Bird Furious

Honestly, it does a little. Thank you, Bookie   

I agree with Bookie.

I think that because our minds are calibrated to anticipate risk, our perspective on the future is heavily skewed. If you think about it, there are countless possibilities of things that you could do in the future that will be fulfilling. There's only a few (and I'd argue much less likely) ways for nothing to happen at all. 

I'm always thrown for a loop when I think about how much I've changed since just the pandemic. It's disconcerting, and I sometimes think I'm so much less happy, and maybe I am. But I also have grown tremendously and know more and have the potential to be happy in a way that is truer than ignorance. I know that school in particular feels like an impedance to you, which sucks, but it won't last forever, and you have grown and will grow. 

Years ago, I was afraid of where i would be now. Months ago, terrified. And I'm afraid of where I will be in the future. I really have no idea what it will be either. That's not a universal experience, but it's probably way more common than you think, and there's nothing wrong with it.

It may always be that you will to some extent wonder about the future, where worriedly or excitedly, but I think when the future you fear comes it will much more than you expect, not simply good or bad but complex and worthwhile.

I concur with everyone above.

There are always countless paths forward, no matter where you are. More than you (or any of us) can imagine. Maybe another way will appear to you, that you couldn't see before. It might not be the most straightforward one, but the tortuous paths usually offer more.