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They watch us, each move.

Hidden, they see us.

Quietly, they take us.

 

We are but ants to Them,

Living in a glass world,

On display,

Our daily lives,

Unbeknownst and unparseable to us.

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2026/04/04 - thoughts not found

I think my brain had a BSoD this night.   Finally Done It’s finally over, I did it. Through the pain, The agony, The hell known as life. I have no words now, Aside those telling me to sleep.   Sorry, I think most of what I wrote are poems and stuff. Yeah. - Meeeoowww
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2026/04/05 - Shifting Slate

Yeah...   Uncertain Epitome What do I know? Everything. What do I understand? Nothing. What do I know... about myself? Too much, too little. What do I know... that's real? Don't know, how can I? What am I just... stamping upon my soul? What am I simply... parroting back? Am I really... anything? Or just a shifting blank-slate, no real self? I can write, but is it me? Is it overcoming the doubts—the delays, Or am
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2026/01/08 (Poems!)

Note: I made a lot of poems or poem-esque in the second half of this day's (which was actually yesterday!) chunk of writing. So...hope you enjoy! You might not understand all the poems, but isn't that sometimes the point?   Dreams She dreamt of him again that night. The mystery boy. She didn’t know him, but almost felt like she did. And when she woke up, she missed him—or the dream. She just wanted to ignore that irritating alarm and drift back to sleep—back to him. She knew she c
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2026/01/09 (More poems...!!)

Lots of poems today! Yeah... *gulp* (Poems begin after the following story.)   Complicated For Nora, immortality was…complicated. Some of it was the loneliness and loss that everyone talked about. Some of it was thinking of all you could have done in a time far-gone. Over time, Nora had learned how to let years pass like weeks. But sometimes she missed something. Or felt like she did. Truth was, you only realized what you missed after the fact. Nora could do nearly anyth
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2026/02/28 - Living, Not

One-Way Mirror I watch from the shadows, Apart. I listen from this bed, Paralyzed. I am like a spirit, Invisible, Not physical. I am watching through a one-way mirror. And yet I’m the one in distress.   Numb-But-Not;Helpless;Separated Each day, more distress. Each day, another horror. Each time, I feel awful.   I am scared and angry but conditioned. I can’t do anything; nothing at all. I am separated; not c
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2026/04/24 - Unhinged Insanity

Uhm... sorry in advance for whatever I wrote. I barely remember it all tbh. CONTENT/TRIGGER WARNING: I don't know, honestly. Besides probably self-harm (or allusion thereof), depressing stuff/mental health stuff, maybe suicide idk, probably some gore unfortunately, ALSO IT'S 30 PAGES LONG WHAT THE STORMS WAS I THINKING. Or maybe 40+ pages. yeah 40+. Okay so I removed the worst of it, but still probably has some TW-worthy stuff, idk. Also it may be incomprehensible at times. I
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2026/01/03

Hungry     His stomach growled, but he couldn’t sate it. Not yet. He still had patients to deal with. As the next one—a young man—entered, he forced himself to focus on anything other than his hunger. Each time he finished the meager rations, he looked forward to the next meal—if you could call it one.     His patient turned out to have signs of that new sickness that was rampant in these parts. He hoped he hadn’t caught it. The sickness hadn’t claimed any lives…yet. Though it was also fairl
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2026/01/12

Music Music: expression. For me and the artist. Or the artist in me.   Restless I lay in my bed, covers askew, Tossing and turning, Shivers then sweat.   Each time I drift, I awaken again.   I try to relax, But comfort is fleeting.   At some unknown time, I fall to sleep. Yet my brain takes notice, And drags me away.   I sit up in bed, Tired…or not? Wishing, o’ wishing, I would
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2026/03/10 - Suffering is Life

Times/Hardship "Kids these days," They say. "Back in my day," They say. "These are difficult times," They lament.   "Things were better back than." "We went outside." "We could breathe."   "We got sick and died." "We had no rights."   "We spent time with family." "We didn't have this dumb slang."   "We missed out on so much connection."   "We could use the Internet."   "We didn't have the Internet."
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2026/03/15 - Hiding, Fearing

Help Aug 2, 2025 I don’t know what to do. They’re gonna find me, I can’t hide forever. Even if they don’t I’ll need food and water eventually. I don’t even know why I’m writing this, it’s not like anyone will find it. I just wish someone would. I wish someone was out there to help me. I wish I could just escape this awful place. Why does life have to be so cruel? Why did I have to end up with them? And why did I have to just… ugh. This is all my fault… I shouldn’t have done that, I’m s
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2026/03/21? - Rightful Terror

The tangled webs converge and Meet. The Unaware go through their motions precisely. They follow the Script.   Laughter We drive through the cool night, Through the buildings and lights, We take a right.   We drive down the boulevard, We enter the courtyard, Into a line, behind cars.   We state our wishes, Pay with our riches, Receive our dishes.   We head on out, Back to the mount, And I have no doubt.
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2026/03/24 - Too Late

"Two meanings, too late both ways, as we are all late and may as well be." — The Sixth of the Ten Icks, Late   Eyes Eyes watching me all around, I see Them. Eyes in jars on the floor in the mirror. The mirror! They use my eyes, My eyes are Theirs now, My eyes become Their Eyes. You are Seen now.   “I must…” “Do what I can,” “To delay Their spreading Influence.” “I…” I’m scared.   “I must leave,” “It’s
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2026/03/28 - Cold Cold Cold

Sorry I just got some poem stuff that I wrote last night.   Climbing The icy wind stings your skin. The bitter chill numbs your limbs. You pull your hood tighter. You silver and head higher.   Your gloveless hands bleed. You pay them no heed. The wind blows back your hood. You look down at the road, Down the ice-stained-red, Back the way you came, And keep climbing.   You are shaking and numb, In pain, teeth cha
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2026/04/15 - At Last, Rightness

Her Reflection, It Is She Lily looked up into the mirror above the bathroom sink. Then she smiled. Actually smiled. In this rare moment, the face smiling back at Lily felt... so very right. Not some stranger, but Lily. The water remained running as she stared, captivated. Her black hair... it looked exactly how she had always wanted it to. Her features, her face, her eyes, her... chin. It all looked so right. Lily turned her head slightly, looking at herself from different angles. She was c
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2025/12/31

Note: this entry is entitled "2025/12/31" because that is the date I wrote the following stories.   The Diary I had a lot of books. Most of them were collecting dust, scarcely touched. One day, I turned from my desk as a loud crash sounded, and books came tumbling down. On top of the pile? My cat, Ivy, sat, licking her paw innocently. I sighed—she was always doing things like this. I carefully shooed Ivy off the books, and the pile shifted precariously. Then I saw it. I had lost it y
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2026/01/13

Head, ache Head: throbbing. Eyes: dry, tired. Pain: suffusive. Yet still I persist. Why?   *groans in pain* - Theory
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2026/01/16

Please let me know what you think of the new banner! I may make tweaks to it. As for the following story, it is...shall we say, related...to one from yesterday. This one about half as long, but yeah. Fun fact: I wrote it entirely while listening to the song "Lily" by Alan Walker et al. on repeat. This one may not be as good as the previous story...but it's something.   Omnipresent Oftentimes Lily would lay awake in bed—tear-soaked pillowcase under her cheek—trying to catch sl
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2026/01/19

Me I feel like me, Whoever that may be. I feel like me, For perhaps the first time, you see.   I start losing that feeling, It slips between my fingers. No matter how tight I hold on, It finds a way to escape.   I may not post as much in the future. Or for a few days. I may even stop. But I'll try not to. May miss a few days though. Also for anyone who actually reads this, sorry I've just been posting these short poems... - Lily
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2026/03/17 - They Enter!

Faith I am enamored, intrigued. In your faith, When I have none.   Those Ancient With maws gaping dark abysses and eyes that see all, The Beings From Beyond They come to Feed we must not See we must hope for our Sparing or our Sacrifice. Those Ancient, Those Sacred Those Feared They Enter They Enter! Their reasoning is Their own we must not Understand we cannot Understand lest we lose our minds what little may be left. Our minds our precious frag
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2026/03/18 - This Is Not Life

The End(less Loop) Life as we know it is over Life Life does not exist Nor do our minds Our minds Our minds are long-gone We are but husks and shadows long-dead Enacting lives we remember in past Past What is the past We have no past and no future, And arguably no present For we do not exist We are all dead We will all die And we have not lived   Hooked Hooked like your mind on the bait, And the r
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2026/04/03 - Wonder Discovered

Hey guys, sorry I haven't posted in a bit. If you didn't know, I was (and maybe still am?) taking a break from the Shard. I'll be posting what I wrote though.   Dancing Through the Night Dancing through the darkness, Free, unbound. Walking slowly, Enjoying the breeze, Away from the sound, Soaking in the peace. I get what I crave, And though it’s not enough, It’s the best I can do, And it’s wonderful, Beautiful, too.   - M
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2026/04/23 - The Invisible 'It'

Watching, Always. Behind you, Beside you, Can't move, Can't speak, Can't look, But you know it's watching, Watching you always. From the dark window, From the dark room, From... something, anything. Always.   Can't move, can't speak. You freeze, lie still. You know it's watching, Moving is unthinkable, Or it will notice, It will see.   Run, hurry, Through the dark, To the light switch,
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2026/04/27 - Existing not Living

It's a bit depressing, I'd say. Like most.. haha....   An Actual Life I imagine an actual life, A different life. Why does it feel, Like my life is not real? I imagine a girl, Happy, sad, all. Depression and hardship, Moments of joy. A real life, A real home. A family—loving or not. A home—loved or suffocating. Not “normal,” with no emptiness attached. She makes me miss what I can only dream of. She makes me yea
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