Jrda firmly stood at attention, watching intently as the commander finally strode into the main training hall. Took him long enough- though, really, it was her fault for coming nearly fifteen minutes early. And anyways, who cared. She was finally, finally here after so many long years of waiting- more than nine years, practically since she’d turned eleven and gotten the photo.
Oh, how ago that had been. The last year especially had been agony, after missing her first opportunity to join up after her mother had begged her to stay just a year more so she could get all her business in order and retire early. She couldn’t hold it against her, of course- god knows the woman deserved it after more than forty years of labor (twenty of which also spent dealing with her) and nearly eight years worth of flowers at her husband’s grave.
The photo he had given her was resting in her pocket even as the commander spoke. A copy, of course- she wouldn’t dare risk the rather fragile original being lost or damaged. That original was safe with her mother at home.
She did realize the commander was talking. She just didn’t bother listening- whatever it was he was spouting, it was either something she had been told, read, or expected, either by her father, her mother, the recruiters, her friends- nothing was going to scare her out of this. She’d had a workout regimen since she was thirteen, she’d studied all of the public files on modules and strategy and anything else she thought would help for the past year.
Her mother had called it an obsession, and honestly, she couldn’t help but agree.
But there’s the problem with obsession. It’s gonna take more than acknowledging there’s an issue to stop it. And all she needed was one. One faieman, dead in front of her, and she wouldn't consider her life a failure, on the likely chance she died. That sure, single, definite inch towards utopia, would be enough to put her soul to rest.
Sure as hell didn't mean she'd stop at one, though. An inch was nice, but a mile was better, and she would run, jog, walk, shuffle, crawl, drag herself halfway across the world if she could manage the feat. But first, she had to get through the rest of orientation.