There's this person. They have a bad habit of manipulating people. And they had a bad habit of physically hurting people. And they got better on the second part but not on the first. And something about them my brain has just gotten so used to all the manipulating and everything that it's hard for me to recognize because I'm just used to it. But then because I'm scared I won't recognize it I just kind of shut down a little.
This person came and sat and talked to me and couple of other people this morning before school and I couldn't take it and I just started to slowly shut down. And then when they left I just kept shutting down and I couldn't stop it which freaked me out which made me break down.
But I've also noticed that if I can connect anything people say or do to something that person did in the past I start to shut down too. And I have no control over those connections and I don't know what to do about it. I could literally shut down at any moment because of any little thing someone did.
I want it to stop but I don't know how.