Usseewa
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sure i guess I'll maybe bring up anxiety next time.
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ya okay wtvr pls kindly try to refrain from word normal and stuff i have family who knows i get anxiety, I guess. i probably have a general diagnosis or smth for anxiety/depression. also... i dont see it as interfering with my life if it's omnipresent and has been forever, or years. like, it's like adhd, u know? remember our convo? what specific ways is interfering, do u think? Friendship/social skills? Yes. For as long as I can remember. But i never thought of it related to anxiety. maybe it is shrug like I've always been "ok, I'm an inteovert, so what." and also ive wanted friends but wtvr.
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but why i figured u woukd suggest that idrk what it is, but i know rhe name.
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... I'm afraid to ask. so i won't. i hate cult stuff. why tho. I'm fine, ig. idek what specific anxiety i have? also, just checkin' in... are we all okay with this wild tangent? i am, but yah. like both the topic and that it's off-topic in general.
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it's not an Amy and May situation. in that it's not romantic (yet :3) and it's more than.2 ppl. Well, idk. i guess.i also feel like i have limited friendship slots and have to use them wisely.
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Yeah i suppose. i have anxiety for sure, abt lotsa things. ok, dw. ur making me not wanna look even more. it sounds awful tbh. or is it just standard dumb embarrassing kid stuff yes... i know... bcz like it's so many ppl i think it's hard to maintain multiple friendships?
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ye, that's a topic i suppose that we sometimes talk abt. not necessarily helpful, tho also i recently kinda made a friend but for some reason idk if i wanna be friends, and it doesn't feel good cuz it feels like I'd be abandoning them for other ppl. like, if u have a crush on someone, call her May, then Amy asks you out and you say no cuz u like May, then u ask May and she says no and but Amy's gone now.
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ig i never considered much that my crappy social skills might've transferred to online. well... how to hold a conversation probably has.
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oh, just talk abt how to get social skills. phew. i dont like thinking there's something wrong with me that needs fixing. social issues notwithstanding. more like... mental health stuff. anyway, yeah. I've never had any social skills whatsoever. i think as of late I've been more social, though (IRL). perhaps due to transitioning. and, I have more social skills online than IRL i like to think, or at least i have the ability to speak.
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wait rlly? wait what kind of worried worried im a bad person or worried for my health crap? i dont wanna see a therapist abt whatever u guys are talking abt ill live whatever i dont wanna talk abt my online activity with them. (not that it's particularly bad.. i don't think... but still)
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ok somehow i missed a lot in a few mins but... why would i talk to a therapist abt "it", whatever rhat is. I'm just paranoid, that's all. pls don't make me think I have some issue or something cuz that stuff is horrible for my anxiety. edit: plus, therapists are lame in my dumb opinion. meaning they aren't super helpful for me. possibly my fault. yes, that was a "never bring this up again" thing, if I recall. Still haven't looked through that, and don't plan to. But you also haven't shared whatever that is with me, not that i particularly want you to. especially if you don't want to a lot. Actually... I didn't dig through any posts. I'll leave it at that, unless you want to PM. Yes, I was worried about her and how much she hands out to ppl. Yes, I should keep ppl's privacy in mind. Does that mean no PM'ng them abt it? To just ignore?
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by reliant i mostly mean this thread because y'all are trans i actually didn't try to find it, but i am very aware as well that it was not the best thing to do.
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I mean, I don't feel like you've shared that much either. Probably more than me but still. Not that you have to. Also that's Izzy's argument ig. That may be true. Unfortunately I grow to rely too much on people here on the Shard, perhaps because I don't have much anyone else to talk to. At least.. it's easier here, sometimes. I mostly trust you aren't lying. At least, I trust you pretty much fully until I put on my tinfoil hat. I've never played forum mafia (is it just mafia but online, like SE?) Well... that's a partial lie lol. I've mentioned this before but I accidentally became involved in it.
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so.. do u not trust me? just curious.
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you already think you know the answer.
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to be blatant... I trust izzy more than you, but that also makes me more concerned that she's just trying to seem trustworthy. also i probably shouldn't go down this road as i doubt it's healthy for you or me, and may ruin my relationship with y'all. i just worry that I'm getting too personal with you guys and I don't even know you.
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I don't have relationships, really. not strong ones. I don't think. idk. maybe i do, but with irl people.
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yooo 451 posts /iykyk /reference
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hmmm
perhaps past it? if i ever had it.
for some reason i fear im attracted to guys. since i like women. i think i do.
I've always been, like, "yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm attracted to women." (note "pretty sure") pretty much like yeah sure probably i dont wanna think too much abt it. although, i am unsure or indecisive about a lot of things in general...
idk i just .. don't know which feelings i still feel and which ones no longer.
like idk who I'm attracted to now...?
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yeah.. but that's kinda a false dichotomy. sigh nice epiphany. rarely, i remember that there are lots of people just like me on the other side. not some CreepyOldPerson. if you gamble enough, ur gunna die eventually. if u take the chance enough times, even very slim, it'll come back to bite you some day. yeah... but how do i know i can trust them? that's the problem. I've always thought of it that way, rather than worrying about them trusting me.
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Ok, so I'm slightly ignorant since I don't use Reddit, but does it have a PM/DM feature? Or a wall/profile/SU area? that's not what I meant. also you might not wanna mention if anyone you know/family members...pass away...cuz then someone could look for the obit.
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read my edits, please. i haven't.. I don't think I've had bad experiences.with stalkers in the past, but I might've. plus... interent makes me uncomfortable at times. also, izzy, i dont see why u need ur reddit in ur bio. it's another piece of info, and ppl could, say, use it to stalk/harras you on that platform yes i know people can get all ur info easily. that's the scary thing. i guess it helps to think of urself as one of billions, so who would care abt you? Unless they specifically target certain people... cough cough... minorities ... cough cough ... trans people ... cough i know it ip is easy.. but luckily I don't rlly know how..oh wait nvm. yeah, reddit can be good. but still. i guess for me it's also just ... language. i get uncomfortable sometimes, and no I'm not a child, but that doesn't mean i appreciate... explicit material, or things that requisite a content warning.
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you... don't... need... an... account I've read plenty of reddit - more than i care to - in the past week. no account. I'm not paranoid enough. sure, it may take a more dedicated stalker.. but still. they would have an idea of my demographics, at the very least. you know, the more info you give out - even if it's seemingly small - can add up. They can cross-reference, eliminate certain stuff. If someone had access to everyone on the planet, just knowing that you are female eliminates, what, half? [del'd]
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yes i know. but not paranoid enough. i know a lot of safety stuff, but not enough cybersecurity yet. at least,... it depends on the area. yes but that stuff sticks with u. plus, the person still can get stuff during it even if they end up getting banned or whatever. or after. screenshots are unreliable anyways. moreso on computers. it depends on the format also. fine, touche for screenshots and web archive. only an active stalker/otherwordhere would do that. And maybe not webarchive, since it might leak their ip. don't use discord. I don't care what ppl say otherwise, just don't. i use it, but sparingly. only for, like, clubs and whatnot. same goes for Reddit... izzy. but doesn't that concern you? at all? also, I don't know precisely where you live. just the state.
