Channelknight Fadran

too many nights I lie awake and wonder
if I should go to tear asunder
the rains and heavens to find the one
who put me here

too many nights just pass on by
waking hours despite how hard I try
to tell whoever's up there that I'm done
with this fear

I sit on the precipice of my bed
too many thoughts gone through my head
a dangerous devil waiting to be fed
on my frustration and my dread

I sit tight on waiting for the day
on the sun to rise up and to say
it ddn't matter anyway
 

Even at light, nothing ever seems to come of me
just wasted hours; wasted time and wasted energy
spent making nothing of the day
I'm living

Does it even count if I eat and breath?
if then at night I'm left to seeth
about the shits I say
I'm giving

I lie on lies I tell myself at night
like if I've got any will left to fight
if theer's still a part of me that lives in the light
or if my days are only nights

I lie without strangers in my mind
I keep looking even though I know what I'll find
I search for nothing because I'm blind

I've been trapped in this cycle for too long
stuck drifting as the tides carry me along
it seems I've come to find I don't belong
anyplace for people who still stand up strong

I've been trapped in this limbo, this parody
while I watch my own villains get the best of me
I watch it all with clarity