Edema Rue

College applications

scholarship applications

writing contests (aka more scholarship apps)

on a board to help plan Storycon, a writing convention especially for teenagers in Utah which Brandon Sanderson (among many others) is going to.

new classes

three campuses

6 college classes this semester

CNA program

first day of school, and none of my classes are at my actual high school

watched the sunrise from the football field with beautiful friends I never expected to have

new nails

beautiful resin and flower necklace I made yesterday

i have stories to tell

i have people to meet

i have a whole world to see

and this whole world is going to see me, and i dare it to try to stay the same when I’m done with it

guys, I know a lot of you are struggling. I know there are days when you don’t want to wake up. I know there are nights when you curl up on the bathroom floor, broken in pieces, trying to remember how to breathe, tearing at your hair and itching at the tearstains that never seem to leave.

i know your ache

i have sat on that floor

i have looked in that mirror

i have imagined the world if all it contained of me was a few words I’d left behind

i have screamed at the wind and begged the earth to let me go

and it didn’t

because it knew that the person I was then wasn’t the person I’d be today

it knew that there were untold wonders I couldn’t bear to imagine

it knew that today was worth the hurt it took to get here

And I know that the person you are now isn’t the person you will always be

i know that there are untold wonders you can’t bear to imagine

i know that some distant tomorrow is worth the hurt it takes to get there

this whole life thing?

it’s pretty amazing