Trans Hangout Thread

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

5 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

Ok fair. probably have had similar experiences

ok here's a good example if someone wants estrogen is that because they identify as trans or do they just want estrogen because that's what would make them more comfortable with their own body? 

Like what do you want to wear? Just wear that! Who cares what you are! Just do what makes you happy. What you would like. 

cis can refer to:
a) those who have never questioned their gender and are this assuming what they were assigned at birth
b) those who have questioned their gender and decided they are content with the gender they were assigned at birth

It's interchangeably used with both definitions.

This is a good thought but it doesn't answer the argument. What do you think it means?

I think you're... not getting the point here. 

I also want to add that not every cis guy is into hyper masculine things... most people are probably uncomfortable with being pressured into engaging with that stereotype

yeah well that's... indicative of something. But my point moreso is that if you've ever tried to, per say, fix yourself because you think you're broken for being Trans

 

sigh i feel like messed up with that post

how am i supposed to know what i like or want?

i try to rely on what i remember feeling in the past because to me that's more reliable/"untainted"

i don't think i hate being trans, but idk

Spoiler

i always feel so stupid sometimes 

 

[Aeoryi she/her]

1 hour ago, Usseewa said:

sigh i feel like messed up with that post

how am i supposed to know what i like or want?

i try to rely on what i remember feeling in the past because to me that's more reliable/"untainted"

i don't think i hate being trans, but idk

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i always feel so stupid sometimes 

 

I understand yeah

I guess the real question is do you think you are trans?

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

54 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

I understand yeah

I guess the real question is do you think you are trans?

i i i i..,

have no idea

how does one determine this

what do i rely on to figure out

 

edit: i mean i do now but only cuz i scrolled egg irl a lot so idk if that counts

i rlly wanna be a girl but i think it's just cuz egg irl got to me

so I'll just wait and see what I feel later

after watching anime

Edited April 10 by Usseewa

[Aeoryi she/her]

57 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

i i i i..,

have no idea

how does one determine this

what do i rely on to figure out

 

edit: i mean i do now but only cuz i scrolled egg irl a lot so idk if that counts

i rlly wanna be a girl but i think it's just cuz egg irl got to me

so I'll just wait and see what I feel later

after watching anime

my life explained

friend, nothing is *corrupting" you to be trans not even egg irl

do you wanna be trans? 

[Akimikoisthecutest]

1 hour ago, Usseewa said:

i i i i..,

have no idea

how does one determine this

what do i rely on to figure out

 

edit: i mean i do now but only cuz i scrolled egg irl a lot so idk if that counts

i rlly wanna be a girl but i think it's just cuz egg irl got to me

so I'll just wait and see what I feel later

after watching anime

I mean, who wouldn't want to be a girl

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

1 hour ago, Aeoryi said:

my life explained

friend, nothing is *corrupting" you to be trans not even egg irl

do you wanna be trans? 

Then what is it doing? why do i suddenly wanna be a cute girl and have a girlfriend (hopefully my sexuality doesn't change.. hehe..)

ofc i wanna be trans!!!!!1!1!!!1!

at least rn

but "WHYYYYY" is the what i NEED TO answer THOROUGHLY and.. maybe I don't idk

but why

 

sis why'd u hafta send that meme thing now i want that so bad sigh

hopefully that's not weird..

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15 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

I mean, who wouldn't want to be a girl

me a few years ago: "frfr"

[Aeoryi she/her]

23 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

Then what is it doing? why do i suddenly wanna be a cute girl and have a girlfriend (hopefully my sexuality doesn't change.. hehe..)

You should watch I saw the TV glow

23 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

ofc i wanna be trans!!!!!1!1!!!1!

at least rn

but "WHYYYYY" is the what i NEED TO answer THOROUGHLY and.. maybe I don't idk

but why

who the actual damnation cares why you want to be trans that's irrelevant... for some people it's just the prospect of a name and different pronouns. Some people want to be able to present a certain way. Who's to judge why you want to be trans?

25 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

sis why'd u hafta send that meme thing now i want that so bad sigh

hopefully that's not weird..

I have arguably more transbian/lesbian memes on my phone than I do trans ones. Despite that, I'm probably Ace.

46 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

I mean, who wouldn't want to be a girl

People who wanna be something else

Spoiler

(not me)

 

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

1 hour ago, Aeoryi said:

You should watch I saw the TV glow

who the actual damnation cares why you want to be trans that's irrelevant... for some people it's just the prospect of a name and different pronouns. Some people want to be able to present a certain way. Who's to judge why you want to be trans?

I have arguably more transbian/lesbian memes on my phone than I do trans ones. Despite that, I'm probably Ace.

People who wanna be something else

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(not me)

 

uhhh doesn't look to be the best for my mental health?

idk the doctors 

they need to know why i want hrt

[Aeoryi she/her]

59 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

uhhh doesn't look to be the best for my mental health?

idk the doctors 

they need to know why i want hrt

they do know why you want hrt ... you just need to hit the right check boxes. I think you're misinterpreting it as "the doctors don't think I'm trans" when it's more likely "the doctors don't want to get in trouble and thus cannot prescribe you hormones yet" - it's not actually their choice 

And now you might be thinking, 'well, I don't meet the criteria anyways! That's proof that I'm not trans!' but unfortunately for you your comrade Aeoryi here has already thought of that. Those are (likely) the requirements of:
a) informed consent system (you have to "commit" to it)

b) gender dysphoria diagnosis (which you may need depending on where you are) 

As for the first, plenty of trans people don't take hormones. Does not having HRT make them any less trans? No. As for the second, gender dysphoria isn't a requirement to be trans. Does not having the health insurance description of gd make them anyone any less trans? No. 

 

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

12 hours ago, Aeoryi said:

they do know why you want hrt ... you just need to hit the right check boxes. I think you're misinterpreting it as "the doctors don't think I'm trans" when it's more likely "the doctors don't want to get in trouble and thus cannot prescribe you hormones yet" - it's not actually their choice 

And now you might be thinking, 'well, I don't meet the criteria anyways! That's proof that I'm not trans!' but unfortunately for you your comrade Aeoryi here has already thought of that. Those are (likely) the requirements of:
a) informed consent system (you have to "commit" to it)

b) gender dysphoria diagnosis (which you may need depending on where you are) 

As for the first, plenty of trans people don't take hormones. Does not having HRT make them any less trans? No. As for the second, gender dysphoria isn't a requirement to be trans. Does not having the health insurance description of gd make them anyone any less trans? No. 

 

I do meet the criteria... kinda?

Sometimes I do.

Does it mean in not trans if I don't look for proof that I'm not trans? I mean maybe I do but not like super consciously? Like also this right here is cuz I worry about proof I'm not trans but don't want it or maybe I secretly do how the Ado do I know!!??

Comrade

uhhh

 

Tessa, I don't know what to think anymore...

I think I do think that HRT is required for being trans or whatever, but haven't wanted to admit it yet cuz it seems wrong.

It's not like...

does hrt work and "actually" turn me into a girl?

like if i don't hrt then what the heck will i do

just keep living like i am now?

that's fine and all.. but unless i get happier or something then idk there's room to improve or something

ugh kill me now 

 

edit like a few hours later: for some reason i think of my past self as a girl not a *shudder* I can't say it but yk. But... like not specifically me, but I'm like "I was/am a girl and always have been"

yeah?

I don't know how to explain it more without saying stuff I don't necessarily want to.

 

uhh kinda like this i guess?

not sure if i got the words right and I'm not even fully awake probably 

Spoiler

 

Edited April 11 by Usseewa

[Aeoryi she/her]

5 hours ago, Usseewa said:

Tessa, I don't know what to think anymore...

I think I do think that HRT is required for being trans or whatever, but haven't wanted to admit it yet cuz it seems wrong.

It's not like...

does hrt work and "actually" turn me into a girl?

like if i don't hrt then what the heck will i do

just keep living like i am now?

that's fine and all.. but unless i get happier or something then idk there's room to improve or something

ugh kill me now 

Some people socially transition years before even starting HRT... Hrt isn't required at ALL for being transgender

You don't suddenly undergo a magical girl transformation upon taking hrt though. It will do some stuff. 

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

3 hours ago, Aeoryi said:

Some people socially transition years before even starting HRT... Hrt isn't required at ALL for being transgender

You don't suddenly undergo a magical girl transformation upon taking hrt though. It will do some stuff. 

I'm already socially transitioned, I think. I use new name and pronouns to pretty much everyone (even in public I think), I'm out to pretty much everyone, I wear new fem clothes, I paint my nails if that counts as socially transitioning. I'm growing out my hair. I wore makeup once at school and it actually looked nice.

 

I just.. don't (always) feel like a girl.

Tbh, I'm pretty sure I feel like one right now but that's either an anomoly (i dont want to spell and) or  I just feel gender-affirmed or euphoria maybe or something, idk.

 

But HRT starts the "transformation," and also doesn't it like imrpove my mood prbably? like feelings or depression?

I don't know what I want or what to do or how to do anything

Do people even see me as a girl?

What's it matter if I feel like one and am one if people still think I'm a guy for some reason

 

EDITTTT A FEW SECONDS AFTR POSTINGG: ugghhhhhhhhhhhhh lol every damn time I'm like "yeah of course I'm a girl and feel like one 100%" then the doubts creep in a lil and say "ehh... you're kinda forcing it, you know? You're just making it up."

Or someting

like..

"Your reaction is too trans to be trans, so, uhm, hate to break it to you but you're not trans?"

How can something be "too trans"

Can it?

...

 

omg is that one of the rare authentic me-thoughts that aren't just me relating to what other people say?

 

am I only feeling like a girl cuz i'm too tired mentally and physically to repress or doubt or whatever the words mean/are?

 

but anyway I'm a girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

 

unless it was reddit and/or egg_irl that "converted" me...

...

 

is it valid? maybe it just gave me euphoria or affirmation to look at all those memes for like an hour or a few hours or however long it was?

 

sorry for the useless stream-of-conscious...

 

edit another few hours later: uhh why do I feel like a walking piece of AI slop?

Edited April 11 by Usseewa

[Aeoryi she/her]

5 hours ago, Usseewa said:

I'm already socially transitioned, I think. I use new name and pronouns to pretty much everyone (even in public I think), I'm out to pretty much everyone, I wear new fem clothes, I paint my nails if that counts as socially transitioning. I'm growing out my hair. I wore makeup once at school and it actually looked nice.

Congratulations! I haven't done that, so you must be more trans than me tehe. There's your answer!

5 hours ago, Usseewa said:

just.. don't (always) feel like a girl.

Tbh, I'm pretty sure I feel like one right now but that's either an anomoly (i dont want to spell and) or  I just feel gender-affirmed or euphoria maybe or something, idk.

idk I just feel like myself most days

not even sure if that's going to be enough to get HRT

5 hours ago, Usseewa said:

But HRT starts the "transformation," and also doesn't it like imrpove my mood prbably? like feelings or depression?

I don't know what I want or what to do or how to do anything

Do people even see me as a girl?

What's it matter if I feel like one and am one if people still think I'm a guy for some reason

You'll have to see how you respond to HRT. As for the last bit who cares lol.

 

5 hours ago, Usseewa said:

EDITTTT A FEW SECONDS AFTR POSTINGG: ugghhhhhhhhhhhhh lol every damn time I'm like "yeah of course I'm a girl and feel like one 100%" then the doubts creep in a lil and say "ehh... you're kinda forcing it, you know? You're just making it up."

Or someting

like..

"Your reaction is too trans to be trans, so, uhm, hate to break it to you but you're not trans?"

How can something be "too trans"

Can it?

...

 

omg is that one of the rare authentic me-thoughts that aren't just me relating to what other people say?

 

am I only feeling like a girl cuz i'm too tired mentally and physically to repress or doubt or whatever the words mean/are?

 

but anyway I'm a girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

 

unless it was reddit and/or egg_irl that "converted" me...

...

 

is it valid? maybe it just gave me euphoria or affirmation to look at all those memes for like an hour or a few hours or however long it was?

 

sorry for the useless stream-of-conscious...

 

edit another few hours later: uhh why do I feel like a walking piece of AI slop?

Edited 2 hours ago by Usseewa

u can be valid it's oka

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

I am not back yet but wanted to pop in an say heyyy, anyways, yeah I’m mostly socially transitioned all my friends use they them when not talking to friends of mine and some of them use she her when talking to close friends, I have one friend who I didn’t tell but she has seen me in a bra and I’ve talks to her abt gender dysphoria before so I’m pretty sure she knows, anyways how’s yall?

[Aeoryi she/her]

57 minutes ago, Through The Living Ghost said:

I am not back yet but wanted to pop in an say heyyy, anyways, yeah I’m mostly socially transitioned all my friends use they them when not talking to friends of mine and some of them use she her when talking to close friends, I have one friend who I didn’t tell but she has seen me in a bra and I’ve talks to her abt gender dysphoria before so I’m pretty sure she knows, anyways how’s yall?

I have to ask how does it feel 

[Akimikoisthecutest]

15 hours ago, Through The Living Ghost said:

I am not back yet but wanted to pop in an say heyyy, anyways, yeah I’m mostly socially transitioned all my friends use they them when not talking to friends of mine and some of them use she her when talking to close friends, I have one friend who I didn’t tell but she has seen me in a bra and I’ve talks to her abt gender dysphoria before so I’m pretty sure she knows, anyways how’s yall?

When I was going home with one of my friends I definitely did not come out to, told me "Ladies first." and made me get in the car first...

Edited April 13 by Akimikoisthecutest

[Ink and Embers Any pronouns]

2 hours ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

When I was going home with one of my friends I definitely did not come out to, told me "Ladies first." and made me get in the car first...

Is that a good thing? Or uncertain? It sounds cool!

17 hours ago, Through The Living Ghost said:

I am not back yet but wanted to pop in an say heyyy, anyways, yeah I’m mostly socially transitioned all my friends use they them when not talking to friends of mine and some of them use she her when talking to close friends, I have one friend who I didn’t tell but she has seen me in a bra and I’ve talks to her abt gender dysphoria before so I’m pretty sure she knows, anyways how’s yall?

Yayayayayayay!!!!!!

I'm doing alright! I came out to my oldest friend and she was cool with it so I'm really happy that that went well!!!!

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

16 hours ago, Aeoryi said:

I have to ask how does it feel 

Hmmm, not super different but better in general I mean they still act the same as before they just switched out a few words lol

 

2 hours ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

When I was going home with one of my friends I definitely did not come out to, told me "Ladies first." and made me get in the car first...

Hehehe I love that

 

7 minutes ago, Ink and Embers said:

Is that a good thing? Or uncertain? It sounds cool!

Yayayayayayay!!!!!!

I'm doing alright! I came out to my oldest friend and she was cool with it so I'm really happy that that went well!!!!

YAYAYAYA

[Akimikoisthecutest]

40 minutes ago, Through The Living Ghost said:

Hehehe I love that

Lovely, but terrifying, and it makes me wonder how they found out....

 

48 minutes ago, Ink and Embers said:

Is that a good thing? Or uncertain? It sounds cool!

 

[Myst He/Him]

25 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Lovely, but terrifying, and it makes me wonder how they found out....

 

 

They may have not, it’s a recurring joke in my friend group, and I don’t think any of us are Trans

 Edit: it’s also possible I’m extremely blind. 

Edited April 13 by Mist.

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

23 hours ago, Through The Living Ghost said:

I am not back yet but wanted to pop in an say heyyy, anyways, yeah I’m mostly socially transitioned all my friends use they them when not talking to friends of mine and some of them use she her when talking to close friends, I have one friend who I didn’t tell but she has seen me in a bra and I’ve talks to her abt gender dysphoria before so I’m pretty sure she knows, anyways how’s yall?

Heyooo

Long time no see, hope your break is going nicely!

I've.. kinda tried it a bit and idk I'ma try some efforts.

I hate dysphoria especially when i don't even know if I'm feeling it.

Like I'm probably feeling it right now but honestly how do I tell and does it matter and how do I describe it?

I just don't feel quite good.

edit: and at this point I've look up so much.. I've read the gdb and looked back on it a bit, I've watched probably dozens of videos, read dozens of reddit threads and looked at dozens of egg irl memes. I've talked so much here on the shard about the same things again and again, I've written/typed down a bunch of feelings, I've talked with people and therapists.. I want to look up some crem about "what does dysphoria feel like" but I doubt I'll find anything *new/different.* I just want to KNOW things and i just want to have things and explain things to people. i want to know if what i know is actually what I know. I want to know if what i feel and think is actually what i feel and think or if I'm somehow making it up, exaggerating, copying, fabricating, faking, overreacting, making something from nothing, etc...............

edit2: dysphoric boogaloo, what the heck do i do? what the heck do i hecking dooooo. like do i just do nothing? maybe that's the best choice? stop all this and stop thinking about trans stuff and stop looking stuff up or talking about it or pondering it. stop it and then the times i feel like a girl just accept that somehow even if it's fake?

8 hours ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

When I was going home with one of my friends I definitely did not come out to, told me "Ladies first." and made me get in the car first...

Cool! You could talk to them if you want

Edited April 13 by Usseewa

[Aeoryi she/her]

alright so I have probably a good chance of getting HRT in a few weeks... (I don't even think it was possible to fail)

 

Edit @Usseewa

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https://www.instagram.com/p/DXDdKEviFI4/?igsh=MTBkaXdycWFyZ2Yzdw==

 

 

Edited April 13 by Aeoryi

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

45 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

alright so I have probably a good chance of getting HRT in a few weeks... (I don't even think it was possible to fail)

 

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https://www.instagram.com/p/DXDdKEviFI4/?igsh=MTBkaXdycWFyZ2Yzdw==

 

 

...

"i dont even think it was possible to fail"

me, who already failed:  

 

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i dont use insta but i looked up the link and looked in the image results... just a bunch of stuff about Yuri or something?

can you share screenshots or the specific images or something if that's convenient?

 

[Aeoryi she/her]

23 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

...

"i dont even think it was possible to fail"

me, who already failed:  

 

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i dont use insta but i looked up the link and looked in the image results... just a bunch of stuff about Yuri or something?

can you share screenshots or the specific images or something if that's convenient?

 

where I am at least

sorry

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It is a sign which says "no saying uwu" and then directly below is a sign saying '300$ fine'

 

 

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

33 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

where I am at least

sorry

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It is a sign which says "no saying uwu" and then directly below is a sign saying '300$ fine'

 

 

it's okay i shouldn't be whining and throwing a pity part or whatever you kids used to call it or still do haha..heh.

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*half-hearted/depressed uwu*

sorry i got no money