Mental health club!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

2 minutes ago, MirkerLurker said:

A way less emotional story than yours, but a guy I knew growing up also changed for the better when he joined the Marines. He was adopted in his tweens (or late elementary? older than usual adoption, anyway), had been in the state system as long as he could remember, and so was, let's say, rather rough around the edges. Very defensive, aggressive. Didn't trust people, acidic to be around. When he hit 18 though, he joined the Marines, and his rough edges...shifted. The defensive behavior now included other people, defending them. The aggressive became strength, and that strength became dependability. He went from actively driving everyone away from him to being the guy everybody asked for help, and half the time they didn't need to cuz he'd already volunteered (or was halfway through doing what needed doing). He's still coarse and rough, but in a playful loving way now, a way that seeks to love those around him, not drive them off. He found himself a girl and got married, working a solid job, and a great guy. 

Military comes with a lot of hardships, but it's got some strong pros as well.

aw

Thanks for sharing that

[Keke They/he]

Sometimes I struggle to word things. And alot of people know that I talk through music. So like I send a song and if you read into it there's something there so...

all of it. 60 percent the second verse ans past tho. 

lyrics 

Spoiler

[Verse 1]

Feeling so anxious, I step in your office

Hear: "How was your week? How do you feel?"

It's hard to be honest

All I can think about is shutting back down

What's wrong with me? I should be better by now

You tell me be patient, that it'll be worth it

All the suppression, session by session, pulled to the surface

All of the demons through the years I've bottled up

But I'm exhausted, and the past is too much

 

[Pre-Chorus 1]

I'm not ready, it's too heavy

I'm not ready

 

[Chorus]

Why is healing so hard?

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars

Then I don't have to feel it all again

I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open

Am I better off, better off broken?

 

[Verse 2]

I don't wanna breathe deep, I'm tired of mindful

When even the smallest things in my life are making me spiral

I had no say, inherited a hemorrhaged heart

It's so unfair that every day is this hard

I wanna be normal for so many reasons

Like I'll never have the time that I need for anger and grieving

Basic functioning's becoming such a chore

What would I be like if they cared a little more?

 

[Pre-Chorus 2]

I'm not ready, it's too heavy

Stop pushing me, just let me be empty

 

[Chorus]

Why is healing so hard? (so hard, so hard)

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars (my scars, my scars)

Then I don't have to feel it all again

I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open

Am I better off, better off broken?

 

[Bridge]

'Cause fifty minutes every week is not enough for what I need

To give me evidence, I'll shake my skeletons

I know you say these thoughts are liars

But I don't wanna live this tired

With very little proof and everything to lose

I'm scared you're getting sick of me

So tell me honestly

 

[Pre-Chorus 3]

Why is healing so hard?

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars

I don't have to feel

 

[Chorus]

Why is healing so hard? (so hard, so hard)

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars (my scars, my scars)

Then I don't have to feel it all again

I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open

Am I better off, better off broken?

 

[Outro]

Am I better off broken?

Better off broken?

Am I better off, better off broken

 

[Through the Living Hope]

8 hours ago, Hawks said:

Sometimes I struggle to word things. And alot of people know that I talk through music. So like I send a song and if you read into it there's something there so...

all of it. 60 percent the second verse ans past tho. 

lyrics 

  Hide contents

[Verse 1]

Feeling so anxious, I step in your office

Hear: "How was your week? How do you feel?"

It's hard to be honest

All I can think about is shutting back down

What's wrong with me? I should be better by now

You tell me be patient, that it'll be worth it

All the suppression, session by session, pulled to the surface

All of the demons through the years I've bottled up

But I'm exhausted, and the past is too much

 

[Pre-Chorus 1]

I'm not ready, it's too heavy

I'm not ready

 

[Chorus]

Why is healing so hard?

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars

Then I don't have to feel it all again

I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open

Am I better off, better off broken?

 

[Verse 2]

I don't wanna breathe deep, I'm tired of mindful

When even the smallest things in my life are making me spiral

I had no say, inherited a hemorrhaged heart

It's so unfair that every day is this hard

I wanna be normal for so many reasons

Like I'll never have the time that I need for anger and grieving

Basic functioning's becoming such a chore

What would I be like if they cared a little more?

 

[Pre-Chorus 2]

I'm not ready, it's too heavy

Stop pushing me, just let me be empty

 

[Chorus]

Why is healing so hard? (so hard, so hard)

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars (my scars, my scars)

Then I don't have to feel it all again

I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open

Am I better off, better off broken?

 

[Bridge]

'Cause fifty minutes every week is not enough for what I need

To give me evidence, I'll shake my skeletons

I know you say these thoughts are liars

But I don't wanna live this tired

With very little proof and everything to lose

I'm scared you're getting sick of me

So tell me honestly

 

[Pre-Chorus 3]

Why is healing so hard?

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars

I don't have to feel

 

[Chorus]

Why is healing so hard? (so hard, so hard)

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars (my scars, my scars)

Then I don't have to feel it all again

I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open

Am I better off, better off broken?

 

[Outro]

Am I better off broken?

Better off broken?

Am I better off, better off broken

 

*hug*

You are not better off broken. But just because you’re broken doesn’t mean you aren’t beautiful. Kaleidoscopes are made of broken pieces, too.

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

8 hours ago, Hawks said:

Sometimes I struggle to word things. And alot of people know that I talk through music. So like I send a song and if you read into it there's something there so...

all of it. 60 percent the second verse ans past tho. 

lyrics 

  Hide contents

[Verse 1]

Feeling so anxious, I step in your office

Hear: "How was your week? How do you feel?"

It's hard to be honest

All I can think about is shutting back down

What's wrong with me? I should be better by now

You tell me be patient, that it'll be worth it

All the suppression, session by session, pulled to the surface

All of the demons through the years I've bottled up

But I'm exhausted, and the past is too much

 

[Pre-Chorus 1]

I'm not ready, it's too heavy

I'm not ready

 

[Chorus]

Why is healing so hard?

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars

Then I don't have to feel it all again

I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open

Am I better off, better off broken?

 

[Verse 2]

I don't wanna breathe deep, I'm tired of mindful

When even the smallest things in my life are making me spiral

I had no say, inherited a hemorrhaged heart

It's so unfair that every day is this hard

I wanna be normal for so many reasons

Like I'll never have the time that I need for anger and grieving

Basic functioning's becoming such a chore

What would I be like if they cared a little more?

 

[Pre-Chorus 2]

I'm not ready, it's too heavy

Stop pushing me, just let me be empty

 

[Chorus]

Why is healing so hard? (so hard, so hard)

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars (my scars, my scars)

Then I don't have to feel it all again

I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open

Am I better off, better off broken?

 

[Bridge]

'Cause fifty minutes every week is not enough for what I need

To give me evidence, I'll shake my skeletons

I know you say these thoughts are liars

But I don't wanna live this tired

With very little proof and everything to lose

I'm scared you're getting sick of me

So tell me honestly

 

[Pre-Chorus 3]

Why is healing so hard?

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars

I don't have to feel

 

[Chorus]

Why is healing so hard? (so hard, so hard)

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars (my scars, my scars)

Then I don't have to feel it all again

I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open

Am I better off, better off broken?

 

[Outro]

Am I better off broken?

Better off broken?

Am I better off, better off broken

 

*hugs*

You aren’t broken. Those scars aren’t flaws. They’re symbols. They’re a testament, to what you’ve endured. What you’ve survived.

And if you are broken, then…

I like that you’re broken.

Because all those shards make you who you are.

Make up my friend.

How could I hate that?

[Shatter He/Him]

1 hour ago, Hoid Slayer said:

*hugs*

You aren’t broken. Those scars aren’t flaws. They’re symbols. They’re a testament, to what you’ve endured. What you’ve survived.

And if you are broken, then…

I like that you’re broken.

Because all those shards make you who you are.

Make up my friend.

How could I hate that?

We are hurt. We are insane. We are broken. We are Survivors.

[Keke They/he]

4 hours ago, Spark of Hope said:

*hug*

You are not better off broken. But just because you’re broken doesn’t mean you aren’t beautiful. Kaleidoscopes are made of broken pieces, too.

Thanks *hugs*

4 hours ago, Hoid Slayer said:

*hugs*

You aren’t broken. Those scars aren’t flaws. They’re symbols. They’re a testament, to what you’ve endured. What you’ve survived.

And if you are broken, then…

I like that you’re broken.

Because all those shards make you who you are.

Make up my friend.

How could I hate that?

Thanks hs this definitely made entire day and I'm glad I woke up to it

3 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

We are hurt. We are insane. We are broken. We are Survivors.

Survivors... of hathsin

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

4 hours ago, Hawks said:

Thanks *hugs*

Thanks hs this definitely made entire day and I'm glad I woke up to it

Survivors... of hathsin

Of course

Anytime

[Keke They/he]

16 minutes ago, Hoid Slayer said:

Of course

Anytime

*hugs*

[Shatter He/Him]

*random out-of-the-blue hugs*

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

2 minutes ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

*random out-of-the-blue hugs*

*random out-of-the-blue return hugs*

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

3 minutes ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

*random out-of-the-blue hugs*

*return hug*

[Shatter He/Him]

Motivational Message from me!!!

also... oooo... voice reveal

Edited April 23, 2025 by The Shattered Cosmere

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 minute ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

 

Motivational Message from me!!!

*hugshugshugs*

We’re all…Shards. It’s almost like they knew who they’d attract with this website.

I just wanna add that, in all reality, broken people are often more interesting and complex people (not always—not saying anything against nonbroken people. But often). And, more importantly, the breaking is part of who we are. And we’re all here to help keep everyone together as much as we can!

[Through the Living Hope]

8 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

 

Motivational Message from me!!!

also... oooo... voice reveal

Aww, Shatterrrrr.. gon’ make me cry before school lol

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

8 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

 

Motivational Message from me!!!

also... oooo... voice reveal

That’s great thank you

[Mags she/they]

how to make depresso expresso go away

Edited April 23, 2025 by Mag

[Through the Living Hope]

2 minutes ago, Mag said:

how to make depresso expresso go away

Smash room

It's pretty expensive but you get to break a bunch of glass and ceramic and stuff. When I went to one we also had a TV and a microwave we got to obliterate

[Mags she/they]

9 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

Smash room

It's pretty expensive but you get to break a bunch of glass and ceramic and stuff. When I went to one we also had a TV and a microwave we got to obliterate

Thanks for the recommend, but . . . My parent's actually disapprove of those . . . so

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, Mag said:

Thanks for the recommend, but . . . My parent's actually disapprove of those . . . so

Well dang lol

Hm...

You've mentioned juggling hobbies before, so another one probably wouldn't help...

Do you sing into the shower? Or have a pillow you can scream into?

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

9 minutes ago, Mag said:

Thanks for the recommend, but . . . My parent's actually disapprove of those . . . so

Martial arts is a great equivalent. Or if you don't have time/can't/don't want to, hitting soft things that won't hurt you is also great.

Edited April 23, 2025 by Kaladin Stormcursed

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 hour ago, Mag said:

how to make depresso expresso go away

*squeeze*

chocolate and hugs

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

2 hours ago, Spark of Hope said:

Smash room

It's pretty expensive but you get to break a bunch of glass and ceramic and stuff. When I went to one we also had a TV and a microwave we got to obliterate

Idk if you play in instrument but sometimes if I can lose myself in the music it helps

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Idk if you play in instrument but sometimes if I can lose myself in the music it helps

I play violin, trombone, and a bit of guitar lol

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

4 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

I play violin, trombone, and a bit of guitar lol

that’s awsome I think i quoted the wrong person tho I also play violin

[Through the Living Hope]

1 minute ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

that’s awsome I think i quoted the wrong person tho I also play violin

Noice! (1st or 2nd lol)