That1Cellist
-
Posts
1000 -
Joined
-
Last visited
-
Days Won
8
(3).thumb.jpg.31f6f91810926e1a01cbee20563b18b7.jpg)
That1Cellist's Achievements
1.7k
Reputation
1
Community Answers
Single Status Update
See all updates by That1Cellist
-
You know what a nasty thing about feeling depressed is? Being scared to talk about it.
I feel stupid saying things because my thoughts and feelings sound stupid and irrational when I try to speak them out loud. I also don’t want to take away from other people’s happiness by talking about how I’m feeling sad or whatever. And also, plenty of people deal with their feelings just fine without any of this sort of nonsense.
But mostly the thing is feeling embarrassed. I don’t want to make anyone unduly worried, and saying how I feel just sounds stupid. Well, maybe I’m not even sad. Maybe I’m just a mean spirited person who just wants attention and for people to feel sorry for him.
Sorry everyone. None of you should or need to deal with this all. I’m also sorry this wasn’t written in some sort of cryptic poem or the sort of language I usually use.
-
The feeling seem irrational because they are. That's the problem, that's why it's depression. It's a state of emotions that doesn't necessarily follow reason, although it is often incited by negative circumstances such as stress or grief.
When it comes to depression and these kinds of things, it is ABSOLUTELY VITAL that you share it! Trying to just deal with that kind of thing on your own and hoping it passes is not only unproductive, it's dangerous. Anyone who thinks less of you for sharing how you feel and searching for help doesn't understand anything about human psychology.
Please, please find a trusted adult (or better, an actual counselor or therapist) and talk about it. I've had my own struggles with anxiety and depression and bottling it up just makes it worse.
-
QuoteMaybe I’m just a mean spirited person who just wants attention and for people to feel sorry for him.
I feel the same way sometimes. Like tonight in particular, because of life reasons.
You’re not mean spirited. I had your soul for a minute, remember? Long enough to see that is was quite a wonderful one. You’re definitely not—you’re a great person. Promise.
-
Thou are not dumb, thou art cool.
Your thoughts are never a burden. To me the burden is myself and not feeling like I can connect with the person I am trying to help. I don't have this problem but I have this fear. And you have the fear that you are just a person who is hogging all the attention. You are not and you are definitely not mean spirited. From what little I've seen of your family, your parents are more focused on your siblings because they are the squeaky wheels. They are louder than you and noisier than you, so they get most of your parents attention. You do deserve attention because everyone needs someone to pay attention to them and to acknowledge that they are indeed there and that they are important to them. That is not being mean spirited and attention hogging, rather it is a natural and normal part of life.
-
