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Hahhahwhwhhwhehhdhxhxj nnsens i i hate that idk why i hate that probably because it means i gotta be responsible for myself and practice self-care and all that crap oh also i keep making "jokes" either online, sometimes irl, or to myself that I'm so depressed and whatever when I'm not? and then maybe it makes me depressed or i already was or just anxiety and my anxiety is bad and i hate eveything and i just want idk what i want actually yes idk what o want

ok ok good thank you i mightve needed to hear that probably it's a good info to keep in mind who says my consciousness is fully functioning hehe no i get what u mean i think ye ye ye yehhhe sigh i hope i dont but what do i do help doesn't work rlly and i hate keep goiing to ppl to tell them I'm actually not feeling better when i said i was because i genuinely was rhen i went and listened to a depressing song on repeat and made myself anxious and went to bed late and ughh and spent too much time on here which made me not do stuff i was supposed to do and also that gives anxiety and then i watched this gory episode or two or three of a show with morbid fascination ig and eewww and ughhh

i feel comfort and uncomfort drom that xomfort? ig... if someone actually was gonna do the stuff they wouldn't uncomfort? or eould they? foshhshehshsbene i hope i dont get those cuz rhen ilk be genuinly unwell jejjej but am i unwell or not im not gonna act on them because i know rationally it's wrong but i kinda want to and that worries me? so maybe i don't actually want to and the wanting is the intrusive thought part? jjsjnes6656sstyes

why do i never get better ugagwghwhehej kkwkekedkkdkdkdkekwkwkkwkwkwkwkkkd i keeep soing stuff and talking theough it and trying new meds and doing stuff and having therapy and everyting and then i just wnsjdjsjwjjwiejcnndnsne injust make myself srupidsly depressdd or thinking again and snjwjejejxjhsjwhwj iwiwiiwuejejejehehehrhebrbdndrbbhrhrhrhehejrjjjejejejjnjjejrjrjejnb whywhywhywhwhhwhwywgwheywwwgwg

it's... kinda different crime intrusive thoughts are one part but not the main issue right now idk i'd rather not elaborate too much but i will if i need to, and it'll be fine. sigh oh gosh what did i just wrote..... sigh ihatemyselfsomuch ordoi ihavenoidea butcanyoujustfixme

i mean yeah but... like... usually i don't like my intrusive thoughts and I'm like "go away!! pls!" and they scare me. maybe not the goaway but they always worry me, but the cause of that worry can be different. Either I'm worried I'll somehow... enact what the thought is thinking suddenly without control, or I'm worried I actually want to enact the thought and it seems kinda appealing and then that worries me? see above i can.say specific thoughts ig if need be.. get rid of the share id in your member title link it's annoying pls

same

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intrusive thoughts edit: oh also that the typing indicator at bottom of topic barely is accurate and usually shows after person posts or wtvr or something

so u hate everyone?

ive never reddit

probably but not with rp well that too but i dont rlly up to it,,too much required

help im feeling perfectly fine and not depressed atm and slightly happy but also not deep down maybe just cuz I didn't get enough sleep and tired and weird today but also I'm perfectly fine but also not because intrusive thoughts go brrr kinda but they are a different variety of intrusive thoughts than the ones i was plagued by before and idk what's an intrusive thought and what's an actual thought that might need help for

i love those all

I made another. b3b5…8938.exe May sat at her desk, navigating through the mess of tabs and windows she had open. She had so many things stored in her clipboard that she lost track of what each was for. What May was doing wasn’t exactly…encouraged by the law, but she had to know. Concentrating, May worked through each step, luckily coming across very few errors. She had to get this right, and there were no second chances. At last, May clicked “download” and sat back, anticipating a few minutes’ wait. When the file downloaded nearly instantaneously, she did a double-take. Had she messed up? Was this the wrong file? Before she could even check the name, her screen went black. It turned on a few seconds later, with a terminal window up. May glanced at the terminal window’s name, and recognized it as…the equivalent of gibberish. Unless she could find a match in one of her databases, a hash was largely useless. Instead, she focused on the terminal itself. Hello, May held her breath, feeling her heart pound in her chest as the letters slowly typed themselves one at a time in the terminal window. May. - Lily

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ooh *joins*

Hello, rebel. Yes, I know precisely what you are hoping to accomplish. You should have been more careful. Goodbye.

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i tried but iz too hard

oh btw i think u guys missed when this thread had 111111 replies. I got screenies tho. (sorry for non-rp post)

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lol that gave me a quote ping nice

precisely