Existential

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I'm writing this for myself mostly, but if you wanna read it go ahead. I'm ok, for starters, this isn't me giving some speech about whatever, I need a place to get my thoughts out, and this will probably happen a bit lol. I like where I am right now, but I guess I'm in a place of what if I botch one thing and I screw it all up. All these what-ifs flying by me and whizzing around my head are like one unorganized closet worth of thoughts and feelings I keep to myself because I sit and stew, and I don't output it anywhere. So basically this is just a me story time. I like writing little stories and books cause it gives me an emotional output, given that I struggle with giving an emotional output like that of a "normal" person, as society brands them. But I'll be honest, I don't think there is a normal in this world. I think that this world is full of people that are just trying to understand each other, and they shun those who they think are too different. I've definitely felt that way for my whole life. People shunning me for my beliefs, my opinions, my thoughts, my actions. Everyone keeps trying to tell me how I should live and how my story should go. But maybe, I wanna do something on my own terms. Maybe I wanna be my own person, instead of the person everyone wants me to be. Maybe this is what taking care of yourself truly is, its a personal path of revelation and realizing that your life is your life. and people can't control it unless you let them. That's what I'm trying to do now. I think that's what everyone should try to do. Be yourself. No matter how weird, no matter what people think. let personality flow, let creativity go free. break the iron cage and step out into the light. If you read to this point, thank you for reading. Have a great day