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Happy new year, everyone!
For those wondering, I wasn't here for the last few days because I've been vacationing, with my grandparents and then my parents and siblings. For the first time since maybe years, I managed to take a clean break without something from work turning in my head. And it felt wonderful.
General update (State of the Silvereye, if you can call it that) for those interested in my nighttime ramblings :
SpoilerAnd so, 2023 comes to an end. The most confusing year in my life. The year that should have been a fresh start after the brutal mess that was 2022.
A fresh start right into the ground, that was.
It was the year where I spent months stuck in place, battling with myself over one of the worst coping mechanisms I could imagine.
But it was also the year where I learned the most about myself, even if there was things I would have preferred not to learn. It was the year where I started reconquering my mind. Hopefully, with success this time.
And now, I feel more than ready to start anew in 2024. And I am also scared, for this is the fourth new start in a brief time, and guess how the previous ones went. I had my plans to take back control over myself, and first point was getting to bed earlier, for I was really sleep deprived those last months. It is nearly midnight as I write this. Ah, well.
Do I even belong anywhere now? After all the rumbling of those past two years, always jumping from place to place, is there anywhere who knows me anymore? Am I even able to talk to someone anymore?
Who am I by now, in fact? I know I changed, but how much? Are those things I used to define me still defining me? Is what I thought true about me not true anymore? Or did I went back in time?
Pics from holidays below. Im not the best photographer out there, please dont be too harsh:
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Thank for the hugs!
Yeah it was a really beautiful place. It was great.
And yeah, I am grateful the Shard exists. You all have been really awesome all this time, and you were one of the few constants in otherwise very unstable, weird, and confusing years.
Keep being great, y'all. You are making such a difference sometimes.
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