So. Um. how do I start???
There’s this boy. For the purposes of this, I’m calling him Jamie.
I’ve known him for about two years, and about a year ago we became really really close and I was really happy because I’d never had a proper best friend before. He was struggling because he has a very traumatic past, and I was helping him. And it was all great, up until recently, when Jamie started texting his bf (who I’m also friends with) with suicide notes and saying things like ‘I know you don’t love me and you’re breaking my heart but I don’t care because I love you too much to force our relationship on you’ even though his bf literally never showed any signs of wanting to break up. and then they did break up, and Jamie got really sad and no one knew what to do because we were all terrified that he was going to hurt himself.
Fast forward to like a week ago, and Jamie and his ex got into loads and loads of trouble for drinking beer in the school bathrooms. (They’re most definitely underage.) But the thing is, after that, ex finally felt comfortable to tell us how horrible and controlling and abusive Jamie had been in their relationship, and when Jamie asked him whether he wanted to drink with him, he was too scared to say no (I’m pretty sure there was also a lot of pressuring into it since ex is sensible and wouldn’t do a thing like that under normal circumstances).
Meanwhile, all Jamie’s friends deserted him for the things he did when he was dating his ex, but I didn’t because I’m too nice for my own good sometimes and plus I’m scared of him. So now I’m one of the only ones left and I really don’t want to be friends with him for the things he’s done but I’m so worried that if I leave him he’ll do something to himself and I really don’t want that to be on me…
Oh my gosh, that’s looong and way more rant-y than I intended. But if anyone cares, there you are.