Thaidakar the Ghostblood

Well Thaid, nobody on this site does. Everyone lives in their little bubble, and it’s breaking. But they’re holding on because they, like millions, possibly billions of people like them can’t handle reality. 

I can handle what reality is, what I can’t handle is the false reality that I’ve begun to build where everyone has a clear cut motivation that can be easily guessed in any given interaction. That… that makes it hard to handle reality when I’m not looking at what’s real but at what’s false, even if that fake reality looks so real and very much like the real reality,  it more enticing to my confused writer self.

But I exaggerate for emphasis. It is not as bad as I put it there, but it is still aching to know the way I’ve been viewing humanity like a novel or a tv show where montages take place.

I don’t want to give yall a false look into how I am feeling. I’m not freaking out, I’m not panicking, but it’s simply annoying to know that I’ve been undermining myself in yet another way. It simply means I have yet more work to do in fixing myself to match my ideals. It’ll probably take longer than I want it to, but when ever had that happened?