jar man listens. "well... i had a choice that took me down a path without choices made for myself... i was 16 when i got my first hit, and never looked back. then they asked me to go down to the old house, and im no scaredy-cat, no i went down there. cult grabbed me, stuffed me full of drugs and had me cut a man open. i- i embalmed him. in ichor. then... i just lost myself. i barely got out... but im now constantly connected to the murder of a man. a man who is still alive. but he's still dead. the man i killed will never be again." he exhales. "but i appreciate you talking to me. i dont know how the soothe stuff works, but if its genetic, it shouldnt work like that. you could have been anything else. and someone said 'you need these experiences. but you can grow stronger than you are now' and you agreed."