The Wandering Wizard

I think I know why

You saved me

All those months ago

During that night

When I couldn’t feel

When I couldn’t care

 

Back then

I only had friends

And aloof parents

The floor was so nice

Just didn’t want to move

Didn’t know how yet

But

But that I would

That I would end it that night

 

And yet

And yet on my knees

You were there

I do not remember

The exact feeling

But the tears come rushing back

As I remember

Just the pure love

Such beautiful, sweet, pure love

Undiluted by anything

Just pure love

 

And that night

I managed to crawl into bed

To not seek a knife

Nor a way to end my life

But instead

I slept

In your warm embrace

 

And now

I think I know

I think I know why I was saved

Why you brought me back

To suffer more

To suffer greater things

Than ever before

 

You taught me the meaning

Behind these phrases

How great the pain of searing love

It’s time to get our hands dirty

Be love, there’s a whole lot of hurting

Why sit for a miracle

When we can be one

We can be the change, be the hope

Be the arms that don’t let go

Be a light in the dark

We are where is starts

And so many more

So many more phrases than I can list

 

You brought me back

For them

To lift them up

Because they need someone

Who will always be there

Someone who wishes to show 

The pure love of Christ to all

Someone who’s desire has been changed

Who just wishes to help

Someone who feels their pain as their own

Who is overwhelmed by caring sometimes

Who forgets to care for himself

Who tears himself apart for them

And does not regret a single second of it

Who’d do it a thousand times over

Each time more intense and brutal than the last

For them, I would do it

 

I was brought back for them

I don’t know that I could live for another reason

I don’t know that I’d want to live for another reason

I was brought back to help others, not myself

I was brought back different than before

Maybe a new creature, I’m not sure

But I’ll keep changing

I’ll keep turning to you

For them

Because without them

The world has no meaning

 

They are my siblings now

And I will defend them

To my last breath

Even from themselves

I will always defend them

And care for them

And love them

Because they are the reason I live

For them, I was brought back

Others as well

But they are why I live

So that I can help others

I

Was 

Brought

Back

For 

Them