Mental health club!

[Keke They/he]

On 9/26/2025 at 11:24 PM, Hoid Slayer said:

Hey guys! Sorry I’ve been gone a while, and it’s past midnight so I ain’t going back and responding to everything (so sorry if I miss you) but I’ll try to answer some things.

*Hugssss* I MISSED THIS HOW ITS SO LONG!!!!

On 9/26/2025 at 11:24 PM, Hoid Slayer said:

IT REALLY HAS

So… I’ve kinda got something to get off my chest

There’s this girl I like; really, I’ve liked her for a while now, since like… May?

But… she has a boyfriend now. And it’s weird. We’re still close friends, and I wouldn’t want to do anything to hurt their relationship. But at the same time, I still have feelings for her I know I can’t act on. And every time I see them together, it’s just… weird.

And maybe the worst part is that… I feel like I had a chance. Last year, we grew close. We were texting, and the more I look back on it, the more I feel like I really had an opportunity. But I fumbled it. I was in a bad place at the time, and I isolated myself. I couldn’t take the step. And then this other guy happened. I was there throughout their whole relationship, giving her advice. They got together, and she’s happy. But I’m not.

So… yeah. Just felt like ranting a little.

*hugs hugs* ooooooh thats rough *HUGS*

rant all you want 

On 9/26/2025 at 11:24 PM, Hoid Slayer said:

YES

You’ve helped us all so much

Really, Hawks. I cannot express how thankful I am

Typing up responses to everyone is so real

*HUGS*

Your welcome 

*HUGS*

On 9/26/2025 at 11:24 PM, Hoid Slayer said:

To all the people who had good news, yay! To all the people who are struggling - I feel you. And I will send all the strength I can your way.

You’re awesome.

Don’t forget it.

Thanks i realllylyyy needed that today. I feel like im abouta collapse on the ground and just scream my lungs out

*cries* today sucks for a lot of reasons

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

4 hours ago, Hawks said:

*Hugssss* I MISSED THIS HOW ITS SO LONG!!!!

*hugs hugs* ooooooh thats rough *HUGS*

rant all you want 

*HUGS*

Your welcome 

*HUGS*

Thanks i realllylyyy needed that today. I feel like im abouta collapse on the ground and just scream my lungs out

*cries* today sucks for a lot of reasons

*squeeze*

[Ink and Embers Any pronouns]

On 10/2/2025 at 4:26 AM, Kansas Stormcursed said:

I could use some hugs please

*hugs* 

Also *hugs* Hawks because sorry I'm bad at tech and can't figure out how to copy in you too

Edited October 3, 2025 by Ink and Embers

[NerdSandwich she/her]

*hugs*

[Vielence She/Her]

On 9/27/2025 at 2:34 PM, Tam Tucker said:

Thank you. Everyone is kind on here. It's nice to be heard. 

REAL 

On 9/28/2025 at 1:10 PM, Honors ghost said:

Hey yall I’m back I’ll go read the close to 300 notifications I have *shivers in fear* later and respond but for now hugs for all

*blanches* oh. Boy. Good luck. 

On 10/1/2025 at 10:26 PM, Kansas Stormcursed said:

I could use some hugs please

*hugs* 

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

4 minutes ago, Ink and Embers said:

*hugs* 

Also *hugs* Hawks because sorry I'm bad at tech and can't figure out how to copy in you too

Just now, VieB13 said:

REAL 

*blanches* oh. Boy. Good luck. 

*hugs* 

*hugs back*

Thanks y'all

[Tam Tucker]

On 9/30/2025 at 9:57 AM, Hawks said:

*THE BEST HUGS*

oh my gosh that is horrible

Really like horrid

*hugs*

To answer your questions, i think yes, everyone deserves respect. And it makes sense to grief over stuff you never had. Especially when you cant have it anymore.

i feel that (slight rant) like, my parents divorce got finalized officially a bit ago. I knew it was happening like we were waiting for the paper but… it still hit that like NOW we cant go back. Not like they were gonna be magically fixed and we could become a nice happy family. But the hope was there that like. Maybe some point we could have what we didn’t before. But getting the papers solidified the loss.   

Does the connection make sense?

i hope that helped *Hugs*

Yes, it does make sense. Loss is loss; it still brings grief. It is messy, as divorces always are. They are no fun for anyone. I hope for the best in this situation and wisdom to deal with the problems that will occur. 

Bringing this up—I know I said I am married a lot on here—the truth is it's a religious marriage. which means I went in front of my church and said vows to God, my wife, and my pastor. in front of many witnesses. In my worldview, that is locking into a covenant. As the OT has it, those are serious things, and it's against the Mosaic law to break a vow.I don't believe that we are under the law in this age of grace. I believe that God is a god of knowledge and order. Breaking covenants does not bring order to anything. 

The government and the law see me as single, though. It's a choice I made due to my wife being disabled, and we couldn't afford to be legally married. Her meds alone would be eight thousand dollars, and I have a good job, yet I couldn't afford that every month. I have been told that I am going to hell for doing this, that it's a sin. That hurt a lot, though I don't believe it, but being threatened by the worst fate in my worldview—that hurts deeply. I am an independent fundamental Baptist, which means my church is on its own but does not have to answer to a board of anything. The Bible is our code, and the only thing we follow, as we think made-up man's rules are dumb and pointless. So I am not consulting anyone while relating this is me and how I believe. 

Do you think being religiously married like I am is right or not? 

[Keke They/he]

4 hours ago, Tam Tucker said:

Yes, it does make sense. Loss is loss; it still brings grief. It is messy, as divorces always are. They are no fun for anyone. I hope for the best in this situation and wisdom to deal with the problems that will occur. 

Bringing this up—I know I said I am married a lot on here—the truth is it's a religious marriage. which means I went in front of my church and said vows to God, my wife, and my pastor. in front of many witnesses. In my worldview, that is locking into a covenant. As the OT has it, those are serious things, and it's against the Mosaic law to break a vow.I don't believe that we are under the law in this age of grace. I believe that God is a god of knowledge and order. Breaking covenants does not bring order to anything. 

The government and the law see me as single, though. It's a choice I made due to my wife being disabled, and we couldn't afford to be legally married. Her meds alone would be eight thousand dollars, and I have a good job, yet I couldn't afford that every month. I have been told that I am going to hell for doing this, that it's a sin. That hurt a lot, though I don't believe it, but being threatened by the worst fate in my worldview—that hurts deeply. I am an independent fundamental Baptist, which means my church is on its own but does not have to answer to a board of anything. The Bible is our code, and the only thing we follow, as we think made-up man's rules are dumb and pointless. So I am not consulting anyone while relating this is me and how I believe. 

Do you think being religiously married like I am is right or not? 

First of all, youre sweet to be dedicated to her emough to help her with everything

Second, its really depends on your view of it. In my perspective your perfectly fine. Cause even though there's no legal contract saying you are, but religiously you are then your married still. 

I think?

Im not an expert on marriage and dont think I ever will be. 

Id ask some of the older folk on here who are actually that age. 

Ik @Seonid im pretty sure is married. 

[Seonid he/him]

@Hawks guilty as charged. As for @Tam Tucker, as far as I'm concerned, the validity of your marriage is between you, your wife, and God.

As far as not getting civilly married for financial reasons? Honestly, if the situation is that people who would otherwise want to marry cannot because it would financially break them? My opinion is that the fact that those situations exist and are allowed to persist is an indictment on the society - in a just society, financial devastation like that would not be a potential consequence of a marriage. 

As far as people telling you you're going to hell? Turns out that the only being whose opinion on that subject matters is God.

But if you really want my opinion? From a religious perspective, a marriage is a public commitment between the couple, witnessed by the religious community and God (obligatory disclaimer that this certainly doesn't apply to all marriage ceremonies in all traditions, but I think it works well enough as a generalization for most monotheistic religious traditions in the Western world).

Legal contracts are important for tax purposes, inheritance of property, and other places where the secular authority intersects with the couples life. But having a marriage recognized by the state (I will note here that the state is almost always a secular authority) has no bearing on whether it not that marriage is valid on religious terms.

For that? I think it's simple. If the person who performed the marriage was authorized to do so by the religious tradition, the the marriage is valid. Full stop.

[Tam Tucker]

22 hours ago, Seonid said:

@Hawks guilty as charged. As for @Tam Tucker, as far as I'm concerned, the validity of your marriage is between you, your wife, and God.

As far as not getting civilly married for financial reasons? Honestly, if the situation is that people who would otherwise want to marry cannot because it would financially break them? My opinion is that the fact that those situations exist and are allowed to persist is an indictment on the society - in a just society, financial devastation like that would not be a potential consequence of a marriage. 

As far as people telling you you're going to hell? Turns out that the only being whose opinion on that subject matters is God.

But if you really want my opinion? From a religious perspective, a marriage is a public commitment between the couple, witnessed by the religious community and God (obligatory disclaimer that this certainly doesn't apply to all marriage ceremonies in all traditions, but I think it works well enough as a generalization for most monotheistic religious traditions in the Western world).

Legal contracts are important for tax purposes, inheritance of property, and other places where the secular authority intersects with the couples life. But having a marriage recognized by the state (I will note here that the state is almost always a secular authority) has no bearing on whether it not that marriage is valid on religious terms.

For that? I think it's simple. If the person who performed the marriage was authorized to do so by the religious tradition, the the marriage is valid. Full stop.

Thank you; that means a lot. 

She is happy I bought a house that was cheaper on the low end of over 100,000; I can afford the mortgage, though it's over half my paycheck. What can you do in this economy? I got a dog that is my baby. I have been living a dream of mine since I could dream. A small happy family, my wife and I are a couple that is crazy enough to still hope. 

There have been things I had to give up, like children; with how my wife is, it wouldn't be good for her to get pregnant. So I made sure that I couldn't have children, though I want children. I just couldn't put my wife through that and have such high chances of her losing the baby or the baby suffering from her meds or our genes. I love her too much, and in fact, I love my children too much to do that to them. 

I got my niece from my sister, and I am writing letters to her, trying to encourage her to learn to read as soon as possible. Just talk with her, encourage her to live in the now and be a child, but also respect her and talk with her as if she is a grown woman. If this relationship grows and she keeps my letters, she will read them as a grown woman. So I got a child to invest in and love. I am her uncle, and that is enough, hoping that I will be the wise uncle that she calls on when she needs help with anything. 

[Keke They/he]

Ok talk incoming so that’s whats in the spoiler 

Spoiler

so recently ive been feeling very burnt out and tired and all that jazz. 

One thing specifically is i felt i was loosing two of my close friends, sprout (yall who are older members might recognize them ive talked about how they basically saved me and whatnot) and another friend who we will call Astro, (pfft ignore the game character names ok i gotta censor). They have a bigger group that im like socially scared around and so i felt i wasnt talking to them as much and everything from home to school to church overwhelmed me at lunch and basically all of today so i went outside and was crying. Eventually i texted Astro to see if she could come out to help me and she did. We hugged and i explained everything that was happening. She got sprout to come out and after a lot of talking we came to the conclusion. 

“You’re not getting rid of us no matter what. Even if we die.” 

Long story short im depressed but happy cause i have my two besties back. We got some stuff worked out so i can talk to them more privately without all the other people. 

 

Edited October 6, 2025 by Hawks

[SpartanBrigade He/Him]

1 minute ago, Hawks said:

Ok talk incoming so that’s whats in the spoiler 

  Hide contents

so recently ive been feeling very burnt out and tired and all that jazz. 

One thing specifically is i felt i was loosing two of my close friends, sprout (yall who are older members might recognize them ive talked about how they basically saved me and whatnot) and another friend who we will call Astro, (pfft ignore the game character names ok i gotta censor). They have a bigger group that im like socially scared around and so i felt i wasnt talking to them as much and everything from home to school to church overwhelmed me at lunch and basically all of today so i went outside and was crying. Eventually i texted Astro to see if she could come out to help me and she did. We hugged and i explained everything that was happening. She got sprout to come out and after a lot of talking we came to the conclusion. 

“You’re not getting rid of us no matter what. Even if we die.” 

Long story short im depressed but happy cause i have my two besties back. We got some stuff worked out so i can talk to them more privately without all the other people. 

 

That's great man
*hugs*

[Vielence She/Her]

31 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Ok talk incoming so that’s whats in the spoiler 

  Hide contents

so recently ive been feeling very burnt out and tired and all that jazz. 

One thing specifically is i felt i was loosing two of my close friends, sprout (yall who are older members might recognize them ive talked about how they basically saved me and whatnot) and another friend who we will call Astro, (pfft ignore the game character names ok i gotta censor). They have a bigger group that im like socially scared around and so i felt i wasnt talking to them as much and everything from home to school to church overwhelmed me at lunch and basically all of today so i went outside and was crying. Eventually i texted Astro to see if she could come out to help me and she did. We hugged and i explained everything that was happening. She got sprout to come out and after a lot of talking we came to the conclusion. 

“You’re not getting rid of us no matter what. Even if we die.” 

Long story short im depressed but happy cause i have my two besties back. We got some stuff worked out so i can talk to them more privately without all the other people. 

 

Good for you Hawks.

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 hour ago, Hawks said:

Ok talk incoming so that’s whats in the spoiler 

  Hide contents

so recently ive been feeling very burnt out and tired and all that jazz. 

One thing specifically is i felt i was loosing two of my close friends, sprout (yall who are older members might recognize them ive talked about how they basically saved me and whatnot) and another friend who we will call Astro, (pfft ignore the game character names ok i gotta censor). They have a bigger group that im like socially scared around and so i felt i wasnt talking to them as much and everything from home to school to church overwhelmed me at lunch and basically all of today so i went outside and was crying. Eventually i texted Astro to see if she could come out to help me and she did. We hugged and i explained everything that was happening. She got sprout to come out and after a lot of talking we came to the conclusion. 

“You’re not getting rid of us no matter what. Even if we die.” 

Long story short im depressed but happy cause i have my two besties back. We got some stuff worked out so i can talk to them more privately without all the other people. 

 

*hugses*

[Seonid he/him]

9 hours ago, Hawks said:

Ok talk incoming so that’s whats in the spoiler 

  Hide contents

so recently ive been feeling very burnt out and tired and all that jazz. 

One thing specifically is i felt i was loosing two of my close friends, sprout (yall who are older members might recognize them ive talked about how they basically saved me and whatnot) and another friend who we will call Astro, (pfft ignore the game character names ok i gotta censor). They have a bigger group that im like socially scared around and so i felt i wasnt talking to them as much and everything from home to school to church overwhelmed me at lunch and basically all of today so i went outside and was crying. Eventually i texted Astro to see if she could come out to help me and she did. We hugged and i explained everything that was happening. She got sprout to come out and after a lot of talking we came to the conclusion. 

“You’re not getting rid of us no matter what. Even if we die.” 

Long story short im depressed but happy cause i have my two besties back. We got some stuff worked out so i can talk to them more privately without all the other people. 

 

That's amazing!

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

14 hours ago, Hawks said:

Ok talk incoming so that’s whats in the spoiler 

  Hide contents

so recently ive been feeling very burnt out and tired and all that jazz. 

One thing specifically is i felt i was loosing two of my close friends, sprout (yall who are older members might recognize them ive talked about how they basically saved me and whatnot) and another friend who we will call Astro, (pfft ignore the game character names ok i gotta censor). They have a bigger group that im like socially scared around and so i felt i wasnt talking to them as much and everything from home to school to church overwhelmed me at lunch and basically all of today so i went outside and was crying. Eventually i texted Astro to see if she could come out to help me and she did. We hugged and i explained everything that was happening. She got sprout to come out and after a lot of talking we came to the conclusion. 

“You’re not getting rid of us no matter what. Even if we die.” 

Long story short im depressed but happy cause i have my two besties back. We got some stuff worked out so i can talk to them more privately without all the other people. 

 

YAAAAAY

Those are really amazing friends

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

17 hours ago, Hawks said:

Ok talk incoming so that’s whats in the spoiler 

  Hide contents

so recently ive been feeling very burnt out and tired and all that jazz. 

One thing specifically is i felt i was loosing two of my close friends, sprout (yall who are older members might recognize them ive talked about how they basically saved me and whatnot) and another friend who we will call Astro, (pfft ignore the game character names ok i gotta censor). They have a bigger group that im like socially scared around and so i felt i wasnt talking to them as much and everything from home to school to church overwhelmed me at lunch and basically all of today so i went outside and was crying. Eventually i texted Astro to see if she could come out to help me and she did. We hugged and i explained everything that was happening. She got sprout to come out and after a lot of talking we came to the conclusion. 

“You’re not getting rid of us no matter what. Even if we die.” 

Long story short im depressed but happy cause i have my two besties back. We got some stuff worked out so i can talk to them more privately without all the other people. 

 

that’s great! I’m glad you guys were able to work it out that’s the mark of a true friendship 

[Keke They/he]

19 hours ago, SpartanBrigade said:

That's great man
*hugs*

 

19 hours ago, VieB13 said:

Good for you Hawks.

 

18 hours ago, Kansas Stormcursed said:

*hugses*

 

9 hours ago, Seonid said:

That's amazing!

 

5 hours ago, Just A Silvereye said:

YAAAAAY

Those are really amazing friends

 

1 hour ago, Honors ghost said:

that’s great! I’m glad you guys were able to work it out that’s the mark of a true friendship 

*Hugs everyone back*

[echo74 she/her]

19 hours ago, Hawks said:

Ok talk incoming so that’s whats in the spoiler 

  Reveal hidden contents

so recently ive been feeling very burnt out and tired and all that jazz. 

One thing specifically is i felt i was loosing two of my close friends, sprout (yall who are older members might recognize them ive talked about how they basically saved me and whatnot) and another friend who we will call Astro, (pfft ignore the game character names ok i gotta censor). They have a bigger group that im like socially scared around and so i felt i wasnt talking to them as much and everything from home to school to church overwhelmed me at lunch and basically all of today so i went outside and was crying. Eventually i texted Astro to see if she could come out to help me and she did. We hugged and i explained everything that was happening. She got sprout to come out and after a lot of talking we came to the conclusion. 

“You’re not getting rid of us no matter what. Even if we die.” 

Long story short im depressed but happy cause i have my two besties back. We got some stuff worked out so i can talk to them more privately without all the other people. 

 

yay!

*hugs*

[Ink and Embers Any pronouns]

23 hours ago, Hawks said:

Ok talk incoming so that’s whats in the spoiler 

  Reveal hidden contents

so recently ive been feeling very burnt out and tired and all that jazz. 

One thing specifically is i felt i was loosing two of my close friends, sprout (yall who are older members might recognize them ive talked about how they basically saved me and whatnot) and another friend who we will call Astro, (pfft ignore the game character names ok i gotta censor). They have a bigger group that im like socially scared around and so i felt i wasnt talking to them as much and everything from home to school to church overwhelmed me at lunch and basically all of today so i went outside and was crying. Eventually i texted Astro to see if she could come out to help me and she did. We hugged and i explained everything that was happening. She got sprout to come out and after a lot of talking we came to the conclusion. 

“You’re not getting rid of us no matter what. Even if we die.” 

Long story short im depressed but happy cause i have my two besties back. We got some stuff worked out so i can talk to them more privately without all the other people. 

 

*hugs*

[Seonid he/him]

So today was a bit on the rough side - mostly work. I'm not going to get into politics (which is no longer allowed on the forum apparently - 6 years changes a lot of things), but I work for the US federal government, and for those who don't know, we are currently in a shutdown status. My agency had a source of funding that could keep us open for 5 days after things shut down, but it's now been 5 days. Most of today was spent waiting for the official notice that we were going into a lapse of appropriations status. SPOILER ALERT - it never came. Now I have to wake up early tomorrow just to check my email to make sure that my leadership did their job right and told us we were doing an orderly shutdown.

And my division had an all-hands meeting to talk about it where they had clearly planned on having the information to give us, but since their higher ups hadn't officially said anything, our division spent the whole meeting saying "I guess we just don't know yet. Wait until we get official communication."

I mean, I'd really like to know if I get to stay home tomorrow, or if I have to start coming into work without getting paid? That seems kind of important? Just a little bit?

So I'm all low-energy now, and that's dangerous grounds for my depression. And on top of it, my wife is working tonight, so I have to be "on" with the kids until she gets home. And I love my kids, but there's 4 of them and only 1 of me, and I'm already drained. It's gonna be a long evening. I'm hoping I can avoid a depression spiral (luckily I'm too completely drained for my brain to do my hyperactive anxiety thing - that's worse for me in a lot of ways).

I'll check back in at the end of the night, but I could use prayers or good vibes or well-wishes, or whatever you all want to send.

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

13 minutes ago, Seonid said:

So today was a bit on the rough side - mostly work. I'm not going to get into politics (which is no longer allowed on the forum apparently - 6 years changes a lot of things), but I work for the US federal government, and for those who don't know, we are currently in a shutdown status. My agency had a source of funding that could keep us open for 5 days after things shut down, but it's now been 5 days. Most of today was spent waiting for the official notice that we were going into a lapse of appropriations status. SPOILER ALERT - it never came. Now I have to wake up early tomorrow just to check my email to make sure that my leadership did their job right and told us we were doing an orderly shutdown.

And my division had an all-hands meeting to talk about it where they had clearly planned on having the information to give us, but since their higher ups hadn't officially said anything, our division spent the whole meeting saying "I guess we just don't know yet. Wait until we get official communication."

I mean, I'd really like to know if I get to stay home tomorrow, or if I have to start coming into work without getting paid? That seems kind of important? Just a little bit?

So I'm all low-energy now, and that's dangerous grounds for my depression. And on top of it, my wife is working tonight, so I have to be "on" with the kids until she gets home. And I love my kids, but there's 4 of them and only 1 of me, and I'm already drained. It's gonna be a long evening. I'm hoping I can avoid a depression spiral (luckily I'm too completely drained for my brain to do my hyperactive anxiety thing - that's worse for me in a lot of ways).

I'll check back in at the end of the night, but I could use prayers or good vibes or well-wishes, or whatever you all want to send.

*squeeze*

Yeah, I’ve heard absolutely crazy stuff is going on in the states

Won’t go further on that, though

I can’t truly understand your situation; but I can send the best wishes your way

And also?

You mean everything to those kids

Even if they don’t show it; I know I don’t always

I don’t know how old they are, but if they’re old enough, they’ll understand

They love you

[echo74 she/her]

59 minutes ago, Seonid said:

So today was a bit on the rough side - mostly work. I'm not going to get into politics (which is no longer allowed on the forum apparently - 6 years changes a lot of things), but I work for the US federal government, and for those who don't know, we are currently in a shutdown status. My agency had a source of funding that could keep us open for 5 days after things shut down, but it's now been 5 days. Most of today was spent waiting for the official notice that we were going into a lapse of appropriations status. SPOILER ALERT - it never came. Now I have to wake up early tomorrow just to check my email to make sure that my leadership did their job right and told us we were doing an orderly shutdown.

And my division had an all-hands meeting to talk about it where they had clearly planned on having the information to give us, but since their higher ups hadn't officially said anything, our division spent the whole meeting saying "I guess we just don't know yet. Wait until we get official communication."

I mean, I'd really like to know if I get to stay home tomorrow, or if I have to start coming into work without getting paid? That seems kind of important? Just a little bit?

So I'm all low-energy now, and that's dangerous grounds for my depression. And on top of it, my wife is working tonight, so I have to be "on" with the kids until she gets home. And I love my kids, but there's 4 of them and only 1 of me, and I'm already drained. It's gonna be a long evening. I'm hoping I can avoid a depression spiral (luckily I'm too completely drained for my brain to do my hyperactive anxiety thing - that's worse for me in a lot of ways).

I'll check back in at the end of the night, but I could use prayers or good vibes or well-wishes, or whatever you all want to send.

yeah, i'll add you to my prayer list! i hope things get better over there

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

2 hours ago, Seonid said:

So today was a bit on the rough side - mostly work. I'm not going to get into politics (which is no longer allowed on the forum apparently - 6 years changes a lot of things), but I work for the US federal government, and for those who don't know, we are currently in a shutdown status. My agency had a source of funding that could keep us open for 5 days after things shut down, but it's now been 5 days. Most of today was spent waiting for the official notice that we were going into a lapse of appropriations status. SPOILER ALERT - it never came. Now I have to wake up early tomorrow just to check my email to make sure that my leadership did their job right and told us we were doing an orderly shutdown.

And my division had an all-hands meeting to talk about it where they had clearly planned on having the information to give us, but since their higher ups hadn't officially said anything, our division spent the whole meeting saying "I guess we just don't know yet. Wait until we get official communication."

I mean, I'd really like to know if I get to stay home tomorrow, or if I have to start coming into work without getting paid? That seems kind of important? Just a little bit?

So I'm all low-energy now, and that's dangerous grounds for my depression. And on top of it, my wife is working tonight, so I have to be "on" with the kids until she gets home. And I love my kids, but there's 4 of them and only 1 of me, and I'm already drained. It's gonna be a long evening. I'm hoping I can avoid a depression spiral (luckily I'm too completely drained for my brain to do my hyperactive anxiety thing - that's worse for me in a lot of ways).

I'll check back in at the end of the night, but I could use prayers or good vibes or well-wishes, or whatever you all want to send.

*hugs*

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

2 hours ago, Seonid said:

So today was a bit on the rough side - mostly work. I'm not going to get into politics (which is no longer allowed on the forum apparently - 6 years changes a lot of things), but I work for the US federal government, and for those who don't know, we are currently in a shutdown status. My agency had a source of funding that could keep us open for 5 days after things shut down, but it's now been 5 days. Most of today was spent waiting for the official notice that we were going into a lapse of appropriations status. SPOILER ALERT - it never came. Now I have to wake up early tomorrow just to check my email to make sure that my leadership did their job right and told us we were doing an orderly shutdown.

And my division had an all-hands meeting to talk about it where they had clearly planned on having the information to give us, but since their higher ups hadn't officially said anything, our division spent the whole meeting saying "I guess we just don't know yet. Wait until we get official communication."

I mean, I'd really like to know if I get to stay home tomorrow, or if I have to start coming into work without getting paid? That seems kind of important? Just a little bit?

So I'm all low-energy now, and that's dangerous grounds for my depression. And on top of it, my wife is working tonight, so I have to be "on" with the kids until she gets home. And I love my kids, but there's 4 of them and only 1 of me, and I'm already drained. It's gonna be a long evening. I'm hoping I can avoid a depression spiral (luckily I'm too completely drained for my brain to do my hyperactive anxiety thing - that's worse for me in a lot of ways).

I'll check back in at the end of the night, but I could use prayers or good vibes or well-wishes, or whatever you all want to send.

Hugs I wish you and all your colleagues much luck