@Jondesu Once I'm not at work I'll check it out. One thing I will tell you is that your struggle with creativity and depression/illness is something a lot of us have struggled with. Since you sound to be a fellow believer I would just encourage you to write honestly as if speaking to God, no matter what comes out. A lot of my original stuff would never fit too well into the normal worship music genre, but I've had a long held belief that music is God's language and no matter what you do, it speaks to Him and to others in some way that is beyond human understanding and can be quite therapeutic.