I apologize if these are repetitive or stupid  

Whoa, italic emoji? Weeeeiiiirdd

edit: nvm it went away lol

 

Impossible

I can't think—can’t speak,

For if I do I will die.

Though I'm already dying,

My brain is frying,

I'm on the brink,

Yet I can't let myself think.

 

I need to get better,

I can't remember,

Because memories are thoughts,

And I must not return.

 

Hovering

I can't stand them

Standing, hand on the back of my chair,

Hovering while I'm suffering.

 

Dress Code

Useless rules,

Absolute crap,

Killing my joy—

What makes me feel me.

 

Being Me

I just want to be me,

Without all these comments,

Innocent or not, it hurts,

It's uncomfortable,

It makes the thoughts resurface.

 

Sound

The voices won't stop,

They yell all day, all night,

Not letting me speak,

Encouraging me to hurt again,

To feel something, do something—

To match their energy.

 

They make me return,

To the place I dreaded,

Though now there's no escape,

From the voices inside and out,

No escape,

From the torturous hell—

The mirage of an oasis,

The very hell I wanted to escape.

 

A mimic of my hellish life,

Torture machines, just noise—

The very thing I wanted,

Causing me the pain I ran from.

 

- Lily