Mental health club!

[MirkerLurker she/her]

On 3/22/2025 at 9:15 PM, Dabi said:

I try not to, but I’m kinda just an apologetic person by nature

YES
I instinctively over-apologize. I've been working on doing it less. My reassurance is to let you know that you don't need to. But I'm not bothered by it. I do it too. I'll only play-smack you for it if I think you're beating yourself up, because we don't beat ourselves up around here. We give hugs instead.

 

On 3/23/2025 at 2:48 AM, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

There are two main issues. First is my mom’s own issues, which aren’t really her fault but which make working with her hard: she has crazy anxiety and tends to overreact to a lot of things, and she would absolutely put me in therapy no matter what I said. There’s also my own general trust issues that inhibit therapy; I’ve tried it before, but I don’t tell them enough to be able to help me. I’ve started to just use martial arts as my therapy which, while not super effective, at least keeps me functioning.

Ahhhh, yep.

I never opened up enough in therapy for it to do any good while I was in high school. It wasn't till last year that I felt stable enough to try that (irony much? Had to get myself stable enough that I could do therapy properly), and it worked this time, actually helped - because yeah, if you're not ready to be really honest with it, it doesn't do much. I wouldn't bother with it then, with where you are now. And with your mom having her own anxiety...yeah, if you can keep yourself stable enough to manage for a...few years? Dunno how old you are...for long enough that you're living on your own and can start trying things your own way, without having to worry so much about triggering your mom's anxiety, I'd say keep working on it as you are. If it gets really bad, reconsider, but also, we're here anytime you want hugs and support.

 

On 3/23/2025 at 10:52 AM, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Also, I get it. Personally, I wear essentially the same thing every day (dress shirt and chino pants… yeah I'm boring), but I get you, people should be able to wear whatever they want.

You're boring? You at least wear a nice shirt - my everyday outfit is basic jeans and a zip-front hoodie over a t-shirt. 

On 3/23/2025 at 4:12 PM, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Oooh, highly recommend lying down in the dirt and letting the earth slowly reclaim you. 10/10 would do again.

 

23 hours ago, echo74 said:

rant

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i feel like i'm insane

i feel like i'm coming apart at the seams

i feel like no matter what i do, nothing matters in the end

i feel like a child playing dress up

i feel like i don't know what i'm doing

i feel stressed

i feel so small

i feel alone

i feel like i'm annoying

i feel like most people hate me

i feel like i care too much and then not enouhg

i don't wanna get hurt again

i don't want my friendships to fall apart again

im so sick of feeling like everything's falling apart

im so sick of complaining about stuff like this

im so sick of feeling small

i don't know if i want hugs

i kinda just wanna go and disappear forever

A few words if you want them; and if you don't, I shall just join Shattered Cosmere in sitting quietly with you. And honestly, this may not be encouraging. It's just my experience.

"I feel like a child playing dress up; I feel like I don't know what I'm doing"
As an adult, I can tell you - we all feel like that. All the adults, who look so commanding and decisive and responsible and mature and all that - we all feel like kids playing dress up. Inside, we're all frantically trying to figure out what we're supposed to be doing, let alone how to do it. Only now, we're also expected to tell other people what to do and how to do it too. We feel like imposters; but realizing that helps some, because then we can remember to reach out and help each other. We realize there's no "right answer" that everybody else has that we somehow missed; we realize that we're supposed to be reaching out to each other, leaning on each other, and figuring it out together.

We'll stay with you. Help you when you want it. Sit with you when you don't want help. I'm sorry you feel small; like nothing makes a difference.
I'm glad you're here.

 

22 hours ago, The Sly Cookie said:

I literally just did the same before seeing your post.

Lol.

Cookie! You're back! And you're smiling! Good to hear from you 
 

22 hours ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Hey guys I’m gonna put this here bc I don’t rly have anywhere else to go rn my friends sent me a message saying that I overstepped boundaries and stuff and I wasn’t trying to I had found my purpose in trying to help them and now I don’t know what to do idk if they still want to be friends idk anything I’m rly freaking out and I don’t know what to do I thought that it was going well I hadn’t done anything wrong recently then today I tried to talk to one of them abt something and she got rly upset and now they hate me bc I can’t do anything right I’m just a failure I get bad grades I don’t practice my instruments enough I ruin my best and longest friendship by trying to help someone through something I have not purpose why am I here I’m sorry I’m posting this I’m actually freaking out so bad rn im sorry pls stay with me I don’t want to lose everything

It's not about doing it right. It's about doing it better. Any time someone lets you know something you're doing wrong, it means you have a chance to do better. You can apologize to them, but I would strongly recommend asking them "how can I be a better friend to you?" or something in those lines.

"It's not the first, step, is it? It's the next one. Always the next step."

We'll stay. You won't lose everything. We're here.

 

21 hours ago, Dabi said:

You ever beat yourself up over something you can’t control and can’t stop yourself from doing it anyways

Yes. *hug*

 

8 hours ago, alittleinsane said:

WONDERFUL!

The silver tabby with the orange accents is Princess Buttercup (Buttercup or FOMO for short). Bear is the giant Maine coon. He’s 22 pounds, and very beautiful. He used to be a show cat (the beauty pageant kind). Lulu is the rag doll, she hates loud noises, possibly because she needs to be the loudest of all. She loves plants and going outside, even in the cold

KITTYCATS! FLOOFY KITTYCATS!

[Cookie Spren]

24 minutes ago, MirkerLurker said:

Cookie! You're back! And you're smiling! Good to hear from you 

Thank you 

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

Sorry

im overwhelmed 

it feels like people are counting on me for some reason and when did they start doing that, thsts a terrible idea, I’m just gonna let them all down and sometimes people ask me to do things and I’m naturally flaky and I’m just bad at doing it within a reasonable time if I get it done at all and then I feel terrible and maybe like I should just be mean to everyone so they don’t have their expectations ruined by me who should be able to but cant or wont meet them 

I’m behind in both my online classes, especially art, because I just don’t do them 

I’m behind in my partially online creative writing class 

I haven’t registered for next year, or for the online math class I need to start in fricking May

I work through Thursday this week six hours an evening with a nine to five instead on Wednesday 

I have to make sure to remember to practice guitar every single day

i lost my duolingo streak and now Kajsa will be mad at me

I have to make sure I engage in the shard so I don’t feel lonely and forgotten because it’s basically my only human interaction but TLT goes at the speed of light nowadays and it’s tiring to come back after a three hour break to find forty or fifty notifications I have to sort through without missing any new ones 

I want to write for myself again, but I don’t know what to write

The Crowdpleaser is stagnant, basically

i want to draw for myself, but I don’t know what to draw 

I need everything to just slow down 

I need Mr. Time to take a chill pill 

I feel like I’m doing a terrible job of everything but there’s nothing I can do about it so here we are 

anyway, sorry 

[The Aspiring Archivist any pronouns]

5 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

Sorry

im overwhelmed 

it feels like people are counting on me for some reason and when did they start doing that, thsts a terrible idea, I’m just gonna let them all down and sometimes people ask me to do things and I’m naturally flaky and I’m just bad at doing it within a reasonable time if I get it done at all and then I feel terrible and maybe like I should just be mean to everyone so they don’t have their expectations ruined by me who should be able to but cant or wont meet them 

I’m behind in both my online classes, especially art, because I just don’t do them 

I’m behind in my partially online creative writing class 

I haven’t registered for next year, or for the online math class I need to start in fricking May

I work through Thursday this week six hours an evening with a nine to five instead on Wednesday 

I have to make sure to remember to practice guitar every single day

i lost my duolingo streak and now Kajsa will be mad at me

I have to make sure I engage in the shard so I don’t feel lonely and forgotten because it’s basically my only human interaction but TLT goes at the speed of light nowadays and it’s tiring to come back after a three hour break to find forty or fifty notifications I have to sort through without missing any new ones 

I want to write for myself again, but I don’t know what to write

The Crowdpleaser is stagnant, basically

i want to draw for myself, but I don’t know what to draw 

I need everything to just slow down 

I need Mr. Time to take a chill pill 

I feel like I’m doing a terrible job of everything but there’s nothing I can do about it so here we are 

anyway, sorry 

You don't have to be sorry for anything. It seems like you're pretty overloaded right now, and that's hard to manage. It's not your fault that you're struggling to keep up. As much as it sucks, it's unrealistic to expect yourself to do everything you want to do and be everything you want to be right now, especially when your obligations are getting in the way of what you want to be doing.

You can get through this. Even if some stuff ends up falling by the wayside for now, even if you don't feel like you're meeting expectations, eventually this semester will end, the year will end, things will change. The most important thing is that you keep going and keep trying. If you think people are asking too much of you, try to say that and carve out some breathing room.

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

28 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

Sorry

im overwhelmed 

it feels like people are counting on me for some reason and when did they start doing that, thsts a terrible idea, I’m just gonna let them all down and sometimes people ask me to do things and I’m naturally flaky and I’m just bad at doing it within a reasonable time if I get it done at all and then I feel terrible and maybe like I should just be mean to everyone so they don’t have their expectations ruined by me who should be able to but cant or wont meet them 

I’m behind in both my online classes, especially art, because I just don’t do them 

I’m behind in my partially online creative writing class 

I haven’t registered for next year, or for the online math class I need to start in fricking May

I work through Thursday this week six hours an evening with a nine to five instead on Wednesday 

I have to make sure to remember to practice guitar every single day

i lost my duolingo streak and now Kajsa will be mad at me

I have to make sure I engage in the shard so I don’t feel lonely and forgotten because it’s basically my only human interaction but TLT goes at the speed of light nowadays and it’s tiring to come back after a three hour break to find forty or fifty notifications I have to sort through without missing any new ones 

I want to write for myself again, but I don’t know what to write

The Crowdpleaser is stagnant, basically

i want to draw for myself, but I don’t know what to draw 

I need everything to just slow down 

I need Mr. Time to take a chill pill 

I feel like I’m doing a terrible job of everything but there’s nothing I can do about it so here we are 

anyway, sorry 

*squeezugs*

Yeah. I concur with Archie - it does sound like you're stretched too far. You can't be expected to do all of this perfectly, I'm getting stressed for you just from reading this.

I hope you can get through those tough times. Just focus on what needs to be done now, what can wait can wait.  You can come back once you're out of this and rested

*more squeezes* 

 

[The Wandering Wizard he/him]

7 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Sorry

im overwhelmed 

it feels like people are counting on me for some reason and when did they start doing that, thsts a terrible idea, I’m just gonna let them all down and sometimes people ask me to do things and I’m naturally flaky and I’m just bad at doing it within a reasonable time if I get it done at all and then I feel terrible and maybe like I should just be mean to everyone so they don’t have their expectations ruined by me who should be able to but cant or wont meet them 

I’m behind in both my online classes, especially art, because I just don’t do them 

I’m behind in my partially online creative writing class 

I haven’t registered for next year, or for the online math class I need to start in fricking May

I work through Thursday this week six hours an evening with a nine to five instead on Wednesday 

I have to make sure to remember to practice guitar every single day

i lost my duolingo streak and now Kajsa will be mad at me

I have to make sure I engage in the shard so I don’t feel lonely and forgotten because it’s basically my only human interaction but TLT goes at the speed of light nowadays and it’s tiring to come back after a three hour break to find forty or fifty notifications I have to sort through without missing any new ones 

I want to write for myself again, but I don’t know what to write

The Crowdpleaser is stagnant, basically

i want to draw for myself, but I don’t know what to draw 

I need everything to just slow down 

I need Mr. Time to take a chill pill 

I feel like I’m doing a terrible job of everything but there’s nothing I can do about it so here we are 

anyway, sorry 

Yeah you don't have to be sorry, we're all here for you.

*massive hugssssss*

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

heyyyyyy againnnnn

Spoiler

so here's how my morning went

my alarm goes off but i'm too tired and so it sounds like part of my dream so I don't actually wake up for a few more minutes

my mom comes in as I actually am getting up and proceeds to literally tell me how everyone else is a better person than I am and how I'm the worst and so selfish because I can't get out of bed

So I started silently crying under the covers because gosh dangit I wish she'd just have said good morning or something else that wasn't incredibly derogatory

And she stayed there until I told her to leave because I had to get dressed

And then I cried for ten more minutes once she was gone 

and was super late to school because of it

which didn't help at all

so yeah

now I'm at school and I'm sad

could use some hugs

 

7 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Sorry

im overwhelmed 

it feels like people are counting on me for some reason and when did they start doing that, thsts a terrible idea, I’m just gonna let them all down and sometimes people ask me to do things and I’m naturally flaky and I’m just bad at doing it within a reasonable time if I get it done at all and then I feel terrible and maybe like I should just be mean to everyone so they don’t have their expectations ruined by me who should be able to but cant or wont meet them 

I’m behind in both my online classes, especially art, because I just don’t do them 

I’m behind in my partially online creative writing class 

I haven’t registered for next year, or for the online math class I need to start in fricking May

I work through Thursday this week six hours an evening with a nine to five instead on Wednesday 

I have to make sure to remember to practice guitar every single day

i lost my duolingo streak and now Kajsa will be mad at me

I have to make sure I engage in the shard so I don’t feel lonely and forgotten because it’s basically my only human interaction but TLT goes at the speed of light nowadays and it’s tiring to come back after a three hour break to find forty or fifty notifications I have to sort through without missing any new ones 

I want to write for myself again, but I don’t know what to write

The Crowdpleaser is stagnant, basically

i want to draw for myself, but I don’t know what to draw 

I need everything to just slow down 

I need Mr. Time to take a chill pill 

I feel like I’m doing a terrible job of everything but there’s nothing I can do about it so here we are 

anyway, sorry 

*squeeze*

Haly, if you need take some time for yourself, do it. I don't know if this is the right thing to say or what you're looking for, but we care about you, and it sounds like you need a break if you're this stressed and overworked.

But hey, I know you can do it. You'll get through this. There's a light at the end of the tunnel.

[Through the living jeff he/him(straight)]

3 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

heyyyyyy againnnnn

  Reveal hidden contents

so here's how my morning went

my alarm goes off but i'm too tired and so it sounds like part of my dream so I don't actually wake up for a few more minutes

my mom comes in as I actually am getting up and proceeds to literally tell me how everyone else is a better person than I am and how I'm the worst and so selfish because I can't get out of bed

So I started silently crying under the covers because gosh dangit I wish she'd just have said good morning or something else that wasn't incredibly derogatory

And she stayed there until I told her to leave because I had to get dressed

And then I cried for ten more minutes once she was gone 

and was super late to school because of it

which didn't help at all

so yeah

now I'm at school and I'm sad

could use some hugs

 

*squeeze*

Haly, if you need take some time for yourself, do it. I don't know if this is the right thing to say or what you're looking for, but we care about you, and it sounds like you need a break if you're this stressed and overworked.

But hey, I know you can do it. You'll get through this. There's a light at the end of the tunnel.

*hugs*

[Through the Living Hope]

3 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

heyyyyyy againnnnn

  Reveal hidden contents

so here's how my morning went

my alarm goes off but i'm too tired and so it sounds like part of my dream so I don't actually wake up for a few more minutes

my mom comes in as I actually am getting up and proceeds to literally tell me how everyone else is a better person than I am and how I'm the worst and so selfish because I can't get out of bed

So I started silently crying under the covers because gosh dangit I wish she'd just have said good morning or something else that wasn't incredibly derogatory

And she stayed there until I told her to leave because I had to get dressed

And then I cried for ten more minutes once she was gone 

and was super late to school because of it

which didn't help at all

so yeah

now I'm at school and I'm sad

could use some hugs

 

*squeeze*

Haly, if you need take some time for yourself, do it. I don't know if this is the right thing to say or what you're looking for, but we care about you, and it sounds like you need a break if you're this stressed and overworked.

But hey, I know you can do it. You'll get through this. There's a light at the end of the tunnel.

This might be insensitive but girl your mom needs therapy or an intervention or something

Glass you're going to go to college and then you're going to transfer over when I kidnap you and I can hug you daily

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, Spark of Hope said:

This might be insensitive but girl your mom needs therapy or an intervention or something

Glass you're going to go to college and then you're going to transfer over when I kidnap you and I can hug you daily

it's not insensitive, don't worry

But thank you 

*squeeze*

3 minutes ago, DAVEY said:

*hugs*

*hug*

thanks, Jeff

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, Through The Living Glass said:

it's not insensitive, don't worry

But thank you 

*squeeze*

*hug*

thanks, Jeff

*squeeze*

[echo74 she/her]

8 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Sorry

im overwhelmed 

it feels like people are counting on me for some reason and when did they start doing that, thsts a terrible idea, I’m just gonna let them all down and sometimes people ask me to do things and I’m naturally flaky and I’m just bad at doing it within a reasonable time if I get it done at all and then I feel terrible and maybe like I should just be mean to everyone so they don’t have their expectations ruined by me who should be able to but cant or wont meet them 

I’m behind in both my online classes, especially art, because I just don’t do them 

I’m behind in my partially online creative writing class 

I haven’t registered for next year, or for the online math class I need to start in fricking May

I work through Thursday this week six hours an evening with a nine to five instead on Wednesday 

I have to make sure to remember to practice guitar every single day

i lost my duolingo streak and now Kajsa will be mad at me

I have to make sure I engage in the shard so I don’t feel lonely and forgotten because it’s basically my only human interaction but TLT goes at the speed of light nowadays and it’s tiring to come back after a three hour break to find forty or fifty notifications I have to sort through without missing any new ones 

I want to write for myself again, but I don’t know what to write

The Crowdpleaser is stagnant, basically

i want to draw for myself, but I don’t know what to draw 

I need everything to just slow down 

I need Mr. Time to take a chill pill 

I feel like I’m doing a terrible job of everything but there’s nothing I can do about it so here we are 

anyway, sorry 

aww haly

we'll still love you no matter what you do

take a deep breath, you got this

*hugs*

i'm sorry about mr. time

he's incredibly rude

54 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

heyyyyyy againnnnn

  Reveal hidden contents

so here's how my morning went

my alarm goes off but i'm too tired and so it sounds like part of my dream so I don't actually wake up for a few more minutes

my mom comes in as I actually am getting up and proceeds to literally tell me how everyone else is a better person than I am and how I'm the worst and so selfish because I can't get out of bed

So I started silently crying under the covers because gosh dangit I wish she'd just have said good morning or something else that wasn't incredibly derogatory

And she stayed there until I told her to leave because I had to get dressed

And then I cried for ten more minutes once she was gone 

and was super late to school because of it

which didn't help at all

so yeah

now I'm at school and I'm sad

could use some hugs

 

*squeeze*

Haly, if you need take some time for yourself, do it. I don't know if this is the right thing to say or what you're looking for, but we care about you, and it sounds like you need a break if you're this stressed and overworked.

But hey, I know you can do it. You'll get through this. There's a light at the end of the tunnel.

*squeeze*

don't believe the words your mom says

you're awesome and amazing and kind and fun and witty and smart

i'm sorry about your mom

[Through the Living Questio he/him]

*many hugs for all* 

I’m honestly sad too

Spoiler

got a zero on presumably a major grade because I forgot to bring food stuff for my outdoor ed class 

for the record I thought we were cooking on Wednesday (not today) because other people had to cook today 

and I’m not even going to eat the food because my group members were being unsanitary as crap and wearing the gloves in the classroom and slapping things and we have to touvh and shape the food since we’re making monkey bread 

and the both today and yesterday have just sucked and I’m stressed and don’t want to come to school anymore 

the only two reasons I’m okay with coming here is because 

1. legal requirement 
and 2. my girlfriend 

other than those (and maybe orchestra) I don’t want to be here

and so much more is happening that I hate and I am genuinely so done with waking up every day I just want to sleep for a few weeks and wake up when school is over (with a few days awake for Latin State Competitions and hangouts with friends, stuff like that—fun stuff, y’know?)

8 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Sorry

im overwhelmed 

it feels like people are counting on me for some reason and when did they start doing that, thsts a terrible idea, I’m just gonna let them all down and sometimes people ask me to do things and I’m naturally flaky and I’m just bad at doing it within a reasonable time if I get it done at all and then I feel terrible and maybe like I should just be mean to everyone so they don’t have their expectations ruined by me who should be able to but cant or wont meet them 

I’m behind in both my online classes, especially art, because I just don’t do them 

I’m behind in my partially online creative writing class 

I haven’t registered for next year, or for the online math class I need to start in fricking May

I work through Thursday this week six hours an evening with a nine to five instead on Wednesday 

I have to make sure to remember to practice guitar every single day

i lost my duolingo streak and now Kajsa will be mad at me

I have to make sure I engage in the shard so I don’t feel lonely and forgotten because it’s basically my only human interaction but TLT goes at the speed of light nowadays and it’s tiring to come back after a three hour break to find forty or fifty notifications I have to sort through without missing any new ones 

I want to write for myself again, but I don’t know what to write

The Crowdpleaser is stagnant, basically

i want to draw for myself, but I don’t know what to draw 

I need everything to just slow down 

I need Mr. Time to take a chill pill 

I feel like I’m doing a terrible job of everything but there’s nothing I can do about it so here we are 

anyway, sorry 

I feel 

the exact 

same 

thing

holy crap 

for some reason this is reassuring and I don’t want it to be 

also I doubt Kajsa would be mad at you for that given the situation

(sorry for the double-post if it does that, I just felt like I needed to say this)

[Keke They/he]

9 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Sorry

im overwhelmed 

it feels like people are counting on me for some reason and when did they start doing that, thsts a terrible idea, I’m just gonna let them all down and sometimes people ask me to do things and I’m naturally flaky and I’m just bad at doing it within a reasonable time if I get it done at all and then I feel terrible and maybe like I should just be mean to everyone so they don’t have their expectations ruined by me who should be able to but cant or wont meet them 

I’m behind in both my online classes, especially art, because I just don’t do them 

I’m behind in my partially online creative writing class 

I haven’t registered for next year, or for the online math class I need to start in fricking May

I work through Thursday this week six hours an evening with a nine to five instead on Wednesday 

I have to make sure to remember to practice guitar every single day

i lost my duolingo streak and now Kajsa will be mad at me

I have to make sure I engage in the shard so I don’t feel lonely and forgotten because it’s basically my only human interaction but TLT goes at the speed of light nowadays and it’s tiring to come back after a three hour break to find forty or fifty notifications I have to sort through without missing any new ones 

I want to write for myself again, but I don’t know what to write

The Crowdpleaser is stagnant, basically

i want to draw for myself, but I don’t know what to draw 

I need everything to just slow down 

I need Mr. Time to take a chill pill 

I feel like I’m doing a terrible job of everything but there’s nothing I can do about it so here we are 

anyway, sorry 

Aye haly *hugs* 

I agree with Archie ans Silvereye. I can't help with much here. But some advice is to tell people your going to spend a day off of the shard. And politely ask to not span your tlt plot or any other plots your a part of. *hugs*

1 hour ago, Through The Living Glass said:

heyyyyyy againnnnn

  Hide contents

so here's how my morning went

my alarm goes off but i'm too tired and so it sounds like part of my dream so I don't actually wake up for a few more minutes

my mom comes in as I actually am getting up and proceeds to literally tell me how everyone else is a better person than I am and how I'm the worst and so selfish because I can't get out of bed

So I started silently crying under the covers because gosh dangit I wish she'd just have said good morning or something else that wasn't incredibly derogatory

And she stayed there until I told her to leave because I had to get dressed

And then I cried for ten more minutes once she was gone 

and was super late to school because of it

which didn't help at all

so yeah

now I'm at school and I'm sad

could use some hugs

 

*squeeze*

Haly, if you need take some time for yourself, do it. I don't know if this is the right thing to say or what you're looking for, but we care about you, and it sounds like you need a break if you're this stressed and overworked.

But hey, I know you can do it. You'll get through this. There's a light at the end of the tunnel.

*hugs*

Stormcursed parents. Your mother is GODAWFULY WRONG!!!!  Omg your awesome glass, HONESTLY STRAIGHT FROM MY MIND! your the best aweful person. Your not selfish AT ALL! And your mom was soooooo OVRRDRAMATUC AND I WANT TO GO AND PUNCH HER THEN HUG YOU SO TIGHT 

12 minutes ago, WhyEverNot_8 said:

*many hugs for all* 

I’m honestly sad too

  Hide contents

got a zero on presumably a major grade because I forgot to bring food stuff for my outdoor ed class 

for the record I thought we were cooking on Wednesday (not today) because other people had to cook today 

and I’m not even going to eat the food because my group members were being unsanitary as crap and wearing the gloves in the classroom and slapping things and we have to touvh and shape the food since we’re making monkey bread 

and the both today and yesterday have just sucked and I’m stressed and don’t want to come to school anymore 

the only two reasons I’m okay with coming here is because 

1. legal requirement 
and 2. my girlfriend 

other than those (and maybe orchestra) I don’t want to be here

and so much more is happening that I hate and I am genuinely so done with waking up every day I just want to sleep for a few weeks and wake up when school is over (with a few days awake for Latin State Competitions and hangouts with friends, stuff like that—fun stuff, y’know?)

*hugs* aye schools suck and make no sense. It's ok though, sometimes we make mistakes,and sometimes other people are disgusting little moles who dotn know how to be respectful.

Your valid *hugs*

 

EVERYONE IS REMEMBER THAT

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

1 hour ago, Through The Living Glass said:

heyyyyyy againnnnn

  Reveal hidden contents

so here's how my morning went

my alarm goes off but i'm too tired and so it sounds like part of my dream so I don't actually wake up for a few more minutes

my mom comes in as I actually am getting up and proceeds to literally tell me how everyone else is a better person than I am and how I'm the worst and so selfish because I can't get out of bed

So I started silently crying under the covers because gosh dangit I wish she'd just have said good morning or something else that wasn't incredibly derogatory

And she stayed there until I told her to leave because I had to get dressed

And then I cried for ten more minutes once she was gone 

and was super late to school because of it

which didn't help at all

so yeah

now I'm at school and I'm sad

could use some hugs

 

*squeeze*

Haly, if you need take some time for yourself, do it. I don't know if this is the right thing to say or what you're looking for, but we care about you, and it sounds like you need a break if you're this stressed and overworked.

But hey, I know you can do it. You'll get through this. There's a light at the end of the tunnel.

*tight squeeze*

...wow. This is absolutely insane.

You're worthy, remember? You're a really cool and fun and awesome person, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. 

*hugs again*

 

17 minutes ago, WhyEverNot_8 said:

*many hugs for all* 

I’m honestly sad too

  Hide contents

got a zero on presumably a major grade because I forgot to bring food stuff for my outdoor ed class 

for the record I thought we were cooking on Wednesday (not today) because other people had to cook today 

and I’m not even going to eat the food because my group members were being unsanitary as crap and wearing the gloves in the classroom and slapping things and we have to touvh and shape the food since we’re making monkey bread 

and the both today and yesterday have just sucked and I’m stressed and don’t want to come to school anymore 

the only two reasons I’m okay with coming here is because 

1. legal requirement 
and 2. my girlfriend 

other than those (and maybe orchestra) I don’t want to be here

and so much more is happening that I hate and I am genuinely so done with waking up every day I just want to sleep for a few weeks and wake up when school is over (with a few days awake for Latin State Competitions and hangouts with friends, stuff like that—fun stuff, y’know?)

*hugs*

yeah there are days like that

it really sucks

i'm sorry

*more hugs*

[echo74 she/her]

33 minutes ago, WhyEverNot_8 said:

*many hugs for all* 

I’m honestly sad too

  Reveal hidden contents

got a zero on presumably a major grade because I forgot to bring food stuff for my outdoor ed class 

for the record I thought we were cooking on Wednesday (not today) because other people had to cook today 

and I’m not even going to eat the food because my group members were being unsanitary as crap and wearing the gloves in the classroom and slapping things and we have to touvh and shape the food since we’re making monkey bread 

and the both today and yesterday have just sucked and I’m stressed and don’t want to come to school anymore 

the only two reasons I’m okay with coming here is because 

1. legal requirement 
and 2. my girlfriend 

other than those (and maybe orchestra) I don’t want to be here

and so much more is happening that I hate and I am genuinely so done with waking up every day I just want to sleep for a few weeks and wake up when school is over (with a few days awake for Latin State Competitions and hangouts with friends, stuff like that—fun stuff, y’know?)

I feel 

the exact 

same 

thing

holy crap 

for some reason this is reassuring and I don’t want it to be 

also I doubt Kajsa would be mad at you for that given the situation

(sorry for the double-post if it does that, I just felt like I needed to say this)

*hugs*

dude that is real on so many levels

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 hour ago, echo74 said:

aww haly

we'll still love you no matter what you do

take a deep breath, you got this

*hugs*

i'm sorry about mr. time

he's incredibly rude

*squeeze*

don't believe the words your mom says

you're awesome and amazing and kind and fun and witty and smart

i'm sorry about your mom

thanks

it helps when other people say they think so

I just wish she thought so

49 minutes ago, WhyEverNot_8 said:

*many hugs for all* 

I’m honestly sad too

  Reveal hidden contents

got a zero on presumably a major grade because I forgot to bring food stuff for my outdoor ed class 

for the record I thought we were cooking on Wednesday (not today) because other people had to cook today 

and I’m not even going to eat the food because my group members were being unsanitary as crap and wearing the gloves in the classroom and slapping things and we have to touvh and shape the food since we’re making monkey bread 

and the both today and yesterday have just sucked and I’m stressed and don’t want to come to school anymore 

the only two reasons I’m okay with coming here is because 

1. legal requirement 
and 2. my girlfriend 

other than those (and maybe orchestra) I don’t want to be here

and so much more is happening that I hate and I am genuinely so done with waking up every day I just want to sleep for a few weeks and wake up when school is over (with a few days awake for Latin State Competitions and hangouts with friends, stuff like that—fun stuff, y’know?)

I feel 

the exact 

same 

thing

holy crap 

for some reason this is reassuring and I don’t want it to be 

also I doubt Kajsa would be mad at you for that given the situation

(sorry for the double-post if it does that, I just felt like I needed to say this)

yeah

that's real

*squeeze*

I'm sorry

31 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Aye haly *hugs* 

I agree with Archie ans Silvereye. I can't help with much here. But some advice is to tell people your going to spend a day off of the shard. And politely ask to not span your tlt plot or any other plots your a part of. *hugs*

*hugs*

Stormcursed parents. Your mother is GODAWFULY WRONG!!!!  Omg your awesome glass, HONESTLY STRAIGHT FROM MY MIND! your the best aweful person. Your not selfish AT ALL! And your mom was soooooo OVRRDRAMATUC AND I WANT TO GO AND PUNCH HER THEN HUG YOU SO TIGHT 

*hugs* aye schools suck and make no sense. It's ok though, sometimes we make mistakes,and sometimes other people are disgusting little moles who dotn know how to be respectful.

Your valid *hugs*

 

EVERYONE IS REMEMBER THAT

thank you, Hawks

*squeeze*

18 minutes ago, Just A Silvereye said:

*tight squeeze*

...wow. This is absolutely insane.

You're worthy, remember? You're a really cool and fun and awesome person, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. 

*hugs again*

 

*hugs*

yeah there are days like that

it really sucks

i'm sorry

*more hugs*

Thank you

That means a lot

*hug*

 

Thank you guys

It's nice to know people care

It helps a lot

[Existential]

4 hours ago, Through The Living Glass said:

heyyyyyy againnnnn

  Hide contents

so here's how my morning went

my alarm goes off but i'm too tired and so it sounds like part of my dream so I don't actually wake up for a few more minutes

my mom comes in as I actually am getting up and proceeds to literally tell me how everyone else is a better person than I am and how I'm the worst and so selfish because I can't get out of bed

So I started silently crying under the covers because gosh dangit I wish she'd just have said good morning or something else that wasn't incredibly derogatory

And she stayed there until I told her to leave because I had to get dressed

And then I cried for ten more minutes once she was gone 

and was super late to school because of it

which didn't help at all

so yeah

now I'm at school and I'm sad

could use some hugs

 

*squeeze*

Haly, if you need take some time for yourself, do it. I don't know if this is the right thing to say or what you're looking for, but we care about you, and it sounds like you need a break if you're this stressed and overworked.

But hey, I know you can do it. You'll get through this. There's a light at the end of the tunnel.

For zeus’ sake- 

*huge hugs*

You aren’t selfish, I’ve seen it firsthand. And if she doesn’t believe that… I don’t even know. Just remember there are so many people that love you, ‘specially me  

11 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Sorry

im overwhelmed 

it feels like people are counting on me for some reason and when did they start doing that, thsts a terrible idea, I’m just gonna let them all down and sometimes people ask me to do things and I’m naturally flaky and I’m just bad at doing it within a reasonable time if I get it done at all and then I feel terrible and maybe like I should just be mean to everyone so they don’t have their expectations ruined by me who should be able to but cant or wont meet them 

I’m behind in both my online classes, especially art, because I just don’t do them 

I’m behind in my partially online creative writing class 

I haven’t registered for next year, or for the online math class I need to start in fricking May

I work through Thursday this week six hours an evening with a nine to five instead on Wednesday 

I have to make sure to remember to practice guitar every single day

i lost my duolingo streak and now Kajsa will be mad at me

I have to make sure I engage in the shard so I don’t feel lonely and forgotten because it’s basically my only human interaction but TLT goes at the speed of light nowadays and it’s tiring to come back after a three hour break to find forty or fifty notifications I have to sort through without missing any new ones 

I want to write for myself again, but I don’t know what to write

The Crowdpleaser is stagnant, basically

i want to draw for myself, but I don’t know what to draw 

I need everything to just slow down 

I need Mr. Time to take a chill pill 

I feel like I’m doing a terrible job of everything but there’s nothing I can do about it so here we are 

anyway, sorry 

*hugs* 

I wanna help, but I’m kinda in the same place so I won’t. I just come bearing hugs  

[echo74 she/her]

2 hours ago, Through The Living Glass said:

thanks

it helps when other people say they think so

I just wish she thought so

yeah

that's real

*squeeze*

I'm sorry

thank you, Hawks

*squeeze*

Thank you

That means a lot

*hug*

 

Thank you guys

It's nice to know people care

It helps a lot

we love you girlie

[Through the Living Questio he/him]

thanks guys 

it helps 

 

[echo74 she/her]

hey guys.

(cw - suicide, death, grief)

Spoiler

this morning i found out from a friend that a girl at school committed suicide yesterday

about an hour ago the school sent out an email announcing her death

i've been sitting here for about the past half hour grieving her

i didn't know her

i'm still sad, though

i'm sad for her friends

i'm sad for her family

i'm sad for everyone who gets affected because of it

i'm sad that she didn't think she could reach out for help

i'm sad that she thought she had to die

i'm sad that she died

suicide's a topic that's always been really close to my heart, especially because i was so close to doing it myself a few years ago at fsy

i wasn't the one who stopped me -- someone else did

someone else walked in and invited me to play a game of mash

i agreed, because i was ashamed

i didn't want her to know

i never told her that she literally saved my life that day

if she hadn't been there, i might be exactly like this girl

i might be dead

and a strange might be grieving my death

grieving it as if it was her own

please

never ever ever kill yourself

it's not worth it

trust me

 

[TwinStorm He/Him]

3 minutes ago, echo74 said:

hey guys.

(cw - suicide, death, grief)

  Hide contents

this morning i found out from a friend that a girl at school committed suicide yesterday

about an hour ago the school sent out an email announcing her death

i've been sitting here for about the past half hour grieving her

i didn't know her

i'm still sad, though

i'm sad for her friends

i'm sad for her family

i'm sad for everyone who gets affected because of it

i'm sad that she didn't think she could reach out for help

i'm sad that she thought she had to die

i'm sad that she died

suicide's a topic that's always been really close to my heart, especially because i was so close to doing it myself a few years ago at fsy

i wasn't the one who stopped me -- someone else did

someone else walked in and invited me to play a game of mash

i agreed, because i was ashamed

i didn't want her to know

i never told her that she literally saved my life that day

if she hadn't been there, i might be exactly like this girl

i might be dead

and a strange might be grieving my death

grieving it as if it was her own

please

never ever ever kill yourself

it's not worth it

trust me

 

*hugs*

I'm sorry

I don't know what to say

*hugs*

*HUGS*

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

14 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

Sorry

im overwhelmed 

it feels like people are counting on me for some reason and when did they start doing that, thsts a terrible idea, I’m just gonna let them all down and sometimes people ask me to do things and I’m naturally flaky and I’m just bad at doing it within a reasonable time if I get it done at all and then I feel terrible and maybe like I should just be mean to everyone so they don’t have their expectations ruined by me who should be able to but cant or wont meet them 

I’m behind in both my online classes, especially art, because I just don’t do them 

I’m behind in my partially online creative writing class 

I haven’t registered for next year, or for the online math class I need to start in fricking May

I work through Thursday this week six hours an evening with a nine to five instead on Wednesday 

I have to make sure to remember to practice guitar every single day

i lost my duolingo streak and now Kajsa will be mad at me

I have to make sure I engage in the shard so I don’t feel lonely and forgotten because it’s basically my only human interaction but TLT goes at the speed of light nowadays and it’s tiring to come back after a three hour break to find forty or fifty notifications I have to sort through without missing any new ones 

I want to write for myself again, but I don’t know what to write

The Crowdpleaser is stagnant, basically

i want to draw for myself, but I don’t know what to draw 

I need everything to just slow down 

I need Mr. Time to take a chill pill 

I feel like I’m doing a terrible job of everything but there’s nothing I can do about it so here we are 

anyway, sorry 

I know the feeling. When all those little things begin to add up and suddenly, your problems seem to swallow you up. And you begin to wonder if you can ever do anything right. Of if you’re just an imposter, waiting to be exposed.

It’s not a good feeling.

14 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

I need Mr. Time to take a chill pill 

This is the most relatable sentence I’ve heard in a long time. Mr. Time may not take breaks. But you should.

14 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

I feel like I’m doing a terrible job of everything but there’s nothing I can do about it so here we are

You’re not doing a terrible job. You’re amazing. And it’s time for you to recognize that.

7 hours ago, Through The Living Glass said:

heyyyyyy againnnnn

  Hide contents

so here's how my morning went

my alarm goes off but i'm too tired and so it sounds like part of my dream so I don't actually wake up for a few more minutes

my mom comes in as I actually am getting up and proceeds to literally tell me how everyone else is a better person than I am and how I'm the worst and so selfish because I can't get out of bed

So I started silently crying under the covers because gosh dangit I wish she'd just have said good morning or something else that wasn't incredibly derogatory

And she stayed there until I told her to leave because I had to get dressed

And then I cried for ten more minutes once she was gone 

and was super late to school because of it

which didn't help at all

so yeah

now I'm at school and I'm sad

could use some hugs

Gosh, Glass

*hug* *another hug* *still hugging*

You are not the worst. In fact, you are one of the best people I know (top 15, at least ). Because you’re kind, and funny, and respectful. You were nothing but welcoming to me when I joined the Shard. And I know you are a GOOD PERSON.

6 hours ago, WhyEverNot_8 said:

 

*many hugs for all* 

I’m honestly sad too

  Hide contents

got a zero on presumably a major grade because I forgot to bring food stuff for my outdoor ed class 

for the record I thought we were cooking on Wednesday (not today) because other people had to cook today 

and I’m not even going to eat the food because my group members were being unsanitary as crap and wearing the gloves in the classroom and slapping things and we have to touvh and shape the food since we’re making monkey bread 

and the both today and yesterday have just sucked and I’m stressed and don’t want to come to school anymore 

the only two reasons I’m okay with coming here is because 

1. legal requirement 
and 2. my girlfriend 

other than those (and maybe orchestra) I don’t want to be here

and so much more is happening that I hate and I am genuinely so done with waking up every day I just want to sleep for a few weeks and wake up when school is over (with a few days awake for Latin State Competitions and hangouts with friends, stuff like that—fun stuff, y’know?)

 

I know. God, I know.

4 minutes ago, echo74 said:

hey guys.

(cw - suicide, death, grief)

  Hide contents

this morning i found out from a friend that a girl at school committed suicide yesterday

about an hour ago the school sent out an email announcing her death

i've been sitting here for about the past half hour grieving her

i didn't know her

i'm still sad, though

i'm sad for her friends

i'm sad for her family

i'm sad for everyone who gets affected because of it

i'm sad that she didn't think she could reach out for help

i'm sad that she thought she had to die

i'm sad that she died

suicide's a topic that's always been really close to my heart, especially because i was so close to doing it myself a few years ago at fsy

i wasn't the one who stopped me -- someone else did

someone else walked in and invited me to play a game of mash

i agreed, because i was ashamed

i didn't want her to know

i never told her that she literally saved my life that day

if she hadn't been there, i might be exactly like this girl

i might be dead

and a strange might be grieving my death

grieving it as if it was her own

please

never ever ever kill yourself

it's not worth it

trust me

 

Wow. That is… a lot, echo. I don’t know what to say. But I think it says something about our world that this is so prevalent in people our age…

I’m here. If you ever need someone to talk to.

 

[TwinStorm He/Him]

cw 

Spoiler

I'm scared

not for me

but for other people

I'm afraid I'll hurt the people around me

whenever I hold a sharp knife its just...

idk

and it scares me

I don't know what to do

its not a bad thing ig

im able to protect people 

but still

terrifying to me

 

[reisleK she/her]

Firstly, hugs to anyone and everyone who wants one.

Secondly, I'm contemplating breaking up with my partner/boyfriend/girlfriend/insert any other term here. 
Rant incoming (sticking it in here because I predict it will be LONG):
For reference, they use he/they pronouns

Spoiler

Why, you might ask? I just... don't feel like I used to. They visited like two days ago and my mom was like "They seem to be so much more into you than you are into them." and thinking about it, I think it's true. I love him, but sometimes I feel like it's mostly platonic but it also ebbs and flows. I just feel like a good girlfriend wouldn't contemplate breaking up every few months. But it would not only crush him and I care way too much to do that but what if I regret it later? Since I know my love for him fluctuates (he's aware of it) I worry that it'd be a stupid mistake. But maybe we just need to communicate more and breaking up seems like a good escape? We're long distance at this point which is hard (our schools are an hour away from each other but we live maybe 4-5 hours away. He lives in an area where I have a ton of family so it's not very hard to get there.)

Also he's very future thinking which I'm not, it also stresses me out and makes me feel trapped. Like why are you talking about us getting married?? We are in HIGHSCHOOL!!! Our frontal lobes are NOT fully developed. 

I just feel like our relationship should be "better". I have school therapy (since I'm at boarding school) tomorrow and I'll talk to her about it but I also want to talk to my home therapist before too. 

I just feel like I'd crush him if I broke up with him and I just worry. They're at a therapeutic boarding school and will be until August so I know he'll be safe, which is the most important part just ARRGHHH

They also used to be like my safe person in the sense that when I'm stressed, their presence was calming but I don't know anymore. 

I learned that he could come to prom at my school and I'm just... disappointed. Which isn't a good sign. Maybe it's social pressure since they don't conform to the vibe (for a lack of a better word) just like arghhh. 

Pros and Cons 

Pros:
Don't have to figure out what we do in the future going off to college and stuff
Don't have to worry about any of this
I won't be leading them on (though if this goes away than its irrelevant)
I consider breaking up before college (we're juniors in high school) anyway and now (or anytime between now and august) would in theory be a good time. 
Being single would probably give me more time to work on relationship work with my therapist over the summer

Cons:
I'll loose them as not only a partner but as a friend as well (there's a slight chance we could still be friends but I'm not sure)
He's one of my last connections to my old school and he can wrangle my friend who never responds to texts
He'd be crushed
His family would be crushed
I'd feel bad/Guilty
I might regret it
It might make more sense just to see how it goes for now
I wouldn't be able to attend prom at my old school and see my friends


Just wanted to rant. 

Anyway, I should probably go to dinner.