Existential

I guess I just do photography now

Anyway

Just an update to show I’m still i

Hey gang

Got a chance to actually process some stuff, my life is kinda a mess right now. I’m doing better, just having some other stuff going on right now

Love all yall

Hey

So I’m sure people saw glass’s update. Just here to say I’m okay. Struggling but okay. Dm’s are always open, assuming I’m looking at the shard. Thanks guys.

I did the thing again

the gone for a month thing

I think I’m just gonna do monthly updates to let people know I’m still alive cause I don’t interact with humans much anymore

so I’m not apart of the church anymore. That’s fun, um, I desperately want to leave my house, cause my parents lowkey just suck, and I’m still alive, suprisingly enough. So yeah, that’s my life update

Love yall

So I’m back

Again

after disappearing for most of this month

I have wanted to get on sometimes

I’m just so busy lol, works a nightmare 

how’re everyone? (Yes I know not grammar it is 1 am and I’ve barely slept shush)

*breathes to life*

WHAT 

YEAR IS IT

So

I went to fan x today

with glass 

GOODNESS I WAS OVERWHELMED

But ir was fun and she bought me a hat

and I got a painting

Pics of both below

So

I saw infinity castle today

It’s pretty dark at times, but it was AMAZING

Easily hit my top 10

Guys

I finished Demon slayer’s Hashira Training arc last night

HOLY FLUFFING GOODNESS I LOVE THIS SHOW I AM LITERALLY OBSESSED 

I’m also trying to figure out what I wanna watch next

my current list on what I’m looking at is below, any other recommendations welcome :3

• Solo Leveling
• Sword Art Online
• Magic and Muscles
• RE: Zero
• Chainsaw Man
• Black Clover
• Spy Family
• Fullmetal Alchemist
• Jujutsu Kaisen
• Death Note
• Pacific Rim: The Black
• One Piece
• Fate
• Tokyo Ghoul
• Fire Force
• Bleach
•  

Gang

Why is cleanin up sticky residue 

SO FLUFFING DIFFICULT 

guys

why did I wait so long to watch demon slayer

I just finished the mugen train arc (season 2) 

HOLY CROW

So

I can’t tell if it was a waste of time or what it was, but I platinumed Marvel’s Spider-Man 2

10/10 game in my opinion, @Through The Living Glass can confirm it’s one of the few things I talk about I have interest in

idk, it was certainly an accomplishment tho

Guys

Don’t eat a carolina reaper

it hurts

Quite literally

why do people invite me to conversations

if they are going to shut me up the whole time, not let me get a word in

and then proceed to finish their conversation and ask me if I had something to say like

I did 10 minutez ago, you don’t get to hear it now, the moment passed 10 MINUTES AGO
 

And they ask “why are you upset?” And like

CAN YOU GUESS WHY I’M UPSET

*sigh*

I love my family

Ok

so

My life has been really messy, and my social life is practically destroyed

but I may try to come back to doing this more again

i kinda kmiss it, honestly I think Injust got so busy I forgot it existed for a bit

among other things that I probably won’t open up about but we’ll see

anyway

glad to be back

So it’s been like

2 months

what’s up

. . .

Hi

Uh

How has it been 4 days since I last got on

where did my mind go

Okay

I’m just gonna

let this out here

I’m finally cleared for graduation. Feels weird. I’m happy but also… not? Idk how to explain it. But for some reason it just doesn’t feel real. 
 

I think I’m just stuck in a place where I’m prepared for the worst to happen, and that’s what’s happening now. I can’t seem to actually believe I’m graduating. In the strangest way I feel like I don’t deserve it. That’s kinda how I’ve felt about everything I have recently. I get caught in a place where I’m skimming the minimum and I don’t know how I’m making it to the end. Or I have people that I’m with or friends or something and I don’t know why they’re with me. I can’t seem to understand what makes a person like someone like me. I’m exhausted all the time and I’ve spent the last couple weeks forcing myself to leave my house, rather than let me anxiety keep me contained inside, but I don’t know if it’s getting better or worde I’m kinda falling to worse. I just… I think I wish I was like other people. Put together. I don’t wanna help myself cause it prevents me from helping thise I care about, but it seems like me hurting is hurting those around me, and I’m stuck in an endless loop. I’m just falling, and I feel like there isn’t anything I can grab on to to stop. I have Glass, and that makes me so happy, but I don’t want her to have to catch me every time I fall. I’m just so deep in my head I don’t know what to do. Thanks for reading if you did. I don’t know if I’ll be back for a bit, but if you want to message me pm me so I’ll see it, or something idk

Ok ok, for funsies, (glass you can’t answer ) 

How many pockets do yall think I have today  

Why is Fallout 4 so addicting 

It’s so fun for no reason

I need help  

I’m freaking out

I wanted to get as high a score as possible to be 100% sure I would graduate

. . .

One of the assignments locked

I had NO IDEA it would lock

so now I’m twice as anxious

Help

Why

SCHOOOOOOOL

*curses*

Don’t stick your hand in a sink of hot water to pull the drain

it hurts

life lessons with Dabi on again tomorrow at 2

*finally gets chromebook working*

*opens*

*remembers I had shard notifs on on my laptop*

*every notif from the last 3 weeks starts loading*

oh-

oh no-

I wish that there was a realm I could go to to just not exist for a while

Time wouldn't move there, and I could just think and be in peace

no anxieties, no worries, just bliss in a place without consequences

Late night thoughts with Dabi

Blerg