kajsa ㅇㅅㅇ

happy new year everybody!!

it’s crazy to think how quickly 2025 came and went… i even put together a before and after pic of myself from the beginning to the end of this year and there wasn’t a huge difference! nevertheless, i do think i’ve grown a lot as a person, and i’m very grateful for all the opportunities i’ve had to better myself and explore more about who i am!

i think one of my biggest changes this year came from my mindset. i went from a very self-focused, closed-off view of “if it doesn’t affect me, it’s not my problem” to “these people deserve better, and i’m going to advocate for them and help them”. i’ve become a better person, though i’m still working on keeping confidence from becoming ego and balancing that with humility and making sure i’m being kind to everyone, including myself—which leads me into my next topic!

my mental and emotional health was relatively better in 2025 than in previous years, though there were (and still are, and still will be) days where i feel down, or dark, or hopeless, or all manner of bad things, but in comparison, i’ve been doing much better. i’ve found more peace and confidence within who i am as a person, i’ve become more extroverted as a result, and though i am a tad cynical, i’ve enjoyed meeting a lot new people. i’ve improved a ton as an artist, which is pretty awesome, and also as a writer (thank you, AP Lang!), which has brought me newfound security in my identity. i also have had a bit of a glow-up on the outside, and i’m going to keep working on that because i really want to feel like the best version of myself (eating healthier, exercising, taking care of my body and my mind, doing self-care like face masks and bubble baths, etc)!!!

another cool thing about this year’s goals compared to last year’s is the lack of the goal “get a boyfriend”. like yeah, it would be cool to have someone like that, but i’ve realized that my worth doesn’t come from a boyfriend or a romantic relationship. my worth comes from who i am inside, the way that reflects on the people around and outside of me, and the impact it has on the world. i never really understood that until this year (i’ve found a lot of confidence and empowerment from learning more about feminism and connecting with it, as well as embracing feminine traits rather than pushing them away. i’m currently obsessed with pink, glitter, and bows—which were some of many things i used to reject—and i need more of them in my life and my closet).

because i love music so much, have some song recommendations from this past year! my music taste continues to stay the same, though specific songs will ebb and flow, and i’m mostly a fan of indie/indie rock, folk, and alternative haha

top three favorite songs right now are probably Me and the Devil by Soap&Skin, Higher Ground by The Crane Wives, and No Complaints by Noah Kahan

also, TV shows/movies/books i really enjoyed this year were Prison Break, The Mentalist, and i rediscovered the hunger games, which was awesome and i am obsessed anew. 

but yeah! that’s all i have for now. i was gonna add some goals at the end, but for now i’m really tired so i’m just gonna go to sleep haha. 

here’s to the end of 2025 (which i would rate an overall 3/5), and the start of 2026 (which i have an oddly optimistic feeling about)!!!

goodnight!!