Shatter

Rough day. I’m stuck in one of those heavy moods where everything feels off. I don’t like feeling emotional or vulnerable, but here we are. Can’t focus, can’t shake it, and of course it hits on a day when I’ve got work and assignments piled up.

I’m frustrated with myself. I'm frustrated with my old mistakes, with how I lash out sometimes, with how my brain goes into “fight mode” before I can stop it. I’m trying to understand the cycles of this, figure out if it’s stress or something else. I just want to curl up somewhere quiet until my head stops spinning.

I miss home. I miss my cat. He's the one creature who loves me without conditions. Being far from home isn’t helping.

But I know this will pass. It always does. The light’s there; I’m just not reaching it today.

Anyway… my mask is back on now.