pocket, whether for ourselves or for someone else. I've started it, and I like the way the author talks directly to and respectfully about people who think about suicide. 

*hugs back* thank you for the pdf and your response I’m abt halfway through the pdf it’s good

[Keke They/he]

On 7/15/2025 at 4:14 PM, Honors ghost said:

I um had a panic attack and started crying mid rehearsal today because I was doing really bad and the conductor was going so fast and my neck hurt and I was messing up and yah. Um that was fun. I don’t get panic attacks very often this was the second one I’ve ever had and um they aren’t very fun but the counslers let me leave and take a second so that was good. #lovemusiccamps

*hugs hugs* 

On 7/15/2025 at 5:26 PM, MirkerLurker said:

*hug*

Panic attacks are scary; and sometimes embarrassing, and confusing, and exhausting, and lots more. I'm glad they let you leave to take a break. Music can be a field with a lot of pressure; even if you love it, it can be very stressful. *more hug*

 

So I found this online today: 

And I located the actual PDF here: https://qprinstitute.com/pdfs/Forever_Decision.pdf

It seems like something that we should all have tucked in a back pocket, whether for ourselves or for someone else. I've started it, and I like the way the author talks directly to and respectfully about people who think about suicide. 

Oh. Nice?

 

Ok so this may be long. 

Spoiler

So the past few weeks I've been on a vacation. I went to Utah to spend time witg my mom's side of the family. Then moab utah to have a family reunion on my dad's side. And this week im in Cali eith my grandparents. And it has been. Crazy. In a good way. So I had a few nice chats with my cousin we will call him DT. He saw one of my videos with the whole therian trans everything and he was like im so glad. Ive got a fursona and we talked alot mostly about mha but it was awesome. Next was last week. I went to moab Utah for a family reunion on my dad's side. I thought that that side wouldnt be to tolerant on lgbtq and everything. Until the first day after we arrived I saw my aunt Js family. Id always been closer to them but ya know never actually seen them in like two years. And they had so many pride stickers. After a bit I talked to them ro see if they were allies or what. My cousin M is bi and ace? Or aro idk. But they are huge supporters and they have a giant pride flag and hundreds of stickers and glasses and everything. I told them I was trans and everything. About alterhumans and it was so awesome. They called me Hawks and then my aunt H heard and she clarified what I identified as and supports me to and it was so awesome. While we were there I did so much out of my comfort zone. I did free hand rock climbing ip mountains. MOUNTAINS!!! I went proper offloading on rocks and it eas scary but I did it. I jumped off a cliff into water after a while of convincing. I spent hours talking about kpop demon hunters with M and R. We talked all day and it was honestly the best thing I've experienced in a long time. I felt so free and i... I think over these weeks I've found myself. Ive been able to... calm down. Get my head straight and pull myself out of the pit I was falling into.

There is hope. I swear on everything. You WILL make it out of the dark. It takes time. Energy. And to take a part from hoid. "Push yourself to the limits to discover and investigate new things." It took taking a break and focusing on life. The fun part. Not the divorce or the stress. Seeing whats here and now and enjoying it. Me and my cousins have a saying. Its not about the view of the hike, Its about the experience and those you do it with. 

Dont sit out because its boring. Do it because your doing it with friends. Good comes out of everything. Even if it seems [redacted] and like your never gonna get better. I swear it will. Please trust me. I promise you. You will be warm again. 

I love every one of you with all my heart. I would not have made it this far without you. I can tell you all that your the reason why im happy today. Thank tou so much. For everything. For staying my friends when I go offline or when im super annoying. Or when I backed out of all the roleplays. You are the best. I love you. 

 

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

5 minutes ago, Hawks said:

*hugs hugs* 

Oh. Nice?

 

Ok so this may be long. 

  Hide contents

So the past few weeks I've been on a vacation. I went to Utah to spend time witg my mom's side of the family. Then moab utah to have a family reunion on my dad's side. And this week im in Cali eith my grandparents. And it has been. Crazy. In a good way. So I had a few nice chats with my cousin we will call him DT. He saw one of my videos with the whole therian trans everything and he was like im so glad. Ive got a fursona and we talked alot mostly about mha but it was awesome. Next was last week. I went to moab Utah for a family reunion on my dad's side. I thought that that side wouldnt be to tolerant on lgbtq and everything. Until the first day after we arrived I saw my aunt Js family. Id always been closer to them but ya know never actually seen them in like two years. And they had so many pride stickers. After a bit I talked to them ro see if they were allies or what. My cousin M is bi and ace? Or aro idk. But they are huge supporters and they have a giant pride flag and hundreds of stickers and glasses and everything. I told them I was trans and everything. About alterhumans and it was so awesome. They called me Hawks and then my aunt H heard and she clarified what I identified as and supports me to and it was so awesome. While we were there I did so much out of my comfort zone. I did free hand rock climbing ip mountains. MOUNTAINS!!! I went proper offloading on rocks and it eas scary but I did it. I jumped off a cliff into water after a while of convincing. I spent hours talking about kpop demon hunters with M and R. We talked all day and it was honestly the best thing I've experienced in a long time. I felt so free and i... I think over these weeks I've found myself. Ive been able to... calm down. Get my head straight and pull myself out of the pit I was falling into.

There is hope. I swear on everything. You WILL make it out of the dark. It takes time. Energy. And to take a part from hoid. "Push yourself to the limits to discover and investigate new things." It took taking a break and focusing on life. The fun part. Not the divorce or the stress. Seeing whats here and now and enjoying it. Me and my cousins have a saying. Its not about the view of the hike, Its about the experience and those you do it with. 

Dont sit out because its boring. Do it because your doing it with friends. Good comes out of everything. Even if it seems [redacted] and like your never gonna get better. I swear it will. Please trust me. I promise you. You will be warm again. 

I love every one of you with all my heart. I would not have made it this far without you. I can tell you all that your the reason why im happy today. Thank tou so much. For everything. For staying my friends when I go offline or when im super annoying. Or when I backed out of all the roleplays. You are the best. I love you. 

 

*HUGS*

That's awesome

And we'll always be your friends

[Through the Living Hope]

8 minutes ago, Hawks said:

*hugs hugs* 

Oh. Nice?

 

Ok so this may be long. 

  Hide contents

So the past few weeks I've been on a vacation. I went to Utah to spend time witg my mom's side of the family. Then moab utah to have a family reunion on my dad's side. And this week im in Cali eith my grandparents. And it has been. Crazy. In a good way. So I had a few nice chats with my cousin we will call him DT. He saw one of my videos with the whole therian trans everything and he was like im so glad. Ive got a fursona and we talked alot mostly about mha but it was awesome. Next was last week. I went to moab Utah for a family reunion on my dad's side. I thought that that side wouldnt be to tolerant on lgbtq and everything. Until the first day after we arrived I saw my aunt Js family. Id always been closer to them but ya know never actually seen them in like two years. And they had so many pride stickers. After a bit I talked to them ro see if they were allies or what. My cousin M is bi and ace? Or aro idk. But they are huge supporters and they have a giant pride flag and hundreds of stickers and glasses and everything. I told them I was trans and everything. About alterhumans and it was so awesome. They called me Hawks and then my aunt H heard and she clarified what I identified as and supports me to and it was so awesome. While we were there I did so much out of my comfort zone. I did free hand rock climbing ip mountains. MOUNTAINS!!! I went proper offloading on rocks and it eas scary but I did it. I jumped off a cliff into water after a while of convincing. I spent hours talking about kpop demon hunters with M and R. We talked all day and it was honestly the best thing I've experienced in a long time. I felt so free and i... I think over these weeks I've found myself. Ive been able to... calm down. Get my head straight and pull myself out of the pit I was falling into.

There is hope. I swear on everything. You WILL make it out of the dark. It takes time. Energy. And to take a part from hoid. "Push yourself to the limits to discover and investigate new things." It took taking a break and focusing on life. The fun part. Not the divorce or the stress. Seeing whats here and now and enjoying it. Me and my cousins have a saying. Its not about the view of the hike, Its about the experience and those you do it with. 

Dont sit out because its boring. Do it because your doing it with friends. Good comes out of everything. Even if it seems [redacted] and like your never gonna get better. I swear it will. Please trust me. I promise you. You will be warm again. 

I love every one of you with all my heart. I would not have made it this far without you. I can tell you all that your the reason why im happy today. Thank tou so much. For everything. For staying my friends when I go offline or when im super annoying. Or when I backed out of all the roleplays. You are the best. I love you. 

 

 

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

21 minutes ago, Hawks said:

*hugs hugs* 

Oh. Nice?

 

Ok so this may be long. 

  Hide contents

So the past few weeks I've been on a vacation. I went to Utah to spend time witg my mom's side of the family. Then moab utah to have a family reunion on my dad's side. And this week im in Cali eith my grandparents. And it has been. Crazy. In a good way. So I had a few nice chats with my cousin we will call him DT. He saw one of my videos with the whole therian trans everything and he was like im so glad. Ive got a fursona and we talked alot mostly about mha but it was awesome. Next was last week. I went to moab Utah for a family reunion on my dad's side. I thought that that side wouldnt be to tolerant on lgbtq and everything. Until the first day after we arrived I saw my aunt Js family. Id always been closer to them but ya know never actually seen them in like two years. And they had so many pride stickers. After a bit I talked to them ro see if they were allies or what. My cousin M is bi and ace? Or aro idk. But they are huge supporters and they have a giant pride flag and hundreds of stickers and glasses and everything. I told them I was trans and everything. About alterhumans and it was so awesome. They called me Hawks and then my aunt H heard and she clarified what I identified as and supports me to and it was so awesome. While we were there I did so much out of my comfort zone. I did free hand rock climbing ip mountains. MOUNTAINS!!! I went proper offloading on rocks and it eas scary but I did it. I jumped off a cliff into water after a while of convincing. I spent hours talking about kpop demon hunters with M and R. We talked all day and it was honestly the best thing I've experienced in a long time. I felt so free and i... I think over these weeks I've found myself. Ive been able to... calm down. Get my head straight and pull myself out of the pit I was falling into.

There is hope. I swear on everything. You WILL make it out of the dark. It takes time. Energy. And to take a part from hoid. "Push yourself to the limits to discover and investigate new things." It took taking a break and focusing on life. The fun part. Not the divorce or the stress. Seeing whats here and now and enjoying it. Me and my cousins have a saying. Its not about the view of the hike, Its about the experience and those you do it with. 

Dont sit out because its boring. Do it because your doing it with friends. Good comes out of everything. Even if it seems [redacted] and like your never gonna get better. I swear it will. Please trust me. I promise you. You will be warm again. 

I love every one of you with all my heart. I would not have made it this far without you. I can tell you all that your the reason why im happy today. Thank tou so much. For everything. For staying my friends when I go offline or when im super annoying. Or when I backed out of all the roleplays. You are the best. I love you. 

 

*hugs*

THATS SO AWESOME 

I'm so happy for you 

And thank you for everything too

*hugs even more*

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

7 minutes ago, Kansas Stormcursed said:

CODER

NOT AGAIN

ITS HUGS

HOW ARE HUGS BAD

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

Just now, CoderDrag0n8 said:

ITS HUGS

HOW ARE HUGS BAD

THE LAG

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

2 minutes ago, Kansas Stormcursed said:

THE LAG

LOL IMAGINE

JUST DONT OPEN IT
ITS PANDORAS BOX FOR A REASON

Edited July 17, 2025 by CoderDrag0n8

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

8 minutes ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

LOL IMAGINE

JUST DONT OPEN IT

.......

I DID

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

2 minutes ago, Kansas Stormcursed said:

.......

I DID

CLOSE IT

BEFORE TO MANY HUGS/EVIL SPIRITS GET OUT

yeah i call it pandora's box.

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

Just now, CoderDrag0n8 said:

CLOSE IT

BEFORE TO MANY HUGS/EVIL SPIRITS GET OUT

yeah i call it pandora's box.

Hugs/evil spirits...? *scared*

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

Just now, Kansas Stormcursed said:

Hugs/evil spirits...? *scared*

Pandora's box.

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

Just now, CoderDrag0n8 said:

Pandora's box.

But...why are they put like that? It's like you're describing them as the same

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

10 minutes ago, Kansas Stormcursed said:

But...why are they put like that? It's like you're describing them as the same

its an analogy

The spoiler box is pandoras box

the hugs are the evil spirts out to get humanity

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

2 minutes ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

its an analogy

The spoiler box is pandoras box

the hugs are the evil spirts out to get humanity

Oh...

I'm gonna start describing hugs as evil spirits now and see how confused people get

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

8 minutes ago, Kansas Stormcursed said:

Oh...

I'm gonna start describing hugs as evil spirits now and see how confused people get

*gives evil spirits*

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

Just now, CoderDrag0n8 said:

*gives evil spirits*

Thanks!

*gives some evil spirits back to share*

[echo74 she/her]

2 hours ago, Hawks said:

*hugs hugs* 

Oh. Nice?

 

Ok so this may be long. 

  Reveal hidden contents

So the past few weeks I've been on a vacation. I went to Utah to spend time witg my mom's side of the family. Then moab utah to have a family reunion on my dad's side. And this week im in Cali eith my grandparents. And it has been. Crazy. In a good way. So I had a few nice chats with my cousin we will call him DT. He saw one of my videos with the whole therian trans everything and he was like im so glad. Ive got a fursona and we talked alot mostly about mha but it was awesome. Next was last week. I went to moab Utah for a family reunion on my dad's side. I thought that that side wouldnt be to tolerant on lgbtq and everything. Until the first day after we arrived I saw my aunt Js family. Id always been closer to them but ya know never actually seen them in like two years. And they had so many pride stickers. After a bit I talked to them ro see if they were allies or what. My cousin M is bi and ace? Or aro idk. But they are huge supporters and they have a giant pride flag and hundreds of stickers and glasses and everything. I told them I was trans and everything. About alterhumans and it was so awesome. They called me Hawks and then my aunt H heard and she clarified what I identified as and supports me to and it was so awesome. While we were there I did so much out of my comfort zone. I did free hand rock climbing ip mountains. MOUNTAINS!!! I went proper offloading on rocks and it eas scary but I did it. I jumped off a cliff into water after a while of convincing. I spent hours talking about kpop demon hunters with M and R. We talked all day and it was honestly the best thing I've experienced in a long time. I felt so free and i... I think over these weeks I've found myself. Ive been able to... calm down. Get my head straight and pull myself out of the pit I was falling into.

There is hope. I swear on everything. You WILL make it out of the dark. It takes time. Energy. And to take a part from hoid. "Push yourself to the limits to discover and investigate new things." It took taking a break and focusing on life. The fun part. Not the divorce or the stress. Seeing whats here and now and enjoying it. Me and my cousins have a saying. Its not about the view of the hike, Its about the experience and those you do it with. 

Dont sit out because its boring. Do it because your doing it with friends. Good comes out of everything. Even if it seems [redacted] and like your never gonna get better. I swear it will. Please trust me. I promise you. You will be warm again. 

I love every one of you with all my heart. I would not have made it this far without you. I can tell you all that your the reason why im happy today. Thank tou so much. For everything. For staying my friends when I go offline or when im super annoying. Or when I backed out of all the roleplays. You are the best. I love you. 

 

*hugs*