Immortal Platypus

Life. What a crazy thing. Hectic. Tiring. Terrifying. Lonely. It is all of these. And it hurts. Oh, boy does it hurt. 

But it's also calm. Invigorating. Healing. Comforting. Fun.

Why can't it be those things today? I look back at my life, and even as short as two years ago, life was simpler. The hectic times just filled me with energy. I wasn't scared of the future. Even writing that seems weird, but it's true! I was excited! I was so optimistic back then. I didn't always feel alone. 

I've learned so much, grown so much, been blessed with so much, but my thinking and feeling just stays bad. I just don't know anymore. 

I can deal with it well at this point. I just wish I didn't feel alone.