Lily the Composer of Mu Sick

[Verdance he/him]

Just now, Usseewa said:

self-harm (not in hours, dw)

 

but idk, not much. the shard. some studying. but i also talked a lot with therapist and felt happy afterward.

Lets see if you can beat my record

[Usseewa]

1 minute ago, Verdance said:

Lets see if you can beat my record

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

record for what?

self-harm?

 

most cuts, longest time clean?

 

 

ohhh i thought u said "lemme see if i (verde) can beat my (verde's) record"

[Aeoryi she/her]

ok here's sheet music for anyone talented to play it 

composed it myself. A minor, 144(quarter note), 4/4

Spoiler

This is like 153 bars long or somethin; this is just an excerpt

[Usseewa]

3 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

ok here's sheet music for anyone talented to play it 

composed it myself. A minor, 144(quarter note), 4/4

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This is like 153 bars long or somethin; this is just an excerpt

niceee

 

i dont know what im lookin at cuz i dont know music but good job

[Verdance he/him]

13 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

record for what?

self-harm?

 

most cuts, longest time clean?

 

 

ohhh i thought u said "lemme see if i (verde) can beat my (verde's) record"

Lets see if you can beat my record of longest time clean

Technically will never happen but you can try to beat my current record

9 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

ok here's sheet music for anyone talented to play it 

composed it myself. A minor, 144(quarter note), 4/4

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This is like 153 bars long or somethin; this is just an excerpt

aight ill do my best later

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Also uh i posted an SU about music not sure if anyones seen

but id like yalls opinion

Edited May 12 by Verdance

[Usseewa]

4 minutes ago, Verdance said:

Lets see if you can beat my record of longest time clean

Technically will never happen but you can try to beat my current record

hell nahhh

i been cutting every day for like a week and i aint stoppin nowwww

maybe soon, perhaps.

or i could just cut in better places

[Verdance he/him]

1 minute ago, Usseewa said:

hell nahhh

i been cutting every day for like a week and i aint stoppin nowwww

Yes you are

what is it about cutting that draws you to it?

Edited May 12 by Verdance

[Usseewa]

Just now, Verdance said:

Yes you are

wataevs

1 minute ago, Verdance said:

what is it about cutting that draws you to it?

idk tbh

i mean i learned abt it

 

and i like to do it

i want to bleed

i like cutting and having cuts

its fun

shrug

 

i rlly gotta figure that out

[Verdance he/him]

Just now, Usseewa said:

wataevs

Maybe next time instead of cutting try scalding yourself with hot water

a lot safer and gives pain in a way that feels better if ykwim

also exfoliation works

something less permanent, less dangerous. The goal is to stop completely forever though. I kinda feel bad cause it was a one time thing for me (so far) so i can’t empathize perfectly and i feel like i should have struggled more

[Usseewa]

Just now, Verdance said:

I kinda feel bad cause it was a one time thing for me (so far) so i can’t empathize perfectly and i feel like i should have struggled more

Ado, that's exactly how I feel...

1 minute ago, Verdance said:

Maybe next time instead of cutting try scalding yourself with hot water

a lot safer and gives pain in a way that feels better if ykwim

also exfoliation works

something less permanent, less dangerous.

i mean i cant exfoliate until it heals

no space.

ive had to be careful

 

i can try hot water... as an additional source of pain. i wonder how long i can leave hand under...

idk

anyway... this turned into sh lol sry

[Verdance he/him]

Just now, Usseewa said:

Ado, that's exactly how I feel...

i mean i cant exfoliate until it heals

no space.

ive had to be careful

 

i can try hot water... as an additional source of pain. i wonder how long i can leave hand under...

idk

No

god just stop cutting yourself it’s so useless and dangerous 

If you literally compulsively cant stop SH’ing then hot water is the best possible thing, it leaves your skin feeling cold and tingly afterwards and is safer

but for the love of god stop making yourself bleed, someday you’ll hit a vein and die or the hospital will bill you literally ten thousand dollars

I don’t know what to tell you Lily, im trying to empathize but this is way worse than 99% of what I’ve experienced, and the other 1% killed themselves already

——

i feel that because I haven’t hurt myself in forever but idk if that’s even true cause i just scalded myself to try and remember if it was effective 

[Usseewa]

25 minutes ago, Verdance said:

No

god just stop cutting yourself it’s so useless and dangerous 

If you literally compulsively cant stop SH’ing then hot water is the best possible thing, it leaves your skin feeling cold and tingly afterwards and is safer

but for the love of god stop making yourself bleed, someday you’ll hit a vein and die or the hospital will bill you literally ten thousand dollars

I don’t know what to tell you Lily, im trying to empathize but this is way worse than 99% of what I’ve experienced, and the other 1% killed themselves already

——

i feel that because I haven’t hurt myself in forever but idk if that’s even true cause i just scalded myself to try and remember if it was effective 

 

the first few little few seconds of Caramel, my attempt (it doesnt use full 10 secons and isnt the best lol)

(Btw if anyone else sees this, it's from a song but i tried making the start of it at Verde's suggestion)

 

u know... a suicidal person might wanna hit a vein.

luckily for lily she's not suicidal prolly.

but anywa.....

try not to relapse

 

eddit:

made another (original)

Fire

(Plays good on loop)

 

Edited May 12 by Usseewa

[Verdance he/him]

24 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

 

the first few little few seconds of Caramel, my attempt (it doesnt use full 10 secons and isnt the best lol)

(Btw if anyone else sees this, it's from a song but i tried making the start of it at Verde's suggestion)

 

 

u know... a suicidal person might wanna hit a vein.

luckily for lily she's not suicidal prolly.

but anywa.....

try not to relapse

 

eddit:

made another (original)

Fire

(Plays good on loop)

 

 

Sounds like an Undertale song actually 

can you send a screenshot so i can replicate snd play with it? if thats okay?

[Usseewa]

1 minute ago, Verdance said:

Sounds like an Undertale song actually 

can you send a screenshot so i can replicate snd play with it? if thats okay?

 

Spoiler

make sure u set the instruments and tempo

dont forgoet the bottomblue dots too

tho idk if they make it sound good so

sob

*

Edited May 12 by Usseewa

[Verdance he/him]

2 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

 

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make sure u set the instruments and tempo

dont forgoet the bottomblue dots too

tho idk if they make it sound good so

sob

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Ill probably isolate the first 25% of the clip, replicate it over and over, add some variations to it, place some long bars in there, and finally add a second clef 

but its a really cool bottme line and beat i love it

[Usseewa]

31 minutes ago, Verdance said:

Ill probably isolate the first 25% of the clip, replicate it over and over, add some variations to it, place some long bars in there, and finally add a second clef 

but its a really cool bottme line and beat i love it

.....?

is it just my tired brain?

thanks tho

i think u said complimetn

*dies of exhuasiton*

 

edit: i am awake

Edited May 12 by Usseewa