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What About Me?

April 24, 2023

 

Do you care for him more than you care about me?

I’ve known you longer, so shouldn’t I be the one you come to, not push away?

Lonely.

He’s wonderful and all, but… what about me?

 

I miss you.

 

You can’t see the way it eats me up inside,

Not anymore, but it drives me insane, so crazy I can’t even cry about it.

Numb.

When did I make you feel like you have to hide?

 

I miss you.

 

Am I selfish to be acting this way?

Has my pride and the way I care about myself overridden the way I care about you?

Stupid.

I don’t deserve to be selfish.

 

I. Miss. You.

 

You long for his words and he longs for your presence

But that leaves inside me an empty resonance

And I wish you would fill it by even saying hello

But instead, I’m invisible, watching in pain as you go

It seems you’re all in for him and all out for me

And it doesn’t feel fair, but I guess that must be…

 

I’m forgetting what it was like before.

Have you forgotten entirely about me, about us, about before them?

Lonely.

I can promise you this hurts me more than I let on.

 

I miss you.

I miss you so much…

 

I need you. 

 

It’s all I can do not to cry, not to scream, not to burst and yell at him for taking you away, yell at you for letting him.

 

What happened?

What about us?

 

What 

About

Me?

 

 

 

 

How Come? (Anymore)

April 24, 2023

 

How come you laugh while I sit and I wait

How come you smile while I cry and I wait

How come you leave while I stay and I wait

How come

 

                you don’t

 

 

 

                                        love me

 

 

 

anymore?

 

 

 

 

Opinion

April 24, 2023

 

It’s funny. 

You say

“Believe me when I say I think–”

Well, 

opinion isn’t 

 

 

Fact.

 

 

 

i’m… sad?

April 24, 2023

 

i’m sad. 

i’m so sad.

 

why?

couldn’t tell you.

 

why can’t i tell you?

because i don’t know.

and don’t ask me again 

because

right now, 

i’m 

just 

sad. 

 

 

 

 

Scissors

April 24, 2023

 

Somebody let me

Cut myself off

From everyone else

From everything else

From 

You.