*HUGS*
Dang man, that's awful. I'm so sorry
Losing friends hurts, especially close ones. I've lost connection with my chosen sister over the last year, mostly through my own fault—and I say that not to pretend I know what you're feeling, but to say I understand what you're saying.
This is how the world works, yes. And it's how some people work. Just remember that there are still people who won't give you up, who hold onto the good. The ones who try to destroy the good are the ones who are truly messed up, who can't handle seeing the good that they are incapable of matching in that moment. Remember that we're not here for ideal rules or the norm: we're here as Stonewards, and Windrunners, Edgedancers, and all the other orders that are there for people always.
Yes. It breaks you, shatters you a little bit more. But remember, strength is not the measure of a person. The mark of a person is how they choose to continue while broken. Being broken is part of life; it doesn't mean you are weaker. You still have strength, it just lies elsewhere. Remember to rely on your own strength, and find others whose strength you can rely on (us as part of that, hopefully) where needed.
This has been my attempt at a Mirker response. I now request the eventual presence of @MirkerLurker to do an exponentially better job