Mental health club!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

15 minutes ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

. . .

*saves*

[Keke They/he]

Ok so today I'm taking a day off to work on my life. And it worked alot. 

 

Rant... but with a twist?

Spoiler

Today was seemingly uneventful. Until this afternoon.then unless you saw my head then it's very strange

 

It started normal, woke up, regretted that bc i had a thing at church. Watched jjk LOVED THE EPISODES. wore my new "boy" pants my mom begrudgingly bought me. Went to church slayed the program I was SOOOOO SUPER STRESSED ABOUT. Yada Yada. We went to a farewell party for these guys who were my teachers and twas sad. 

Get home and now the fun begins. Heheheh

Context: my mom runs this thing for foster kids to get clothes and supplies so we get ALOT of donations. Now, she lets me and my sister go through the bags and take some stuff we like bc it makes getting new clothes alot easier. Mostly it's girl clothes. Today we got someone from our churches clothes but a boy. 

KARMA MOTHER EAT IT.

So we go through like usual. My sister doesn't take much. But I do. I take more then normal bc i loved it all bc ITS MY STYLE. And my mom seemed to hate that. But I loved it. I got sweatpants and some shirts and plad and hoodies. Yeah!

Then i got impulse to clean my closet. Which I've been wanting to do forever. And I finally did it! I went through and got rid of all the stuff I dont wear/is to small. And I finally got the confidence to do something brave. Get rid of my old dresses I used to wear before I found my style. 

Am I ashamed to say I relished every look of disgust, every vibe of dissapoinment I got from my mother. ABSOLUTLY NOT! ah it was so satisfying and karma for yesterday. I loved every second of it. 

Yes I did. And I feel full filled that I got one step closer to being myself.

 

[Existential]

3 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Ok so today I'm taking a day off to work on my life. And it worked alot. 

 

Rant... but with a twist?

  Hide contents

Today was seemingly uneventful. Until this afternoon.then unless you saw my head then it's very strange

 

It started normal, woke up, regretted that bc i had a thing at church. Watched jjk LOVED THE EPISODES. wore my new "boy" pants my mom begrudgingly bought me. Went to church slayed the program I was SOOOOO SUPER STRESSED ABOUT. Yada Yada. We went to a farewell party for these guys who were my teachers and twas sad. 

Get home and now the fun begins. Heheheh

Context: my mom runs this thing for foster kids to get clothes and supplies so we get ALOT of donations. Now, she lets me and my sister go through the bags and take some stuff we like bc it makes getting new clothes alot easier. Mostly it's girl clothes. Today we got someone from our churches clothes but a boy. 

KARMA MOTHER EAT IT.

So we go through like usual. My sister doesn't take much. But I do. I take more then normal bc i loved it all bc ITS MY STYLE. And my mom seemed to hate that. But I loved it. I got sweatpants and some shirts and plad and hoodies. Yeah!

Then i got impulse to clean my closet. Which I've been wanting to do forever. And I finally did it! I went through and got rid of all the stuff I dont wear/is to small. And I finally got the confidence to do something brave. Get rid of my old dresses I used to wear before I found my style. 

Am I ashamed to say I relished every look of disgust, every vibe of dissapoinment I got from my mother. ABSOLUTLY NOT! ah it was so satisfying and karma for yesterday. I loved every second of it. 

Yes I did. And I feel full filled that I got one step closer to being myself.

 

That’s great, Hawks!

*hugs*

[Keke They/he]

1 minute ago, Dabi said:

That’s great, Hawks!

*hugs*

Eeeeeeee

*hapey hugs*

[Existential]

1 minute ago, Hawks said:

Eeeeeeee

*hapey hugs*

*happy hugs*

truly deserved karma

[Shatter He/Him]

Hawks is a karma chameleon.

[Existential]

Just now, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Hawks is a karma chameleon.

BAHAHAHAHAHA 

true

[Keke They/he]

4 minutes ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

Hawks is a karma chameleon.

Yeeeaaaah

Hehehehehe

 

 

 

What does that mean

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

47 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Ok so today I'm taking a day off to work on my life. And it worked alot. 

 

Rant... but with a twist?

  Reveal hidden contents

Today was seemingly uneventful. Until this afternoon.then unless you saw my head then it's very strange

 

It started normal, woke up, regretted that bc i had a thing at church. Watched jjk LOVED THE EPISODES. wore my new "boy" pants my mom begrudgingly bought me. Went to church slayed the program I was SOOOOO SUPER STRESSED ABOUT. Yada Yada. We went to a farewell party for these guys who were my teachers and twas sad. 

Get home and now the fun begins. Heheheh

Context: my mom runs this thing for foster kids to get clothes and supplies so we get ALOT of donations. Now, she lets me and my sister go through the bags and take some stuff we like bc it makes getting new clothes alot easier. Mostly it's girl clothes. Today we got someone from our churches clothes but a boy. 

KARMA MOTHER EAT IT.

So we go through like usual. My sister doesn't take much. But I do. I take more then normal bc i loved it all bc ITS MY STYLE. And my mom seemed to hate that. But I loved it. I got sweatpants and some shirts and plad and hoodies. Yeah!

Then i got impulse to clean my closet. Which I've been wanting to do forever. And I finally did it! I went through and got rid of all the stuff I dont wear/is to small. And I finally got the confidence to do something brave. Get rid of my old dresses I used to wear before I found my style. 

Am I ashamed to say I relished every look of disgust, every vibe of dissapoinment I got from my mother. ABSOLUTLY NOT! ah it was so satisfying and karma for yesterday. I loved every second of it. 

Yes I did. And I feel full filled that I got one step closer to being myself.

 

Aw, yay! I'm glad

[echo74 she/her]

rant

Spoiler

i feel like i'm insane

i feel like i'm coming apart at the seams

i feel like no matter what i do, nothing matters in the end

i feel like a child playing dress up

i feel like i don't know what i'm doing

i feel stressed

i feel so small

i feel alone

i feel like i'm annoying

i feel like most people hate me

i feel like i care too much and then not enouhg

i don't wanna get hurt again

i don't want my friendships to fall apart again

im so sick of feeling like everything's falling apart

im so sick of complaining about stuff like this

im so sick of feeling small

i don't know if i want hugs

i kinda just wanna go and disappear forever

[Shatter He/Him]

7 minutes ago, echo74 said:

rant

  Hide contents

i feel like i'm insane

i feel like i'm coming apart at the seams

i feel like no matter what i do, nothing matters in the end

i feel like a child playing dress up

i feel like i don't know what i'm doing

i feel stressed

i feel so small

i feel alone

i feel like i'm annoying

i feel like most people hate me

i feel like i care too much and then not enouhg

i don't wanna get hurt again

i don't want my friendships to fall apart again

im so sick of feeling like everything's falling apart

im so sick of complaining about stuff like this

im so sick of feeling small

i don't know if i want hugs

i kinda just wanna go and disappear forever

I'll sit beside you quietly.

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 hour ago, Hawks said:

Ok so today I'm taking a day off to work on my life. And it worked alot. 

 

Rant... but with a twist?

  Hide contents

Today was seemingly uneventful. Until this afternoon.then unless you saw my head then it's very strange

 

It started normal, woke up, regretted that bc i had a thing at church. Watched jjk LOVED THE EPISODES. wore my new "boy" pants my mom begrudgingly bought me. Went to church slayed the program I was SOOOOO SUPER STRESSED ABOUT. Yada Yada. We went to a farewell party for these guys who were my teachers and twas sad. 

Get home and now the fun begins. Heheheh

Context: my mom runs this thing for foster kids to get clothes and supplies so we get ALOT of donations. Now, she lets me and my sister go through the bags and take some stuff we like bc it makes getting new clothes alot easier. Mostly it's girl clothes. Today we got someone from our churches clothes but a boy. 

KARMA MOTHER EAT IT.

So we go through like usual. My sister doesn't take much. But I do. I take more then normal bc i loved it all bc ITS MY STYLE. And my mom seemed to hate that. But I loved it. I got sweatpants and some shirts and plad and hoodies. Yeah!

Then i got impulse to clean my closet. Which I've been wanting to do forever. And I finally did it! I went through and got rid of all the stuff I dont wear/is to small. And I finally got the confidence to do something brave. Get rid of my old dresses I used to wear before I found my style. 

Am I ashamed to say I relished every look of disgust, every vibe of dissapoinment I got from my mother. ABSOLUTLY NOT! ah it was so satisfying and karma for yesterday. I loved every second of it. 

Yes I did. And I feel full filled that I got one step closer to being myself.

 

YAY

ehe

that always feels so good

18 minutes ago, echo74 said:

rant

  Hide contents

i feel like i'm insane

i feel like i'm coming apart at the seams

i feel like no matter what i do, nothing matters in the end

i feel like a child playing dress up

i feel like i don't know what i'm doing

i feel stressed

i feel so small

i feel alone

i feel like i'm annoying

i feel like most people hate me

i feel like i care too much and then not enouhg

i don't wanna get hurt again

i don't want my friendships to fall apart again

im so sick of feeling like everything's falling apart

im so sick of complaining about stuff like this

im so sick of feeling small

i don't know if i want hugs

i kinda just wanna go and disappear forever

You're not hated and you're not annoying

Along with a million other things

You're simply wonderful

Edited March 24, 2025 by Through The Living Glass

[Cookie Spren]

6 hours ago, Through The Living Glass said:

. . .

*saves*

I literally just did the same before seeing your post.

Lol.

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

Just now, The Sly Cookie said:

I literally just did the same before seeing your post.

Lol.

Niiiiice

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

Hey guys I’m gonna put this here bc I don’t rly have anywhere else to go rn my friends sent me a message saying that I overstepped boundaries and stuff and I wasn’t trying to I had found my purpose in trying to help them and now I don’t know what to do idk if they still want to be friends idk anything I’m rly freaking out and I don’t know what to do I thought that it was going well I hadn’t done anything wrong recently then today I tried to talk to one of them abt something and she got rly upset and now they hate me bc I can’t do anything right I’m just a failure I get bad grades I don’t practice my instruments enough I ruin my best and longest friendship by trying to help someone through something I have not purpose why am I here I’m sorry I’m posting this I’m actually freaking out so bad rn im sorry pls stay with me I don’t want to lose everything

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

4 minutes ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Hey guys I’m gonna put this here bc I don’t rly have anywhere else to go rn my friends sent me a message saying that I overstepped boundaries and stuff and I wasn’t trying to I had found my purpose in trying to help them and now I don’t know what to do idk if they still want to be friends idk anything I’m rly freaking out and I don’t know what to do I thought that it was going well I hadn’t done anything wrong recently then today I tried to talk to one of them abt something and she got rly upset and now they hate me bc I can’t do anything right I’m just a failure I get bad grades I don’t practice my instruments enough I ruin my best and longest friendship by trying to help someone through something I have not purpose why am I here I’m sorry I’m posting this I’m actually freaking out so bad rn im sorry pls stay with me I don’t want to lose everything

Oh, dude . . .

*squeeze*

I'm so sorry

You were only trying to help . . . I can see why that hurts so much 

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

1 hour ago, Hawks said:

Ok so today I'm taking a day off to work on my life. And it worked alot. 

 

Rant... but with a twist?

  Reveal hidden contents

Today was seemingly uneventful. Until this afternoon.then unless you saw my head then it's very strange

 

It started normal, woke up, regretted that bc i had a thing at church. Watched jjk LOVED THE EPISODES. wore my new "boy" pants my mom begrudgingly bought me. Went to church slayed the program I was SOOOOO SUPER STRESSED ABOUT. Yada Yada. We went to a farewell party for these guys who were my teachers and twas sad. 

Get home and now the fun begins. Heheheh

Context: my mom runs this thing for foster kids to get clothes and supplies so we get ALOT of donations. Now, she lets me and my sister go through the bags and take some stuff we like bc it makes getting new clothes alot easier. Mostly it's girl clothes. Today we got someone from our churches clothes but a boy. 

KARMA MOTHER EAT IT.

So we go through like usual. My sister doesn't take much. But I do. I take more then normal bc i loved it all bc ITS MY STYLE. And my mom seemed to hate that. But I loved it. I got sweatpants and some shirts and plad and hoodies. Yeah!

Then i got impulse to clean my closet. Which I've been wanting to do forever. And I finally did it! I went through and got rid of all the stuff I dont wear/is to small. And I finally got the confidence to do something brave. Get rid of my old dresses I used to wear before I found my style. 

Am I ashamed to say I relished every look of disgust, every vibe of dissapoinment I got from my mother. ABSOLUTLY NOT! ah it was so satisfying and karma for yesterday. I loved every second of it. 

Yes I did. And I feel full filled that I got one step closer to being myself.

 

Yes!!! I’m happy you’re happy 

55 minutes ago, echo74 said:

rant

  Hide contents

i feel like i'm insane

i feel like i'm coming apart at the seams

i feel like no matter what i do, nothing matters in the end

i feel like a child playing dress up

i feel like i don't know what i'm doing

i feel stressed

i feel so small

i feel alone

i feel like i'm annoying

i feel like most people hate me

i feel like i care too much and then not enouhg

i don't wanna get hurt again

i don't want my friendships to fall apart again

im so sick of feeling like everything's falling apart

im so sick of complaining about stuff like this

im so sick of feeling small

i don't know if i want hugs

i kinda just wanna go and disappear forever

*Sits down next to you and exists wholesomely*

I know what you’re talking about.

We are all a little insane; but as with all things, the negative aspects need not define us

You’re not coming apart at the seams; it is a testament to your strength that you are holding yourself together

What you do does matter; it improves the lives of the people you touch

You’re not a child playing dress up; you’re a human in a world of masks

You don’t need to know what you’re doing; it’s your will to learn that matters

You are stressed; you are small; but you are not alone, and your voice carries weight

Some people might hate you; but the people who love you will always be greater

Nobody can tell you how much you should care; your feelings are you’re own

…

You might get hurt again.

Your friendships may fall apart.

Things may fall apart.

But you will also heal.

You will put things back together.

And you will come out stronger.

I cannot tell you that it will be worth it, or that this all serves a purpose. I hate it too. But I can tell you that it is not forever. Not if you choose to stand up, take care of yourself, and stop caring about what others think of you. It’s okay to fall down sometimes. And yes, sometimes the fall hurts, and it would be easier if we never tripped at all. But what matters is that we stand back up. You are a testament. Let the world see you. Because you are wonderful.

7 minutes ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Hey guys I’m gonna put this here bc I don’t rly have anywhere else to go rn my friends sent me a message saying that I overstepped boundaries and stuff and I wasn’t trying to I had found my purpose in trying to help them and now I don’t know what to do idk if they still want to be friends idk anything I’m rly freaking out and I don’t know what to do I thought that it was going well I hadn’t done anything wrong recently then today I tried to talk to one of them abt something and she got rly upset and now they hate me bc I can’t do anything right I’m just a failure I get bad grades I don’t practice my instruments enough I ruin my best and longest friendship by trying to help someone through something I have not purpose why am I here I’m sorry I’m posting this I’m actually freaking out so bad rn im sorry pls stay with me I don’t want to lose everything

Here are some facts: You are not a failure. Not everything is your fault. The world is not falling apart. Things will look better tomorrow. And we will stay with you.

Edited March 24, 2025 by Hoid_Slayer

[Existential]

7 minutes ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Hey guys I’m gonna put this here bc I don’t rly have anywhere else to go rn my friends sent me a message saying that I overstepped boundaries and stuff and I wasn’t trying to I had found my purpose in trying to help them and now I don’t know what to do idk if they still want to be friends idk anything I’m rly freaking out and I don’t know what to do I thought that it was going well I hadn’t done anything wrong recently then today I tried to talk to one of them abt something and she got rly upset and now they hate me bc I can’t do anything right I’m just a failure I get bad grades I don’t practice my instruments enough I ruin my best and longest friendship by trying to help someone through something I have not purpose why am I here I’m sorry I’m posting this I’m actually freaking out so bad rn im sorry pls stay with me I don’t want to lose everything

*hug*

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

Thank you all I’m doing a little better now *hugs*

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

Just now, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Thank you all I’m doing a little better now *hugs*

Good

I'm glad

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

Just now, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Thank you all I’m doing a little better now *hugs*

Good to hear. I gotta go now. I’m trying to go to sleep earlier  so good night guys

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

3 minutes ago, Hoid_Slayer said:

Good to hear. I gotta go now. I’m trying to go to sleep earlier  so good night guys

'Night!

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

1 hour ago, echo74 said:

rant

  Reveal hidden contents

i feel like i'm insane

i feel like i'm coming apart at the seams

i feel like no matter what i do, nothing matters in the end

i feel like a child playing dress up

i feel like i don't know what i'm doing

i feel stressed

i feel so small

i feel alone

i feel like i'm annoying

i feel like most people hate me

i feel like i care too much and then not enouhg

i don't wanna get hurt again

i don't want my friendships to fall apart again

im so sick of feeling like everything's falling apart

im so sick of complaining about stuff like this

im so sick of feeling small

i don't know if i want hugs

i kinda just wanna go and disappear forever

Aw, echo... 

I know I can't make you feel any differently, but hopefully it helps a little to know that none of us believe any of that is true. Because it's not. 

(plz text me so I don't forget to text you cuz dang do I have a lot going on rn)

17 minutes ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Hey guys I’m gonna put this here bc I don’t rly have anywhere else to go rn my friends sent me a message saying that I overstepped boundaries and stuff and I wasn’t trying to I had found my purpose in trying to help them and now I don’t know what to do idk if they still want to be friends idk anything I’m rly freaking out and I don’t know what to do I thought that it was going well I hadn’t done anything wrong recently then today I tried to talk to one of them abt something and she got rly upset and now they hate me bc I can’t do anything right I’m just a failure I get bad grades I don’t practice my instruments enough I ruin my best and longest friendship by trying to help someone through something I have not purpose why am I here I’m sorry I’m posting this I’m actually freaking out so bad rn im sorry pls stay with me I don’t want to lose everything

Oh gosh

I'm really sorry *hug*

It's really, really good that you tried to help, even if it wasn't what your friend needed. Please don't lose that, and please don't take it personally. 

[Keke They/he]

57 minutes ago, echo74 said:

i feel like i'm insane

i feel like i'm coming apart at the seams

Sometimes it feels like that but it can also be you just calming down. It's ok we love you no matter what

57 minutes ago, echo74 said:

i feel like no matter what i do, nothing matters in the end

Everything matters. Every little thing. Every word and every smile. Even the small hai you give a person can keep them alive.

58 minutes ago, echo74 said:

i feel like a child playing dress up

i feel like i don't know what i'm doing

Sometimes you dont know what your doing. It can suck but your friends, even online are here. And we can help you through everything.

58 minutes ago, echo74 said:

i feel stressed

i feel so small

i feel alone

Your not alone. And even if your small you stand taller and brighter then most people i know. 

58 minutes ago, echo74 said:

i feel like i'm annoying

i feel like most people hate me

i feel like i care too much and then not enouhg

Your not annoying, and you care The right amount. Your enough. Ok? You have a HUGE heart and thats awesome. 

59 minutes ago, echo74 said:

i don't wanna get hurt again

i don't want my friendships to fall apart again

im so sick of feeling like everything's falling apart

im so sick of complaining about stuff like this

im so sick of feeling small

Uh *hugs*

11 minutes ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Hey guys I’m gonna put this here bc I don’t rly have anywhere else to go rn my friends sent me a message saying that I overstepped boundaries and stuff and I wasn’t trying to I had found my purpose in trying to help them and now I don’t know what to do idk if they still want to be friends idk anything I’m rly freaking out and I don’t know what to do I thought that it was going well I hadn’t done anything wrong recently then today I tried to talk to one of them abt something and she got rly upset and now they hate me bc I can’t do anything right I’m just a failure I get bad grades I don’t practice my instruments enough I ruin my best and longest friendship by trying to help someone through something I have not purpose why am I here I’m sorry I’m posting this I’m actually freaking out so bad rn im sorry pls stay with me I don’t want to lose everything

*hugs* 

It's ok. Your trying to help and that's great, and sometimes you help to much. It's hard to get right. your not a failure. Your NOT A FAILURE! i mean that. Don't say that about yourself. Your awesome. Smart. Funny.

20 minutes ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

I’m sorry I’m posting this I’m actually freaking out so bad rn im sorry pls stay with me I don’t want to lose everything

It's ok. It's ok. Don't apologize. 

I'll stay. I won't leave you. I'll stay ok? 

You won't lose everything. 

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

Hey guys.

First: *hugs for everyone* 

Secondly: I am sorry, I haven't had time to keep up with this thread this week. I will read all the things when I can. Till then, more hugs *hugs*

I have had a long and busy week, and a busy weekend, and I had a panic attack tonight, and I haven't slept well in a bit, and hugs would be nice. Thanks.