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We went to Purgatory today!!
A few alpine slides, mountain coasters, scenic chair lifts, GIGANTIC ice cream cones, cool rocks, and decal stickers later, we are pretty worn out but happy.
Or… as happy as can be. :) *
Now we’re headed a few hours south try Texas tacos, then we’re going to Four Corners, and we’ll spend the night in Arizona. And tomorrow… Antelope Canyon and LOS VEGAS!!!!!
I’ve never been in a big city like that before (at least that I can remember). Both of my parents were born there, though, so that’s cool. I’m sure I’ll be bringing home some overpriced souvenirs, lol.
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SpoilerWhile I’ve been happier lately, there’s still an underlying feeling of sadness, and always, ALWAYS loneliness. I looked at myself in the mirror this morning and didn’t even recognize my eyes. They’re so sad.
keeping busy helps, though. And my mom has worked in a third pill to my morning routine that is supposedly a more natural way to suppress depression. She’s reluctant to get me prescription meds.
but some days I get caught in a loop or spiral, caught thinking that I’m taking medicine to keep myself happy and carefree. Changing parts of myself. And while I do that, I don’t really feel like I can be truly happy.
maybe that’s just neurodivergence speaking. I don’t know.
thanks for listening to Rant With Kajsa.
Y’all’re the best! Love all y’all.
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