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Our Archipelago - A Chaotic RP
Going_North_cal replied to Channelknight Fadran's topic in Roleplaying
Hyron breathed in deeply, steadying her breathing. "That was fun. Now where's food?" @Mr. Misting -
Clinic: Lobby Calano's brow furrowed. He clenched his fist, and it began to hum, glowing brightly. "And yet," He said, "I can still do this. The connection is still there. They must have won. How?" @The Wandering Wizard
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Our Archipelago - A Chaotic RP
Going_North_cal replied to Channelknight Fadran's topic in Roleplaying
Hyron grinned, and couldn't help but laugh along with Miyako as the pair dashed down the hallway. @Mr. Misting -
Scene #90: Not Alone. This poem like piece was part of me writing my feelings out. It was originally posted in an earlier SU today, by me.
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Good afternoon, ladies and gentlemen.
Made the choice to watch one of those tiktok compilations of all the really sad really heartwarming ones, you know?
So now my anxiety is going at it, and I'm writing to get these feelings out, and to make the scenarios stop.
And it's bringing back some memories, some unpleasant ones, and dammit but I'm really scudding sad now.
So I uh..
I wrote something.
Pretty sad, pretty depressing. Based off my personal experiences, past and current.
Hope it helps anyone who needs it.
Spoiler“Do you have a story?”
“Yeah.”
“What’s your story?”
“My story?”
“Yeah.”
“My sister died. Suicide. She was my best friend. And it broke me.”
“How did you recover from that?”
“I didn’t.”
“What do you mean?”
“I never recovered. I will never recover fully. I was far away when it happened, I saw it coming. I helped as much as I could. I shouldn’t have left, that’s for sure. I vowed, afterwards, that I would never leave again.”
“Do you miss her?”
“Every day. Every damn day. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of her.”
“Do you have friends who’re there for you?”
“I do.”
“Do they help?”
“They do.”
“Do you know anyone who’s veering towards the path your sister took?”
“I do.”
“Are you trying to help them?”
“Absolutely.”
“Is it working?”
“I don’t know.”
“Is there something you wish you could say to them?”
“Too many.”
“Try something.”
“Don’t… don’t think it’s over because the past year has been absolute crap. Don’t think it’s over because no one at school cares to look your way. Don’t think it’s over because there’s only 3 of 8 billion people that care to ask how you’re doing. 3 is better than none.”
“That’s some good advice.”
“Don’t think that just because very few people care about you, that no one will miss you. People will miss you. My sister had nobody. Absolutely nobody. Except me. And I did all I could. And it still wasn’t enough. She reached out, she tried, but it wasn’t enough. I don’t blame myself. I don’t blame her. I blame people.”
“What do you mean?”
“People are absolute pricks. People will leave you in the dust without a second thought, because you don’t fit their vibe, or you don’t match their beliefs, or they just grow tired of you. I try to not be people. It hurts to call myself a human being, because most of us are absolute assholes.”
“Yeah.”
“I vowed never to leave anyone. Not after my sister. I will not be leaving anyone ever again. I will sacrifice my entire life for theirs. To see them succeed. To see them live.”
“Anything else?”
“Yeah. Nobody should have to hurt alone. Ever. And I know you’re probably thinking, ‘but I am alone, how can I fix that? I don’t know anyone who can help.’ Well, you’ll have to start somewhere. The path to healing and recovery is long, and hard. But one of the good things about people? They’re strong. Stronger than anything. You’ll get through this. And I’ll be here to guide you and help you every step of the way.”
“That was beautiful. Thank you.”
“Thank you for having me.”
If anyone ever feels like they need to, PM me. I'll try and get back to you ASAP, because I'll be here for you.
I'll take you under my wings, help you recover. That's why I'm here. To help.
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[AUDIO LOG MP-3: DAY 3]
*Begin Log*
(Sounds can be heard of someone fidgeting with a cassete player. The supposed sound of a cassete being loaded in and the lid closing plays. A button is pressed, and whirring is heard.)
Man 1: *cough* Day, uh, day 3 inside this.. this place. Food is uh, still around, but it's running out. I'm not sure how much was meant to be here, anyways.
(Sounds of stretching fabric and a can bangs against something else made of metal. At this point, the man cursed, and could be heard rubbing his arm. Presumably, he banged the can, and maybe his fingers, on perhaps a metal shelf the can was on)
Man 1: Ow... damn, that hurt. *shuffling* There is a uh, a guitar here. I don't know how to play.
(The man paused here.)
Man 1: Hm. Listen, if anyone's out there, or if somebody comes across these tapes, could you look into this place for me? I do not know what this place is, but it messes with you. The longer you're here, the more things you see. Just this morning, I woke up and there was something like a bear or something.. leaning over me and growling. But it was all bristly and black. I don't know what it was. And.. and I can sometimes hear voices, coming from the halls outside. Childrens voices. Singing.
(Shaky sigh from the man. He is audibly scared.)
Man 1: It's terrifying. I'll check back in tomorrow, hopefully I can find a way out of here.
*End Log*
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If I started posting my music on spotify, would y'all listen?
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1/19/23 Stars Keep Secrets
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What are the best songs to listen to at 2 AM?
Going_North_cal replied to Robin Sedai's topic in Entertainment Discussion
yessssss his music is rly nice -
Lovejoy's 2 EPs of Are You Alright? and Pebble Brain. They come out with their third EP/album Call Me What You Like on february tenth and I am PUMPED
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What are the best songs to listen to at 2 AM?
Going_North_cal replied to Robin Sedai's topic in Entertainment Discussion
ha i beat you i have 1,986 likes songs >:) -
Todays prompt: Stars Keep Secrets
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....... yes leave how dare you. i am right and you are right but that pun was awful lmao.
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Clinic: Lobby "And," Calano said from his spot on the floor, "Did they combine? What happened? And why is this an important tale?" @The Wandering Wizard
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oh good heavens my apologies. hopefully soon. salutations! one of my dear friends is an amateur ornithologist and would love to answer this. i will attempt to do so without her. ravens are larger than crows, and have a larger bill, tail, and flight pattern than crows. while ravens are the size of hawks, crows are about the size of a pigeon.
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a paywall makes sense, cause it keeps the server running, but it also depends on how frequently, and how long, you intend to play for. like, how often you'll be getting on per week, in hours, as well as how long you think you'll stick to that schedule, in months, and how frequently said schedule might change, influences how much you pay. maybe. just a suggestion :3
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Clinic: Lobby Calano glares at Wizard, but doesn't object. "Fine," He says, "Tell your tale."
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Clinic: Lobby Calano wheezed, then shoved Wizard off him, going to sit next to the fountain. "I don't want to hear your story," He said, then raised his voice to a shout, "I want to mourn my wife!" @The Wandering Wizard
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bro ur entire account is an absolute VIBE
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Clinic: Lobby "I know it's not my fault," Calano said hoarsely, sniffing. "But that doesn't make it hurt any less," He hissed angrily. He sat up. "But, tell me this, Thaidakar," He said, eyes puffy and bloodshot, the ferocious glare of a man who'd lost the world, and had nothing left, "Was it your wife?" He asked viciously, "Was it the girl you'd known since childhood? Was it the girl you doomed to a dark entity for most of her life? Was it the girl who, miraculously, forgave you for that, and became your most beloved, most favorite person in the entire multiverse? Was it the girl who grew up not with a fear of the dark, but with a fear of the light? Was it the girl who woke up with nightmares for months, years, to cry herself to sleep in your arms?" Calano glared at Thaidakar. Hard. "Didn't think so," He whispered, "You have no idea the pain I'm in. You have no idea the centuries of joy that have just been smothered like a flickering ember."
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Clinic: Lobby Calano cried harder, memories of part of a life spent with her replaying over and over in his head. "Why are you in a tree?" He asked. "It's where the darkness is," She said. - - - - "I do." He said. "I do." She said. - - - - "Don't go." She said. "I'm never leaving." He replied. - - - - Calano lay on the floor of the lobby, reminiscing of the happiest part of his life. And now it was just... gone. Corrupted. Evil.
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Our Archipelago - A Chaotic RP
Going_North_cal replied to Channelknight Fadran's topic in Roleplaying
"Are you objecting?" Hyron said, then shouted back at Yerik, "Keep up, Acolyte!" -
Clinic: Lobby Calano lay for hours. Not moving. Not saying a word. Just crying. His bracelet was shattered, his ring dim. It hurt just to look at the ring, but he didn't dare even consider taking it off.
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Our Archipelago - A Chaotic RP
Going_North_cal replied to Channelknight Fadran's topic in Roleplaying
"Because I want food," Hyron said. -
Ravelast: Sixth Archive Gateway NO! The voice shouted back, You shouldn't be here. It is forbidden. You are useless, the power is wasted. End it! Layra's breathing increases. Useless... Useless... Useless... The knife shimmers with Darkness, and Layra plunges it into her neck. Her body puffs into nothing and she returns to the Corrupted Dreamscape to wander as a corrupted part of it. _______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ Calano stands, turns on the spot, and vanishes, not bothering to object. Clinic: Lobby Calano fell to his knees, breathing hard. He screamed. A scream to rival the shouts of the Gods, a scream that echoed through the cosmos. He collapsed to the floor, crying. @The Wandering Wizard
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