Mental health club!

[echo74 she/her]

8 hours ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

*hugs*

*more hugs*

Sprichst du noch Deutsch, oder war das nur Google Translate?

*hugs*

*hugs*

Just dropped to a 9

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Romantic rant/issues rant

My brain hates me again. Context first: I have horrible luck with crushes. Literally every person I’ve ever had a crush on isn’t interested in guys, is aroace, or is already dating someone. Like why

So that doesn’t help my mood a lot of days. Then there is my general sense of self-hatred and the knowledge/assumption that: a) nobody likes me except a few people who don’t fully know me and b) anybody who is my friend is only my friend for some higher purpose, i.e. they want something and will use me to get it. Plus, I have severe trust issues that really lead me to not believe when said friends try to convince me otherwise. Logically, I know all this is (probably) false, but I can’t convince my instincts of that.

(That’s why I put things in spoiler boxes—‘cause I assume nobody really reads them and I don’t want to clutter the page more)

So I’ve once again been analyzing the actions of those around me and driving myself crazy trying to figure out what they want. Yeah solid 9

 

*HUG*

i struggle with that too sometimes

just the feeling that one day all your friends will walk away bc they discover how you really are

that's really hard

*hug*

7 hours ago, Dabi said:

We’re doing this again I guess

i’m spoilering it for possible length

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Guys I don’t know what to do. Glass knows my current place in everything I’m about to say, and I know what she’ll say to all this. 
 

I don’t know if I can finish out tech this year. I’m so tired. I’m depressed when I go, and overwhelmed when I’m there. I’ve been stressed out of my mind and had a full mental breakdown last week. I didn’t want to, I just… I fell apart. If you know me, you know I don’t cry. Like ever. It’s very rare to see. I'm just so sick of people having me do their crap for them, to have to teach people that don't listen, or clean up after those who won't do it themselves. Last night I was doing jobs on my own that normally take 2-4 people, and I was just angry cause every time I asked for help I was blown off or our TD put them somewhere else. Eventually I just said I'd do it myself. I was angry when I drove home, but calmed down a bit while ranting to the TD about said thing, and he was constantly told that person needed a job that I asked for help from. Like I get that, but I'm still annoyed. I'm now here, laying  in bed, with my wrist wrapped in bandages and my knee bumming out, and stressing knowing I have to go to the dr and go to work tomorrow, Friday, and Saturday. 

 

I just need any advice at this point. Even if you tell me to quit tech, which I am seriously considering.I actually happen to like my job (sometimes) and don't want to quit right now. I couldn't afford too anyway. just anything you can give would be great. Thank you for coming to my ted talk

 

Edit: idk why it's double spoilered, my b I guess

also

*bear hugs*

that's so frustrating

is there anyone who does help out?

6 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Sorry to everyone I don’t have the energy to hug 

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I generally don’t post my stuff on this thread; usually I just put it in an SU because I don’t know. But 

here we are anyway 

it was dark, as it often is at night. There was a light waaaay off in the distance, barely visible. It was surrounded by a crushingly long, dark black tunnel. Impossibly long. I didn’t even want to try moving toward it. What would the point be? I’d probably never get there, and almost all that time would be spent blindly blundering in painful darkness. Even if I reached the light, would that tiny amount of time make up for anything? Would I just be flung into a new tunnel anyway? 

I moved toward it and reached it in a matter of seconds. The light was, in truth, not small because of distance, but small because of its size. It was a light on the air purifier— tiny, negligible, worthless against the surrounding darkness.

That’s what it feels like. 

So I’m left wondering, how much darkness does it take before it stops being worth it? 

Will I ever look back and wish I’d never lived to be older just to be spared the pain? 

Is there more light waiting that I can’t see? Out of reach, behind the walls, hidden somewhere in my own head? Or blood? Will I ever find it?

Will I EVER banish this tunnel I keep finding myself in? 

Why do I have to do it all alone? 

Thanks if you read that, hugs either way 

may your tunnels be short, friends 

*hug*

may you find peace and light and love

may you not give up, even though it's dark

may your eyes adjust to the darkness

may you make it out of the darkness

love you girlie

5 hours ago, Wittles said:

It's been one of those weeks where I just really hate how I look. 

I just really hate my stupid face

and my hair

and my everything else

*hug*

what are three things you like about you?

[ANHlittleinsane girl but gendern't mostly]

So yall guess who forgot about their weird little undiagnosed but definitely seasonal depression-related thing!!

every single year I think maybe it’ll be different and then spring hits me like a truck with the bad thoughts…

[Keke They/he]

9 hours ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

*hugs*

*more hugs*

Sprichst du noch Deutsch, oder war das nur Google Translate?

*hugs*

*hugs*

Just dropped to a 9

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Romantic rant/issues rant

My brain hates me again. Context first: I have horrible luck with crushes. Literally every person I’ve ever had a crush on isn’t interested in guys, is aroace, or is already dating someone. Like why

So that doesn’t help my mood a lot of days. Then there is my general sense of self-hatred and the knowledge/assumption that: a) nobody likes me except a few people who don’t fully know me and b) anybody who is my friend is only my friend for some higher purpose, i.e. they want something and will use me to get it. Plus, I have severe trust issues that really lead me to not believe when said friends try to convince me otherwise. Logically, I know all this is (probably) false, but I can’t convince my instincts of that.

(That’s why I put things in spoiler boxes—‘cause I assume nobody really reads them and I don’t want to clutter the page more)

So I’ve once again been analyzing the actions of those around me and driving myself crazy trying to figure out what they want. Yeah solid 9

 

Okokokokok

So

Dont feel instantly dead about aroace people. 

aroace can still have crushes. It just takes alot more. And they are different types of crushes. But its not hopeless if you get a crush on an aroace person. 

aroace doesnt mean no dating.

ok bro thars all i got *huge hug*

6 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Sorry to everyone I don’t have the energy to hug 

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I generally don’t post my stuff on this thread; usually I just put it in an SU because I don’t know. But 

here we are anyway 

it was dark, as it often is at night. There was a light waaaay off in the distance, barely visible. It was surrounded by a crushingly long, dark black tunnel. Impossibly long. I didn’t even want to try moving toward it. What would the point be? I’d probably never get there, and almost all that time would be spent blindly blundering in painful darkness. Even if I reached the light, would that tiny amount of time make up for anything? Would I just be flung into a new tunnel anyway? 

I moved toward it and reached it in a matter of seconds. The light was, in truth, not small because of distance, but small because of its size. It was a light on the air purifier— tiny, negligible, worthless against the surrounding darkness.

That’s what it feels like. 

So I’m left wondering, how much darkness does it take before it stops being worth it? 

Will I ever look back and wish I’d never lived to be older just to be spared the pain? 

Is there more light waiting that I can’t see? Out of reach, behind the walls, hidden somewhere in my own head? Or blood? Will I ever find it?

Will I EVER banish this tunnel I keep finding myself in? 

Why do I have to do it all alone? 

Thanks if you read that, hugs either way 

may your tunnels be short, friends 

*hugs* it ends. I stg. It end. It sucks. Your not alone. We are here for you haly. *hugs*

6 hours ago, Wittles said:

It's been one of those weeks where I just really hate how I look. 

I just really hate my stupid face

and my hair

and my everything else

wittles. I can say, you look awesome. Idk what you look like. Vut its fire. 

8 minutes ago, alittleinsane said:

So yall guess who forgot about their weird little undiagnosed but definitely seasonal depression-related thing!!

every single year I think maybe it’ll be different and then spring hits me like a truck with the bad thoughts…

*hug* seasonal depression storming sucks

 

8 hours ago, Dabi said:

We’re doing this again I guess

i’m spoilering it for possible length

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Guys I don’t know what to do. Glass knows my current place in everything I’m about to say, and I know what she’ll say to all this. 
 

I don’t know if I can finish out tech this year. I’m so tired. I’m depressed when I go, and overwhelmed when I’m there. I’ve been stressed out of my mind and had a full mental breakdown last week. I didn’t want to, I just… I fell apart. If you know me, you know I don’t cry. Like ever. It’s very rare to see. I'm just so sick of people having me do their crap for them, to have to teach people that don't listen, or clean up after those who won't do it themselves. Last night I was doing jobs on my own that normally take 2-4 people, and I was just angry cause every time I asked for help I was blown off or our TD put them somewhere else. Eventually I just said I'd do it myself. I was angry when I drove home, but calmed down a bit while ranting to the TD about said thing, and he was constantly told that person needed a job that I asked for help from. Like I get that, but I'm still annoyed. I'm now here, laying  in bed, with my wrist wrapped in bandages and my knee bumming out, and stressing knowing I have to go to the dr and go to work tomorrow, Friday, and Saturday. 

 

I just need any advice at this point. Even if you tell me to quit tech, which I am seriously considering.I actually happen to like my job (sometimes) and don't want to quit right now. I couldn't afford too anyway. just anything you can give would be great. Thank you for coming to my ted talk

 

Edit: idk why it's double spoilered, my b I guess

also

*bear hugs*

*mumbles not shard aloud words*

*huge bear hugs*

Feel free to call/message me if you need to yell at anything

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

7 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Sorry to everyone I don’t have the energy to hug 

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I generally don’t post my stuff on this thread; usually I just put it in an SU because I don’t know. But 

here we are anyway 

it was dark, as it often is at night. There was a light waaaay off in the distance, barely visible. It was surrounded by a crushingly long, dark black tunnel. Impossibly long. I didn’t even want to try moving toward it. What would the point be? I’d probably never get there, and almost all that time would be spent blindly blundering in painful darkness. Even if I reached the light, would that tiny amount of time make up for anything? Would I just be flung into a new tunnel anyway? 

I moved toward it and reached it in a matter of seconds. The light was, in truth, not small because of distance, but small because of its size. It was a light on the air purifier— tiny, negligible, worthless against the surrounding darkness.

That’s what it feels like. 

So I’m left wondering, how much darkness does it take before it stops being worth it? 

Will I ever look back and wish I’d never lived to be older just to be spared the pain? 

Is there more light waiting that I can’t see? Out of reach, behind the walls, hidden somewhere in my own head? Or blood? Will I ever find it?

Will I EVER banish this tunnel I keep finding myself in? 

Why do I have to do it all alone? 

Thanks if you read that, hugs either way 

may your tunnels be short, friends 

That light is still important

Even if it's small and doesn't look like much

It'll get better 

There are more small lights than you know

You probably just don't notice them

But there will be light again

You'll get out of this tunnel

7 hours ago, Wittles said:

It's been one of those weeks where I just really hate how I look. 

I just really hate my stupid face

and my hair

and my everything else

*hug*

I'm sorry

1 hour ago, Hoid_Slayer said:

Oof

Well, I’m not using you for a higher purpose. And I’m sorry you feel like that.

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I struggle with something similar, but completely different at the same time. I don’t think my friends are using me; quite the opposite, they’re trying to be good friends, but I just can’t… let them in. I feel like I don’t fit in with them. Like I’m the imposter. In a few weeks, my family is going to Lima to visit our family and old friends (we used to live there until like six months ago). My sister is ecstatic; she cried when she had to leave her friends. But me… I’m just indifferent. I feel like I should care, but I don’t really. I’ve just never really been that close with my friends. Ever. 

*bear hugs back*

We’re here for you. No matter what. If it’s hurting you so much, maybe you should drop it. And if you choose not to, then you definitely have to keep complaining. Make your voice heard. But most importantly, take care of yourself.

*hugs tight*

You are right about a lot of things. But not everything.

That small, tiny light? It does matter. Because at its heart, waiting to be unleashed, is a little fire. A fire that can light countless more. Light the fire. And it will be infinitely worth it.

When you look back, you will see the pain. And the darkness. But you will also see the light. All the lights that you lit. The fire you carried. And that you will not regret.

Will you banish the tunnel? Maybe not. The tunnel will always be there. But it will be lit.

And you will not have to walk it alone.

*hugs also*

1 hour ago, alittleinsane said:

So yall guess who forgot about their weird little undiagnosed but definitely seasonal depression-related thing!!

every single year I think maybe it’ll be different and then spring hits me like a truck with the bad thoughts…

*squeeze*

That's what summer's like for me

It sucks

I'm sorry

9 hours ago, Dabi said:

We’re doing this again I guess

i’m spoilering it for possible length

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Guys I don’t know what to do. Glass knows my current place in everything I’m about to say, and I know what she’ll say to all this. 
 

I don’t know if I can finish out tech this year. I’m so tired. I’m depressed when I go, and overwhelmed when I’m there. I’ve been stressed out of my mind and had a full mental breakdown last week. I didn’t want to, I just… I fell apart. If you know me, you know I don’t cry. Like ever. It’s very rare to see. I'm just so sick of people having me do their crap for them, to have to teach people that don't listen, or clean up after those who won't do it themselves. Last night I was doing jobs on my own that normally take 2-4 people, and I was just angry cause every time I asked for help I was blown off or our TD put them somewhere else. Eventually I just said I'd do it myself. I was angry when I drove home, but calmed down a bit while ranting to the TD about said thing, and he was constantly told that person needed a job that I asked for help from. Like I get that, but I'm still annoyed. I'm now here, laying  in bed, with my wrist wrapped in bandages and my knee bumming out, and stressing knowing I have to go to the dr and go to work tomorrow, Friday, and Saturday. 

 

I just need any advice at this point. Even if you tell me to quit tech, which I am seriously considering.I actually happen to like my job (sometimes) and don't want to quit right now. I couldn't afford too anyway. just anything you can give would be great. Thank you for coming to my ted talk

 

Edit: idk why it's double spoilered, my b I guess

also

*bear hugs*

*hugs*

You should quit

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

15 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

About an 8.

8 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Sorry to everyone I don’t have the energy to hug 

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I generally don’t post my stuff on this thread; usually I just put it in an SU because I don’t know. But 

here we are anyway 

it was dark, as it often is at night. There was a light waaaay off in the distance, barely visible. It was surrounded by a crushingly long, dark black tunnel. Impossibly long. I didn’t even want to try moving toward it. What would the point be? I’d probably never get there, and almost all that time would be spent blindly blundering in painful darkness. Even if I reached the light, would that tiny amount of time make up for anything? Would I just be flung into a new tunnel anyway? 

I moved toward it and reached it in a matter of seconds. The light was, in truth, not small because of distance, but small because of its size. It was a light on the air purifier— tiny, negligible, worthless against the surrounding darkness.

That’s what it feels like. 

So I’m left wondering, how much darkness does it take before it stops being worth it? 

Will I ever look back and wish I’d never lived to be older just to be spared the pain? 

Is there more light waiting that I can’t see? Out of reach, behind the walls, hidden somewhere in my own head? Or blood? Will I ever find it?

Will I EVER banish this tunnel I keep finding myself in? 

Why do I have to do it all alone? 

Thanks if you read that, hugs either way 

may your tunnels be short, friends 

The light is there. It can be hard to find, and dim, but it's there. And the fact that you are still looking for it, despite the doubt and questions and dark thoughts trying to drown you, is wonderful. 

You are not alone. It feels you are. The statement that you aren't probably sounds patronising and trite.  But it is true nevertheless.

Even if you look back and you wish you hadn't gone through everything you will, which I doubt will happen, at least know that you have made the lives of some others so, so much better by being here. Just be existing, and being the person you are, with all the flaws and virtues that you have, you have help other people.

I know it's hard now, believe me. When all that is left is after images of light ain that huge expanse of darkness and danger, when all you have is a mockery of hope or happiness, it is so hard to keep going. But doing so anyway is worth it, eventually. And looking back on it, I think you will value the things you learned from it.

*many many hugs*

1 hour ago, alittleinsane said:

So yall guess who forgot about their weird little undiagnosed but definitely seasonal depression-related thing!!

every single year I think maybe it’ll be different and then spring hits me like a truck with the bad thoughts…

Ah yes, the seasonal punch in the gut! How fun. (sarcasm)

I get it. I'm sorry. *hug*

On 3/26/2025 at 2:52 AM, Hawks said:

Mmm is 12:36 and I cannot sleep

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Dyall ever look at your life and see that your reverting to old ways? Now normally that'd be fine but your scared of how you used to be and don't want to go back. So in an attempt to break it you drowned out life in music. But that doesn't help. 

It's like a constant record playing in your head

Every mistake

Every moment

Just going at once. And no matter how loud you blare your music. No matter how much you write in a journal. It doesn't work. 

Everyone says it'll help but you try

And try

And try

But nothing. 

But you can't say that

Its mean

We can't be mean

We are supposed to be that nice Lil girl who is the best smart girl. 

But instead your what you said you'd never be. 

You look at your little self and say sorry

Sorry for killing you. Sorry for ruining us. Sorry. For. Everything. I wish I could protect her. The little girl who just wanted to play heros with her friends. Bayblade battles on the swing. Seeing who could run fastest. Helping friends. Being able to walk to friends houses. It's gone now. So is your innocence. That's what we call it now, the move that changed everything. 

Now your me. And that's bad. 

But again we can't be bad. Because everyone expects us to be good. Regardless of how much we want to. Your gonna go through your day wanting to say this or do that. But can't because even your best friends will say "thats not normal for you" 

Sometimes i ridicule past me. But that's because I miss them. Even when I hate them. Because they might not have been happy at home. But. They had a different life that I long for now. 

So I listen to my music. Trying to stop old habits. Trying to stop the brain. Until smart shuffle brings up a few old songs. The ones you cried to. But now. You cry for another reason. I mourn you. Why does it always go back to the past. 

Whats the way to get my brain to shut up! These thoughts scare me! Because when they get to big, I imagine it. Tsking my mom's gun. Then bang. End it. But it stops before then because I have to stay alive I have to be strong for someone else. Like citizen soldier says. I imagine people alone with my ghost. Then I realize the only reason I'm here js others. Had sprout not have befriended me id have pulled the trigger years ago. 

And you can't mention that to anyone because nope. Your the happy one. Always have been. But internally you were dying the whole time. You would scream yourself to death at night and in the morning you'd smile and walk out to more yelling from other sources. 

Yelling, crying, pass out. Wake up and smile

 Every day

All day

No break. Becahse the second you break there gonna yell at you. And yelling is bad. 

Am I talking to me, you, or past me? I don't know anymore. I can't deal with this! I don't know why! I should be happy! What's there to be sad about?

I don't even know amymore. Other then I gotta stay alive. That's all

 Stay alive. Ok? Stay alive for little me, my friends, my family. 

Sorry if that was hard to follow. I just, *sigh* brain barf? I dunno.

Now it's 12:53

*tight hug* 

Similarly to what I said to Haly, it's hard. I'm sorry. 

Keeping on going for others isn't perfect, but it works, somewhat. I've done it for years. 

It's hard to keep a smile on so much of the time. It hurts to yell or be yelled at. Try to trust someone with what is behind that mask of a smile. I know that is terrifying, but it will help.

[Keke They/he]

8 minutes ago, KnightSkye said:

About an 8.

The light is there. It can be hard to find, and dim, but it's there. And the fact that you are still looking for it, despite the doubt and questions and dark thoughts trying to drown you, is wonderful. 

You are not alone. It feels you are. The statement that you aren't probably sounds patronising and trite.  But it is true nevertheless.

Even if you look back and you wish you hadn't gone through everything you will, which I doubt will happen, at least know that you have made the lives of some others so, so much better by being here. Just be existing, and being the person you are, with all the flaws and virtues that you have, you have help other people.

I know it's hard now, believe me. When all that is left is after images of light ain that huge expanse of darkness and danger, when all you have is a mockery of hope or happiness, it is so hard to keep going. But doing so anyway is worth it, eventually. And looking back on it, I think you will value the things you learned from it.

*many many hugs*

Ah yes, the seasonal punch in the gut! How fun. (sarcasm)

I get it. I'm sorry. *hug*

*tight hug* 

Similarly to what I said to Haly, it's hard. I'm sorry. 

Keeping on going for others isn't perfect, but it works, somewhat. I've done it for years. 

It's hard to keep a smile on so much of the time. It hurts to yell or be yelled at. Try to trust someone with what is behind that mask of a smile. I know that is terrifying, but it will help.

*hugs* danke

[#1 Taln Fan he/him]

8 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Is there more light waiting that I can’t see

The answer is yes, even if it doesn't often seem like it. You've got a lot of life ahead of you, and things will get better eventually. Yes it may take a while, and life might suck for a bit. But when you do get through it, you'll be glad you hung in there. I know this from my own experience, and that of several of my friends. And I know it sounds a bit crazy rn, but I've sometimes found myself thankful that I went through those periods of deep depression and other struggles, because since then I've been better equipped to help some of my close friends with the same struggles. So just know that there is a big light at the end of the tunnel, even if you can't see it rn 

9 hours ago, Dabi said:

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I just need any advice at this point. Even if you tell me to quit tech, which I am seriously considering.I actually happen to like my job (sometimes) and don't want to quit right now. I couldn't afford too anyway. just anything you can give would be great. Thank you for coming to my ted talk

 

Not sure how old you are, so that's definitely a factor, but I would recommend taking time to sit and meditate on what specific things cause you the most stress/mental affliction. Sometimes there are other factors making us stressed/miserable, and then work just makes it worse, and every little thing just adds on to the pile. In that case, it's better to address the root problems. But if you find that work is the main thing negatively affecting your mental health, then it may be worth quitting, or at least finding better ways to manage stress. 

 

[echo74 she/her]

Spoiler

when you realize your dad is an actual child and that he's a completely absent father and that the only thing he really does for you is exist and talk to you every once in a while but it's usually disrespectful bc it'll be a negative comment on your outfit or your music or your friends or whatever

and then you're trying to talk to the family about something and he interrupts and starts playing and giggling with your sister

and your sister tells him to stop but he doesn't

and she tells him again but he doesn't

bc he only sees her as a child

and then when i tell him to stop he gets upset

and he's like "geez i was just trying to have fun"

and he walks back grumpily to pay attention

but he doesn't even pay attention bc he's on his dang phone

and when he's really upset he throws things at your mom or yells at you

you even remember one time when you were little and you snuck out of bed and he got really mad so he grabbed you and threw you back in bed

and it's really scary

and when you're upset he doesn't come and comfort you or offer support

he offers your mom support but not you and you don't know why and you just wish your dad would pay attention to you and get off his dang phone for once in his dang life

and then you realize that you're a lot like your dad bc you also are kinda lazy and antisocial sometimes

and you spend a lot of time on your phone

and that scares you so you push yourself to be social bc you don't want to hurt other people the way your dad hurt you

just by not being there

 

[Keke They/he]

1 minute ago, echo74 said:

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when you realize your dad is an actual child and that he's a completely absent father and that the only thing he really does for you is exist and talk to you every once in a while but it's usually disrespectful bc it'll be a negative comment on your outfit or your music or your friends or whatever

and then you're trying to talk to the family about something and he interrupts and starts playing and giggling with your sister

and your sister tells him to stop but he doesn't

and she tells him again but he doesn't

bc he only sees her as a child

and then when i tell him to stop he gets upset

and he's like "geez i was just trying to have fun"

and he walks back grumpily to pay attention

but he doesn't even pay attention bc he's on his dang phone

and when he's really upset he throws things at your mom or yells at you

you even remember one time when you were little and you snuck out of bed and he got really mad so he grabbed you and threw you back in bed

and it's really scary

and when you're upset he doesn't come and comfort you or offer support

he offers your mom support but not you and you don't know why and you just wish your dad would pay attention to you and get off his dang phone for once in his dang life

and then you realize that you're a lot like your dad bc you also are kinda lazy and antisocial sometimes

and you spend a lot of time on your phone

and that scares you so you push yourself to be social bc you don't want to hurt other people the way your dad hurt you

just by not being there

 

*Hugs*

hopefully this doesn’t sound insensitive but he’s kinda a deadbeat dad.

honestly parents suck so much. *hugs hugs&

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 hour ago, echo74 said:

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when you realize your dad is an actual child and that he's a completely absent father and that the only thing he really does for you is exist and talk to you every once in a while but it's usually disrespectful bc it'll be a negative comment on your outfit or your music or your friends or whatever

and then you're trying to talk to the family about something and he interrupts and starts playing and giggling with your sister

and your sister tells him to stop but he doesn't

and she tells him again but he doesn't

bc he only sees her as a child

and then when i tell him to stop he gets upset

and he's like "geez i was just trying to have fun"

and he walks back grumpily to pay attention

but he doesn't even pay attention bc he's on his dang phone

and when he's really upset he throws things at your mom or yells at you

you even remember one time when you were little and you snuck out of bed and he got really mad so he grabbed you and threw you back in bed

and it's really scary

and when you're upset he doesn't come and comfort you or offer support

he offers your mom support but not you and you don't know why and you just wish your dad would pay attention to you and get off his dang phone for once in his dang life

and then you realize that you're a lot like your dad bc you also are kinda lazy and antisocial sometimes

and you spend a lot of time on your phone

and that scares you so you push yourself to be social bc you don't want to hurt other people the way your dad hurt you

just by not being there

 

*squeeze*

ah, parents. so wonderful. 

*squeezes tighter*

I'm so sorry, Echo 

That's so garbage

[Shatter He/Him]

8 hours ago, alittleinsane said:

So yall guess who forgot about their weird little undiagnosed but definitely seasonal depression-related thing!!

every single year I think maybe it’ll be different and then spring hits me like a truck with the bad thoughts…

It's winter for me. It's so bleak.

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

7 hours ago, KnightSkye said:

About an 8.

*hugs*

6 hours ago, echo74 said:

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when you realize your dad is an actual child and that he's a completely absent father and that the only thing he really does for you is exist and talk to you every once in a while but it's usually disrespectful bc it'll be a negative comment on your outfit or your music or your friends or whatever

and then you're trying to talk to the family about something and he interrupts and starts playing and giggling with your sister

and your sister tells him to stop but he doesn't

and she tells him again but he doesn't

bc he only sees her as a child

and then when i tell him to stop he gets upset

and he's like "geez i was just trying to have fun"

and he walks back grumpily to pay attention

but he doesn't even pay attention bc he's on his dang phone

and when he's really upset he throws things at your mom or yells at you

you even remember one time when you were little and you snuck out of bed and he got really mad so he grabbed you and threw you back in bed

and it's really scary

and when you're upset he doesn't come and comfort you or offer support

he offers your mom support but not you and you don't know why and you just wish your dad would pay attention to you and get off his dang phone for once in his dang life

and then you realize that you're a lot like your dad bc you also are kinda lazy and antisocial sometimes

and you spend a lot of time on your phone

and that scares you so you push yourself to be social bc you don't want to hurt other people the way your dad hurt you

just by not being there

 

Oof

*hugs*

Know he doesn’t define you. I’m sorry you had to go through that 

[Wittles he/him]

6 hours ago, echo74 said:

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when you realize your dad is an actual child and that he's a completely absent father and that the only thing he really does for you is exist and talk to you every once in a while but it's usually disrespectful bc it'll be a negative comment on your outfit or your music or your friends or whatever

and then you're trying to talk to the family about something and he interrupts and starts playing and giggling with your sister

and your sister tells him to stop but he doesn't

and she tells him again but he doesn't

bc he only sees her as a child

and then when i tell him to stop he gets upset

and he's like "geez i was just trying to have fun"

and he walks back grumpily to pay attention

but he doesn't even pay attention bc he's on his dang phone

and when he's really upset he throws things at your mom or yells at you

you even remember one time when you were little and you snuck out of bed and he got really mad so he grabbed you and threw you back in bed

and it's really scary

and when you're upset he doesn't come and comfort you or offer support

he offers your mom support but not you and you don't know why and you just wish your dad would pay attention to you and get off his dang phone for once in his dang life

and then you realize that you're a lot like your dad bc you also are kinda lazy and antisocial sometimes

and you spend a lot of time on your phone

and that scares you so you push yourself to be social bc you don't want to hurt other people the way your dad hurt you

just by not being there

 

Wow, that's so real

*hugs*

9 hours ago, echo74 said:

*hug*

what are three things you like about you?

I like my hands...uhhh I guess I like my eyes....

this is depressing

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

4 minutes ago, Wittles said:

Wow, that's so real

*hugs*

I like my hands...uhhh I guess I like my eyes....

this is depressing

What about

Like

Your height? Your wingspan? Your hands because they help you do a certain thing really well?

*hug*

[Shatter He/Him]

10 minutes ago, Wittles said:

Wow, that's so real

*hugs*

I like my hands...uhhh I guess I like my eyes....

this is depressing

do you like your hair colour?

[Wittles he/him]

5 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

What about

Like

Your height? Your wingspan? Your hands because they help you do a certain thing really well?

*hug*

My hands are pretty much the only things I think of positively about myself usually

I was teased/minorly bullied about my height for most of my life, so there's not a lot about that to like

1 minute ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

do you like your hair colour?

not especially

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, Wittles said:

My hands are pretty much the only things I think of positively about myself usually

I was teased/minorly bullied about my height for most of my life, so there's not a lot about that to like

not especially

aw

Okay, well, there's two.

There's gotta be one more thing

[Wittles he/him]

4 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

aw

Okay, well, there's two.

There's gotta be one more thing

Idk

[Keke They/he]

Dude I'm gonna crash out

Spoiler

Ok so making edits tskes alot more time then people think. You have to go through take the pictures line the end with the beat of the song. And it's all suuuper glitch right? Ok so I'm doing one with videos. That makes it more glitchy. SO STORNING stormING GLITCHY IT MAKES ME WANNA CRASH OUT. So I spent like 5 hours working on this. It's only like a 39 second video. I had been working on trying to get the strobe effect on the videos. And. Then. 

IT MAKES ALL THE VIDEO SNIPPITS GO BLACK! OMGBEJORLE

dude 

I tried to fix it. It didn't work. 5 stormING HOURS!! 

AND IT GLITCHED AND ITS GONE!!!! G O N E!!

So much work.this is why I gravitated away from edits kn my channel and to easier videos

 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

14 minutes ago, Wittles said:

Idk

*hug*

1 minute ago, Hawks said:

Dude I'm gonna crash out

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Ok so making edits tskes alot more time then people think. You have to go through take the pictures line the end with the beat of the song. And it's all suuuper glitch right? Ok so I'm doing one with videos. That makes it more glitchy. SO STORNING stormING GLITCHY IT MAKES ME WANNA CRASH OUT. So I spent like 5 hours working on this. It's only like a 39 second video. I had been working on trying to get the strobe effect on the videos. And. Then. 

IT MAKES ALL THE VIDEO SNIPPITS GO BLACK! OMGBEJORLE

dude 

I tried to fix it. It didn't work. 5 stormING HOURS!! 

AND IT GLITCHED AND ITS GONE!!!! G O N E!!

So much work.this is why I gravitated away from edits kn my channel and to easier videos

 

dude nooooooo

That's so sad

GRR

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

3 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Dude I'm gonna crash out

  Hide contents

Ok so making edits tskes alot more time then people think. You have to go through take the pictures line the end with the beat of the song. And it's all suuuper glitch right? Ok so I'm doing one with videos. That makes it more glitchy. SO STORNING stormING GLITCHY IT MAKES ME WANNA CRASH OUT. So I spent like 5 hours working on this. It's only like a 39 second video. I had been working on trying to get the strobe effect on the videos. And. Then. 

IT MAKES ALL THE VIDEO SNIPPITS GO BLACK! OMGBEJORLE

dude 

I tried to fix it. It didn't work. 5 stormING HOURS!! 

AND IT GLITCHED AND ITS GONE!!!! G O N E!!

So much work.this is why I gravitated away from edits kn my channel and to easier videos

 

[echo74 she/her]

5 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Dude I'm gonna crash out

  Reveal hidden contents

Ok so making edits tskes alot more time then people think. You have to go through take the pictures line the end with the beat of the song. And it's all suuuper glitch right? Ok so I'm doing one with videos. That makes it more glitchy. SO STORNING stormING GLITCHY IT MAKES ME WANNA CRASH OUT. So I spent like 5 hours working on this. It's only like a 39 second video. I had been working on trying to get the strobe effect on the videos. And. Then. 

IT MAKES ALL THE VIDEO SNIPPITS GO BLACK! OMGBEJORLE

dude 

I tried to fix it. It didn't work. 5 stormING HOURS!! 

AND IT GLITCHED AND ITS GONE!!!! G O N E!!

So much work.this is why I gravitated away from edits kn my channel and to easier videos

 

*hug*

dude thats the worst

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

Sorry all I don't have the time or energy to write out responses to you

But *hugs for everyone*

I hope you can get over whatever you are struggling with 

Anyway I came to rant

Spoiler

Im so tired of me

Why can't I bring myself to work 

I have 9 exams to work on

Starting next Wednesday 

And I still haven't started

I've had most of the last two days free

And I haven't done anything

I just... stay there, wasting time and wasting myself

Burning the hours and refusing to go to sleep Because I can't admit that I haven't done anything today 

And I know where this leads

Because this is really like what was happening last year at the same moment

And last year I failed completely

And that's why I've been retaking the year

And now I've gone full circle and I'm back where I was then

But I haven't gotten better

And I am perfectly on course to fail spectacularly

again

And I really want to punch that idiot in the mirror who can't even put in a minute of work just to pass the year

 

 

 

Also my school is starting to get on my nerves 

Switching stuff around constantly without asking us or even telling us that they did it

Why do you keep spamming us with emails about events we can't go to because they fall during class or about internship offers for entirely unrelated things

But when it's stuff that we should actually be told about they can't even type à couple lines

Good night everyone

Edited March 27, 2025 by Just A Silvereye

[Keke They/he]

14 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*hug*

dude nooooooo

That's so sad

GRR

 

12 minutes ago, Hoid_Slayer said:

 

10 minutes ago, echo74 said:

*hug*

dude thats the worst

To say I threw my phone is the truth. Luckily it didn't break

2 minutes ago, Just A Silvereye said:

Sorry all I don't have the time or energy to write out responses to you

But *hugs for everyone*

I hope you can get over whatever you are struggling with 

Anyway I came to rant

  Reveal hidden contents

Im so tired of me

Why can't I bring myself to work 

I have 9 exams to work on

Starting next Wednesday 

And I still haven't started

I've had most of the last two days free

And I haven't done anything

I just... stay there, wasting time and wasting myself

Burning the hours and refusing to go to sleep Because I can't admit that I haven't done anything today 

And I know where this leads

Because this is really like what was happening last year at the same moment

And last year I failed completely

And that's why I've been retaking the year

And now I've gone full circle and I'm back where I was then

But I haven't gotten better

And I am perfectly on course to fail spectacularly

again

And I really want to punch that idiot in the mirror who can't even put in a minute of work just to pass the year

 

 

 

Also my school is starting to get on my nerves 

Switching stuff around constantly without asking us or even telling us that they did it

Why do you keep spamming us with emails about events we can't go to because they fall during class or about internship offers for entirely unrelated things

But when it's stuff that we should actually be told about they can't even type à couple lines

Good night everyone

*hugs* 

I don't got good advice. *side eyes missing work*

Can't help but can hug *hugs*

[echo74 she/her]

8 minutes ago, Just A Silvereye said:

Sorry all I don't have the time or energy to write out responses to you

But *hugs for everyone*

I hope you can get over whatever you are struggling with 

Anyway I came to rant

  Hide contents

Im so tired of me

Why can't I bring myself to work 

I have 9 exams to work on

Starting next Wednesday 

And I still haven't started

I've had most of the last two days free

And I haven't done anything

I just... stay there, wasting time and wasting myself

Burning the hours and refusing to go to sleep Because I can't admit that I haven't done anything today 

And I know where this leads

Because this is really like what was happening last year at the same moment

And last year I failed completely

And that's why I've been retaking the year

And now I've gone full circle and I'm back where I was then

But I haven't gotten better

And I am perfectly on course to fail spectacularly

again

And I really want to punch that idiot in the mirror who can't even put in a minute of work just to pass the year

 

 

 

Also my school is starting to get on my nerves 

Switching stuff around constantly without asking us or even telling us that they did it

Why do you keep spamming us with emails about events we can't go to because they fall during class or about internship offers for entirely unrelated things

But when it's stuff that we should actually be told about they can't even type à couple lines

Good night everyone

*hug*

i'm really really sorry

i hope things get better for you