That1Cellist

Has anyone else here ever realized that they aren't important?

Like, that you don't matter?

You could be removed from the lives of your family and friends, and it wouldn't make that much of a difference?

They would all get along just fine.

I just want to make a difference to someone and help them, but nothing I've ever done made anyone feel better. At the same time, maybe that's not fair. If I'm not an interesting, helpful person, then I guess there are other things for me to do. I just want to be wanted, but I guess it's not fair for me to bother people if they don't want to talk to me. This leads to an awful sort of thinking where I feel lonely and want to talk to people, but I feel antisocial, and also worry that the other people don't want to talk to me, and I wouldn't want to annoy someone by talking to them when they just wanted me to leave them alone.