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I think a Nathis based one next would be super fun ... I'd have to reread some wiki pages tho
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HI EVERYONE HOW ARE YOU !!! ???
Turns out full time student + part time job is a killer combo, but there's nothing like procrastinating homework to bring one back to the forums amiright.It's life update time!
How am I? I have no idea lol I'm all over the place.
My job isn't too bad. It's fast food so it can only be so good, but all of my coworkers are nice to me and it's not like it's that hard, just tiring. I get covered in ice cream everytime tho lollll
College is hard, and reading the textbooks takes me hours because for some reason I can't read quickly anymore. But it's also really fun. I like studying at the library and walking around the pretty campus and sometimes buying snacks. Also lowkey having the freedom to go up and back from campus everyday as an adult is giving me life. Sometimes a girl just needs a good wander now and then. I'm enjoying my classes, and I've already made some ugly art which is good.
Don't worry about all my currently due assignments, they're not there if I don't think about them!!!
Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuh. A lot of stuff happened but it's late and I do remember anything tbh ...
I rearranged all the furniture in my room which is really fun. I have room for more bookcases now which means I can buy more books eheheheheeheheh. I plan on decorating it and making it a really special place for myself cause it's basically my comfert zone. Plus I don't have a dorm room to decorate because I'm living at home so I gotta have my fun somehow.
I starting reading WoT. My brother and I are gonna try and buddy read the whole series which will be fun I think. I have no idea how to pronounce moiooiranine or whatever her name is.
Updates on more serious stuff I guess?SpoilerI was finally able to talk to a doctor about my anxiety, and prove to my mom it's not just a lack of vitamins messing up my brain. I'm now taking meds for it, and I do think it has helped a little with general anxiousness though I still have bad days. It hasn't helped the depresso expresso though lmao so what can you do.
The doctor didn't really diagnose me with a disorder, or offer to look into diagnoses though, and I'm not sure if I should push for that or not. On the one hand, it's not good to wrap your identity around a health problem, which is a lesson I'm trying to learn. On the other hand, I do wish I could concretely say "I have a disorder" when explaining my problems to folks so .... I'm not sure what to do lol.
I actually found out that the clinic on my college campus will test you for ND for free though, so I'm thinking my next step will be figuring out if I have Autism or not (because if I do then that's a root cause of a lot of other stuff).
By the way I finally told my mom I suspect I have it, which is something I was really scared to do. I've heard to many horror stories about more traditional folks not understanding, but when I told she literally said "Lowkey I might have it too." What a queen.
Uhhhhhhh I did also come out to my sister (who's not in the church anymore) and it was really scary but she was really accepting and loving about it and it made me feel really safe knowing she's there for me. We've always been close and I'm really thankful for her.
I want to say I'm doing better now then I was a few months ago but I don't know if that's true ... I just have a lot more distracting me and keeping me busy lol. That's not necessarily a bad thing!
I've missed you all and I love you so much. I hate how I've disappeared and believe me when I say forum activity is not the only thing that has suffered for the insanity that is my life ... I have so many neglected hobbies ... and unfinished projects ... and my succulents are dying ...
I can tell it's getting late because my laptop and my phone simultaneously ran out of battery so I gotta wrap this up!! I'll probably think of more things to say in the morning, but that's all the big stuff.Love you <333
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QuoteLove you too girl!!!
Awwwwwwwwwww thanks
QuoteMy mom thinks everyone has at least a sprinkle of ADHD
That's not really how it works, but that's a sweet sentiment!
Quotesome words of advice about WoT
Don't get disgusted/bored/grossed out in the middle books, you'll know what I mean, but after book 11, it is the single greatest fantasy series ever written (with exception to Tolkien obv)
Remember side characters, they important and will come back
Buddy I have heard this exact same thing from like 15 different people, including a random guy at the bus station who saw me carrying the book
. I'm well aware.
QuoteLet me know of your thoughts on characters! (and theories
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Would you guys be interested in a reaction thread from me? I've been thinking about doing one as a reason to stay active, and I'm going to be typing up reactions to send to my brother anyway.
QuoteI pronounce it Mwah-rain, or close enough
omg thanks T-T
Thanks everyone !!!!!!!!!!11
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In the center of Teth's skyline rises The Green Opal, it's largest and only tavern. Two stories tall, and leaking yellow lantern light into the purple dusk, it's the most opulent building in town. Teth itself was a dull farmers town, quiet and muddy, but it sat on age old trading routes. The Green Opal was a major stop for travelers, merchants and anyone in-between. That night was a loud one. The upheaval of the empire meant people were moving, their reasons their own. Travelers needed a place to stay, and The Green Opal's rooms never ran out. The doors were wide open, despite the late hour, and greeters stood at the entrance, guiding the throng inside. Passing through the threshold was like entering a dream. One left behind the grim night of a falling empire and entered a light-soaked heaven of good drinks and silk beds. -------------------- August nervously tapped on of his gloved fingers on the polished wooden table. "Are you sure about this place June? I don't like how public it is ..." "This is the best place I could think of," June said, annoyed. He'd explained it several times but the old man was unrelenting. August sat on one side of their claimed circular table, legs crossed. June had thrown his coat over a chair opposite him, but hadn't sat down yet. He didn't feel like sitting. "I know you've been here before, but that doesn't mean it's trustworthy ... and we just found out it has a new owner since the last time you were here. Whoever they are, they might recognize us, which is the opposite of what we want." They'd both attempted to adopt disguises, but lack of skill and resources meant it was only so effective. After being chased out of Marnie's inn, they'd raided August's old mansion in Jouken to retrieve a good portion of his money and some new clothes. They were hoping being dressed like lords would throw off any potential pursuers, who thought they were looking for homeless vagabonds. August had started growing a beard, something June had never seen him do before. He kept it neatly trimmed, but he looked strikingly older with it. Like an actual man in his thirties, instead of a man in his thirties with big eyes and a babyface. June had decided to chop his hair, now it sat against his neck around chin length. He'd never had it this short. The Emperor had always said half a musician's success was a good image, and that had apparently meant long silky hair. June found he preferred it shorter, he felt lighter without it. "I'm sure the new owner is just some old rich guy making a new business investment." June said, waving his hand. "We probably won't even meet him, we're only staying one night and this place is massive." "An 'old rich guy' is the last sort of person I'd trust to run a safe inn." His companion said, clearly not convinced. "Aren't you an old rich guy, August?" June grinned. "One learns best by doing," August retorted, not returning the smile and instead taking a drink out of his wine glass. June rolled his eyes, "I've been here several times in the past with diplomats Father wanted me to entertain, and we were always left to our business. It'll be fine. Plus, it'll be easy for your friends to find." That was the point of all of this--August had a few old war friends he wanted to discuss the recent events with. They were going to decide what to do. A vague task, but it was just a place to start. June was there because July had asked him to be ... though June deeply regretted not leaving the empire with his twin when he'd had the chance. Now he was stuck here with August of all people. Because he'd made promises and he was supposed to be working on actually keeping those. "You said it was the only place you could think of," August said under his breath, as if consoling himself. "Yes," June said finally swinging into his chair, "And you're old hidey hole got sacked, so this is the best we've got." August took another drink of his wine, a sour look on his face. A moment of silence passed, laced with the comfortable tension that had sat between them for years now. August set his drink down and sighed, seeming to give up on any possibility of changing locations. "My friends will be here in the morning, so we just need to wait out the night." "Fantastic!" June said with another grin because he knew it was annoying, "In the meantime, you can try the food. They have one of the best steaks in Worru." -------------------- @Through The Living Glass @Bird Furious @Wierdo @THE DEMON @Spark of Hope @Argenti @echo74 @SpiritOfWrath @TwinStorm @IcedOutPenguin @Exotic Almond @DAVEY @Tinwatcher @BlueWildRye
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AN NPC CALLED SHARP???
LIKE MY HUNGER GAMES RP SHARPS?
SIR ARE YOU PART OF THE BLOODLINE?
SpoilerI’m sorry this is a really dumb joke lol
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so that’s what Lee and Dougella got up to… lol
Actually this npc is here because he’s guarding this young nobleman and his girlfriend while they go on a secret date lol. Maybe that’s Lee and dougella xD
Quotegenshin impact?
Several reasons!! But mostly because I find it fun and relaxing.
here’s me feeding ducks at a lake hehehe
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College is kinda based
Working fast food is kinda not
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Hate it when you do something fun for yourself as a treat and it ends up making you feel worse...
I decided to splurge on an expensive notebook because I got my first paycheck
--it is a notebook, not a sketchbook though it has blank pages, but the expensive brand made me think the paper quality would be fine for drawing anyway
-GSM is pretty low but I'm not picky
--I open the packaging. Nice!!
--the paper is pretty thin. That's okay, I prefer drawing on thin paper anyway, let me do some test doodles-
--ah
--the paper is see through
--see through
Its darker irl and the lighting in my room is bad but
That is the back side of the drawing T-T how am I supposed to fill the pages. Even if I were to write in it as intended???
I don't think I can return it now that I've marked it either T_T
Sorry to post about another sad thing before the promised life update but aksjdndndjdjdjdndndnxnxjdkskdkd
Its almost 1 am I need to sleep and try not to think about how much I spent
I will figure out what to do with this in the morning T____T
Love you guys T__T
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Summer break is over
I spent most of it rotting in my room, but to be fair a lot of other stuff has happened, good and bad. I want to do a big life update because I have a lot of stuff to share with you guys, and I'm hoping going back to a school setting will mean I'm more active on here.But for now, all I can think about is how my lazy days are over. It'll be worth it, and I'll have the courage to go to class tomorrow, but for now I feel a little sad. I know a lot of people love fall, and the fall aesthetic, but I've never been able to romanticize it. I'm too young, and afraid of natural decay. It still hurts too much, but I'll try and fix that this year.
I love you guys, and I'll try to talk more soon. For tonight, I need to write an essay before bed (that's right, an essay due on the first day of class, we're jumping right back into the grind). Luckily it's only like 500 words, and boy do I have things to say.
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I am normal about the kpop demon hunter movie
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I went to my college orientation today :3
It was really fun, and I'm excited about going there!
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It was really pretty on campus today!
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........ . . .. I am also now officially an art major lol, we all knew it was coming
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this was almost a month ago, I'm sorry for not replying sooner!!
Thanks everyone!! I have a week left before my first class starts. I'm pretty nervous but also excited.QuoteWhere are you going?
Unfortunately I can't reveal that as it would take away from my carefully curated aura of mystery and enigma
@Just A SilvereyeQuoteThough I'm surprised to hear you get into art, I thought you wanted to do stats for the rest of your life
LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL Ur so right imma change my major again
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YOU BEST BELEIVE I'LL BE THERE
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I don't really have one because I don't have much experience reading those--I have too many physical books I'm supposed to be getting lol. I mostly just read comics and fanfic online.
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ty lol
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I realize it's been months but I missed these posts and I'm so sorry T-T I'll respond now. It was, unfortunately I don't think it is any longer. CR does this where if a season of a popular show is airing, they'll change the first season to free, as an incentive to get people to watch it and get hooked, so they're more likely to try out the subscription. I happened to catch it at the right time. Upon double checking, the whole season is no longer free like it used to be, instead just the first 3 episodes are free (another practice of theirs to get you hooked lol). You can make a free crunchyroll account to and save series to a watch list so you can glance at things quickly. It's also useful if you don't want the subscription, but occasionally want to use a gift card that gives premium for a period of time, which is something I've done a couple times. The first season of AD is also now on Netflix, if that's an option for you, and Netflix has the second season if you can VPN and change you're location to Japan. Thanks for the resource! I mostly understand the dynamic of the palace, it was the dialogue that I was having a hard time understanding--characters and what exactly they were trying to get across confused me, more so then the setting, and I wondered if it was because the characters were speaking in what was meant to be an older fashion. That said I'm probably going to rewatch it soon, and I'm hoping that I'll pick up on things I missed the time.
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I did finish fellowship of the ring at the end of June, I believe. Last night I reached the halfway point of Lotr, which I was really proud of because I'm a slow reader and I thought it would take me forever lol! After I finish my lotr reread my brother and I are going to buddy read the Wheel of Time, which I'm excited about. I have been thinking about doing a reaction/reading thread for that over the wot forum, but I'm not fully decided yet. I don't know who would want to read that, I mostly just want to write it lol At the same time I'm going to try and work on the list of YA stuff I've been wanting to read. Leigh Bardugo purgatory here I cooommeeee (I'm joking (I'm the one who insisted on reading SaB before SoC lol (I only have myself to blame))). Until then o7
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what if I dropped out of college
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My friend told me that she read mistborn but was disappointed in it because kelsier died
Lsjdjdjsksldjdjdkls I didn't know what to say lol
"Um actually, if you read ~6000 more pages of this guys work you might unlock more kelsier content!"
It sounds like a pyramid scheme advertisement
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The exact same thing happened to me!!
Spoileron Saturday my friend was like "I finished the Final Empire, when K died I was so sad!"
And I just nodded sympathetically and said "Yeah, i know right
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Him: "but at least I think we get a cute animal companion in the next book from one art piece I saw"
and I just nodded. HAHA yup just a totally normal kandra doggo that is definitely OreSeur
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Cookies in cream ice cream is so fire
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I agree, last time we had a game stretch out super long was last summer. I don't know if this is true for everyone, but I spent most of my time on the shard between classes and assignments at school because it was one of the only things not blocked lol. Without school I have less time where the only thing I can work on is a shard rp, so I end up being less active.
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Thanks for all the kind words and encouragement and advice everyone. I'm sorry I didn't respond immediately and that I've kind of disappeared from the shard, but reading what you all had to say has helped a lot, and I've thought about it a lot. I'm still kind of a mess and my brain feels like scrambled eggs, but good things also keep happening so I'm trying to stay hopeful. The other day I went to visit my aunt, she's moving so she's getting rid of a lot of stuff so she let me take home a ton of her fantasy paperbacks. It's stupid but it really cheered me up, and getting to some of those anticipated books is something that has kept me going. I have managed to collect the entirety of the wheel of time second hand, except for the very last book. My brother and I plan on doing a buddy read of wot once I finish my current read, which I'm excited about. My family also did another LOTR marathon which cheered me up a lot. It's funny because I'm reading the books right now and they both have a very powerful emotional message, but they're slightly different. I find it really interesting. I'm not sure what else to share. I did get my AP portfolio score and . . . it was 4. A great score that I should be satisfied with but I was a little disappointed. I felt like it didn't really reflect the amount of effort and time I put into it, but I will confess some of those paintings were kinda ugly. The score isn't really gonna effect me much though, so I shouldn't complain--I didn't take the class because I wanted the credit specifically, and I'm grateful that I do get credit in general. Yesterday and today I had job interviews for some part time stuff. I'm really hoping to get hired because I think it will help me. It'll be hard but good, and also I want money loll We did have a doctor's appointment for me, but the doctor ended up not being available on the chosen day. We're going to try to reschedule tomorrow, but I'm worried the date is gonna be pushed back a few weeks. For now I've just been taking things one day at a time, and that sort of thing. I want to be more active over here because I really really miss it, but it can be hard for me to sit down and write stuff. If you want to talk to me more often, I check discord everyday so we could connect there if we haven't already.
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NOO AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
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NO >:| I WILL SLEEP WHEN I WANT TO
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Thanks for the hugs and the advice guys. I'm feeling a little less hopeless, and I've trying to do calming things today. I'm hoping that I'll have a clearer head tomorrow, and some sleep will help too.
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idk what to do
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The spoiler period ended, so you can talk about it in the stormlight subforum now
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