kajsa ㅇㅅㅇ

i stayed home from school today. a lot of my friends went but left halfway through because it was too much. my guy friend came over at like 11:30 and stayed for about six hours, and then we drove over to my friend’s house to meet up with some of the rest of our friend group. we walked over to hy-vee and bought flowers, then went down to the crash site where her nuclear friend group had set up a memorial with her name in bright pink letters. there were stuffed bunnies (bunnies were her favorite) and dozens upon dozens of bouquets, and a few solar lights. the store was literally almost clean out of flowers. 

there were a lot of people there. we stayed for about an hour. my old director was there, her best friend came, a bunch of day care kids came. it’s so surreal and so so sad. 

we were sitting among the littered shards of glass from her car. 

we walked over pieces of her car on the crosswalk. 

i think we were all waiting for her to pop out of the trees and laugh and say “jk! happy late april fools! i got you guys good!”

the crash happened 24 hours ago. there are over four news articles about her. 

i just keep waiting to wake up.

edit: i’d like to thank @Bird Furious for all her support through this. she’s my bestie for a reason love you girl. thanks for everything