Wittles

I never thought it would be so nice to remember I have a mental disorder lol. 

To clarify, I have ADHD, and there's a lot more to it than just being hyper and stuff, like not being able to start tasks, sleep problems, weird mood swings, and a bunch of other things that I have really big issues with.

What I'm trying to say is that I feel better knowing that I have something actively weighing me down and making it way harder to go about daily life, but I'm still doing pretty ok. Sure my grades aren't the best, and I'm late a lot, but I've still been able to take AP classes and pass them. And I'm still able to get back up and keep going even just a little bit at a time.

It is really frustrating though when my parents (especially my mom who doesn't really understand it) try to force me past my limits that I'm exhausted from trying to push through. I'll get to the point where I am physically incapable of doing more homework, and she will insist on sitting right next to me until I finish, which stresses me out A LOT and doesn't actually help.

Anyways it's a lot better for me to know that I have something else that I have to deal with that a lot of people don't and I'm still able to be moderately successful. When it's not a depressy day, I'm able to realize that I'm not weak for struggling with a thing, I would be weak if I just gave up on everything and stopped trying to do anything at all. But I haven't done that yet so I think I'm doing pretty good.

If you're struggling in any way, just know that you're doing fine and that sometimes simply existing is hard some days, but you're still pushing through despite that. That's something that defines strength. You may not feel it, but you are strong. You'll be able to get through what you're going through, and you'll be able to look back and look at how far you've gone and it'll be something you'll be proud of.

I hope you people have a great day!