Lotus Blossom

 I NEED TO STOP DOING THIS IK 

i'm here for good now... but just to fill you in on the last few days

we were on vacation in caribbean islands and i actually got stranded on a small island (a cay) with 3 other members of my family (my parents and a sibling).

it was just us.

our boat that was taking us on a "tour" of the waters had left us abandoned there.

and as we were walking around the island's coast to call for help, my dad had the brilliant idea of walking alongside an area with sharp rocks.

so of course, with my bad luck, i sliced my foot open on one of them.

my dad, my brother and I didn't have shoes, but my mom had flip flops, so i sat there, crumpled, holding my foot, and simply asking her to give me her shoes.

i could tell they were freaking out so i told them not to worry as i slipped on the flip flops, but oh my there was quite a bit of blood.

and we walked on the sand, away from the rocks, but every time i stepped the sand would get bloodier.

there was no medical assistance in sight.

and there was no boat in sight.

no people.

this was so traumatizing and it was very painful but then we finally got a boat to bring us back to where we were staying and i properly bandaged my foot there. but long story short, this whole accident is what has kept me from coming back to the shard in so long.