That1Cellist

Hello my fellow humans of the shard, how are you all doing?

So, I occasionally go back through my google drive and look at the things I've written. Sometimes I'll just write things down in an untitled document and then forget about it. When I go back later, I have a lot of untitled documents with little things in them. Here is one I found just now.

"I sit at the hearth, watching as the last embers of a false hope fade out of existence after being seared into my soul. The emotional agony is branded upon my very being. I remain on the ground, empty, devoid of all emotion. I want to feel. I want to experience pain, love, death, and rejoicing, but doing so would bring pain. I cannot bear it. When I lose it all, where will I go? I can not go on any longer. Doing so only brings pain. The hope of, “Tomorrow is another day!” is lost in the torture of knowing this awful cycle will repeat itself. I want to keep trying. I want to keep going, but I do not think I can handle more. The inevitable tragedy will occur, and when it does, where will my place be?"

Yes, I know there is a contradiction in there, but it still makes sense, I feel.