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    My Jesus is SO COOL!!
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    hi :)
    i love jesus, thrifting, and reading
    i'm an amateur potter, sort of broke, a student, an artist, a child of God, a poet, a choir kid, a lover of nature and a huger of people and trees.
    i'm a bit quirky but its okay because i was made exactly how i was supposed to be made, and i'm learning to love who i am in Christ!
    please feel free to PM me to hear my testimony, ask questions, hear encouragement, or genuinely just talk to me
    (i'm one of those rare people-loving introverts <3)

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  1. Just-A-Stick

    Toxic

    Spoiler

    Toxic

     
    I have toxic
    People
    In my life.
     
    I’m close to them.
    I love them.
    I don’t want to
    Leave them.
    I said I would never leave.
    I said that I was there for them.
     
    But
    I can only get
    Hurt so many times
    Before my trust is broken.
    Before the trauma
    Overtakes me.
     
    I need to leave.
    But I don’t want them
    Hurt like I have been.
    I don’t want to
    Put anyone else
    Through that pain.
     
    I love them.
    I promised.
    I want to be there
    But it hurts
     
    It hurts mentally,
    Emotionally,
    Once or twice,
    Physically.
     
    But I can’t leave,
    Right?
    Would they leave
    If the roles were reversed?
     
    Do I
    Even care
    Enough to leave?
    I welcome the pain.
    It feels right.
    I just don’t care.
     
    I feel toxic.
    I am so messed up.
    I make others worry,
    I make them uncomfortable,
    Upset,
    Stressed,
     
    What if
    I’m the toxic one?
    If they feel trapped?
    If I just let them go…
    If I just left,
    If I rebuilt
    All the walls
    Around my heart.
     
    If I went back
    To being alone.
    It’s what’s best
    For everyone,
    Right?
     
    They don’t need
    The toxic friend.
    They are hurt.
    They wish they could escape.
    But they don’t want to hurt me.
     
    I can stand the pain.
     
    My heart may break,
    But I can hide it.
    My life may crash,
    But I can loose myself and
    Not exist.
     
    I can close myself off
    From everyone
    And everything.
    That’s what’s best.
    For everyone.
     
    They have other friends.
    Ones who aren’t
    Toxic.
     
    I am the
    Toxic
    Friend
    And I’m
    Sorry.
     
    ~ Stick 1-25-24
     
     
     
     
     

    ( @Part Of The Narrative, @Shardwatcher01)

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    2. Part Of The Narrative

      Part Of The Narrative

      Yeah…I been there. Just keep breathing ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

    3. Weaver of Shadows

      Weaver of Shadows

      *so many hugs*

    4. Just-A-Stick

      Just-A-Stick

      ❤️‍🩹

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