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"I'm not sure... And I'm glad you're better..." She leaned her head against his shoulder affectionately.
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"Good. I don't want you to be sorry." Rex looked into his eyes. "Are you ok, Daniel?" Auryn eyed the crowd suspiciously, looking for anyone who seemed up to no good. @The Aspiring Archivist
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Drowning
The chain around my heart
Is dragging me under
It wrenches me into
The black depths
I cannot tell
If the water is in me
Or outside of my head.
I am drowning.
The water closes over my head,
Blocking out all the light.
It is cold, dark, wet, and lonely.
There is no hope
For those who are drowning.
I will soon be consumed
By the dark waters.
They will clog my throat,
I will stop breathing.
I will sleep for eternity
Under the waves
That slowly rock my carcass.
Back and forth.
Unfeeling and
Uncaring.
Will I finally find peace,
Down there, in the depths?
Do those who drowned
Ever get to rest?
Or are they in ceaseless
Turmoil
Way down
Deep.
I am drowning.
None can save me.
~ Stick 1-3-24
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"Will you introduce us?"
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She nodded, staring at the table.
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"Don't apologize!" Rex looked at his mouth.
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Auryn walked down the street, hand resting lightly on the hilt of her sword. She did her best to ignore the odd stares people gave her, they obviously were not used to seeing scarred females with lots of tattoos in modified guard uniforms, carrying swords. Auryn stopped at a corner, eyeing the street warily. there had been some unrest lately, and she was ready to be in the middle of it, if fighting broke out. @The Aspiring Archivist
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OMG I LOVE THESE!!!!
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Rex leaned into his kiss, feeling his warmth travel down the length of her body. She closed her eyes. @Lightweaver2
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Rex took a deep breath, leaning into his arms. "My father was... abusive, and took it out on me, and my older brother. Morgan... he turned into a monster. he was so very broken. He... he murdered my baby sister, right in front of me, and I couldn't do anything to stop it..." Rex was crying now, but her voice was deadpan, "Morgan got arrested and later died in prison. Our house burnt down, and I was trapped beneath a wooden beam." Rex brushed her hair off the back of her neck. "That's how I got this scar. I... I have many more scars to, but I've become a master at covering them up..."
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Hi, Girly! Love the new PFP, as usual!
(And thx for the meme)
It made my day
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Jacin pointed at the figures. "Is one of them the man we're looking for?"
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"I don't know? I almost feel like I should finish, just to get it out, but then... well... what if you decide to leave? where would that leave me?"
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"I.... I had a rough childhood? My mother died when I was very young, my father... didn't take it very well..." Rex stopped, wincing and rubbing her forehead. "It almost... hurts to remember?" @Lightweaver2
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I wrote a poem awhile back... so, here.
(spoiler for length and cause it's kinda sad/depressing...)
SpoilerAbandoned
Lost
Forgotten
Alone
Did I ever make a difference?
Do people care?
Does God see?
Why
Why do they wonder?
What is it like to be me?
The lies
So believable
Where are you?
When these feelings take over?
When it takes so much effort just to keep breathing?
When the fear is crippling?
When I am falling apart?
Body,
Mind,
Spirit,
Toppling over.
The wind is strong.
So strong.
I can feel it,
Tipping me toward decisions.
Regrets.
Why do we live?
For purpose?
What is that purpose?
Oh God, where are you?
In my hour of need?
In a matter of life and death?
My life?
My death?
When I need you!
With every fiber of my being
I know, somewhere inside,
That you hold me.
But
Why can I not feel those hands now?
Rest.
What is rest?
Why am I a stranger to so much?
Do my words mean anything?
I toss them up!
Toward you!
Do you hear?
They ricochet endlessly off the ceiling.
Bounce back into my face.
Why? Oh Lord?
Why me?
Did you choose,
When I was made,
To give me these burdens?
So heavy.
I strain under the weight of them,
Crying out for rest!
For help!
All the time,
Wondering.
Wondering
Why,
Wondering when
This load will be lifted
If it even will.
Ever.
I feel hopeless.
Abandoned
Dead inside
Wanting the deadness to consume me
What stops me?
From ending it all?
Facing eternity?
Killing my dreams
My plans
My hope
Myself
Empty.
Why am I here?
You say you have plans for me?
Prove it!
I bleed!
In spirit
In mind
In body
Do you see?
Do you see the suffering?
Why is this called life?
Is there any hope at all?
I am dying!
And yet
You seem to do nothing!
Why?
Lord.
I fall.
Have fallen.
Will continue to fall.
Forever.
Will I be caught?
In anything other than this storm?
Emotions
Pain
Heartache
They swirl inside of me,
Beating against my very soul
Among them all,
The question remains,
Unanswered
Abandoned
Forgotten
Why?
You made us;
So fragile!
We break.
Hurt.
Die.
And you!
Up where it is safe!
Look on and do nothing!?
Why are we like this?
What is the plan?
Why have you hidden from us?
I have dreams.
Nightmares
I am haunted
Creatures lurk
Skitter
Creep
Through the shadows in my soul
There is no escape
Death lives here
In my heart
But
I am still breathing
If only
If only I wasn’t-
These are the thoughts
The thoughts killing me-
Or am I killing myself?
Everything is dark
Cold
Scary
Why?
What kind of life is this?
Would it be better not to live at all?
Who understands?
Not my family!
Not my friends!
Not you!
Tell me, God!
Where are you?
When Hell has come to earth?
When I want to-
Feel as if I need to-
Die
Escape
Fade away
Forever
Would anyone really notice?
If I was gone-
One instant-
One decision-
One jump-
One stab-
One life-
Gone
What if?
Who would care?
Who would weep?
If I
Was
Gone.
Forever.
Can I continue to bear this?
Like I have for so long?
If I just collapse?
The strain is too much!
I am weak!
Alone.
You say that you are always with me?
Then where?
Where are you?!
What must I do to feel your presence?
Empty.
Alone
Abandoned.
~ Stick
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I know that many people, here and elsewhere, would weep. Me included.
I also know that you are an awesome person. Much more than you probably realize, in fact. And you deserve to be loved.
Sometimes, life seems intent on kicking you in the guts again and again, and you're on the floor and you plead for it to stop but it doesn't, and you feel like you're trash for not being able to get out of it. It is easy, then, to forget who you are, to forget what you've done, to forget what makes you special.
But always remember : you are an incredibly gifted person. I am glad to know you, even a little.
And I promise you that the rain stops one day. Even if the darkness seems infinite, someday you will reach a light. You will be warm again. I don't know how, or when, or where, but I know that you will.
*long hugs*
SpoilerSorry for double pinging all of you. I accidentally hit send halfway through, and hid the half message thinking I could edit it and then unhide it. Turns out you can't, at least on mobile.
Someday I will have to learn to properly use those things called my fingers.
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*hugs* It's ok to be tired... but I love ittt <33
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Rex took a deep breath. "You may want to sit down..." She winced, clasping her hands in her lap and looking down.
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"I... maybe? There's just so many..." Rex sighed, looking down. "Are you sure?"
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