kajsa ㅇㅅㅇ

Wow. It's... it's been a while. My schedule has been kinda insane lately, so I haven't had much time to be on the Shard. That said, I could have gotten on, but I just... didn't? Idk. Anyway, here's a peek  at my crazy life in a nutshell:

- Leaders of the Pack (show choir) premiere is in four weeks, and we're not even close to being ready.

- First competition is in five weeks, also not ready for that.

- I can't even do show choir or dance because I sprained my ankle twelve weeks ago during choreography, I was in a boot for two weeks, and now it's getting worse, and I think it might be a stress fracture.

- Speaking of, my sister has a stress fracture in her leg, right below her knee.

- My sister's birthday is in three days.

- Wolfgang (a cappella) is performing three different Christmas songs in like two weeks, we're not ready for that either.

- On that note, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY! 

- Thanksgiving was fun but kind of insane. Long story.

- I have too much homework.

- I'm totally stressed out for no reason and it's making me feel stuck and kind of trapped.

- I feel guilty because one of my young women's leaders at church who's super, super nice and kind and the best keeps asking me to babysit for her kids, but the last time I babysat was my first time babysitting ever, and she has five kids who are great but they're kids so ya know, and the oldest hit one of the other kids and I feel like I handled it really badly, and the oldest is like two years younger than I am so it's kind of awkward, so I feel really guilty for saying no all the time even though my schedule doesn't allow it but I'm also just feeling super overwhelmed about it. *phew.* That is one long run-on sentence with bad grammar.

- Speaking of being overwhelmed, I'm trying to write a novel, but I'm a bit of a perfectionist, and I'm so caught up on getting my main character's backstory perfect so I can move onto the plot that I feel like I'm getting nowhere. It's stressing. Me. Out.

- I think I need a getaway... I wish I could pause time to get everything done and then just RELAX. I could really use that right now.

- Grammarly is also stressing me out.

- Also boy drama. Yeah.

- Roleplaying is fun, but it's also stressful because it reminds me of how I need to get cracking on my book and things.

- OH ALSO I'M SO FRUSTRATED AT THIS GIRL AT MY SCHOOL BECAUSE SHE'S THE PRINCIPAL'S DAUGHTER RIGHT, AND WE HAVE TO HAVE REALLY TIGHT CURLS FOR SHOW CHOIR AND SHE WAS LIKE "I DON'T WANNA WEAR THE CURLERS TO SCHOOL" SO THE PRINCIPAL BANNED THEM AND SO NOW WE'RE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO KEEP THE CURLS IN DURING THE DAY AND IT'S A HUGE HASSLE AND AGHHHHHHHHHHH

- Anyway. Thanks for letting me vent. I'm just overwhelmed. And stressed. Maybe I should go meditate.

Thanks.

-Kajsa