dannnex

ready for the most tonally jarring SU i've ever posted?

1. just watched Sins of Our Mother on netflix. for those who don't know, it's a true crime series about the horrendous case of an lds mother who murdered her children in rexburg idaho in 2019. I live in rexburg. I saw my exact apartment in the b roll footage multiple times. The madison country jail where she was held is half a mile away on main street, i pass it nearly every day. It was the most unnerving thing i've ever seen, hit LITERALLY close to home. 

2. brandon's new article outside is incredible, such a good piece of writing. but i really really like janci patterson's related article. shoutout to queen for bringing these to my attention. The way she talked about brandon showing her that her harmful thoughts are just a box around her is something i related to strongly. I had an experience a while back where i came to a very similar but much more negative conclusion. I was feeling like my true self was trapped inside this horrible layered prism. layer upon layer of bias and falseness and negativity that all my thoughts and actions were being filtered and refracted through. then i became incredibly concerned that this prism was all that i was. that there was nothing at the center, that i was nothing more than a collection of negative thoughts, manufactured biases, and generic experiences. that i was just zombie-ing my way through life, automatically responding to any stimuli according to how the prism determined. Reading her talk about how she came to escape her box and recognize that it was not her, was very inspiring. 

3. put your clown hats on, we might be getting Silksong news tomorrow