I don't know if I "should" do multiple entries right after another, let me know if this would better have been scheduled for later. Of course I can do what I want, yada-yada. Anyway...

So, some of these entries - including this one - are exploring thoughts/feelings/etc. I've experienced in the past and/or present, and likely already thought about or wrote about- even extensively. But, sometimes those were in forum posts, my mind, my journal, or through more abstract/metaphorical poetry or other writings. Or to people IRL. Here, I can expand on it while also having a different/more permanent audience, or something... that makes no sense and is weird but whatever it doesn't matter, does it?

So, without further ado, have you ever felt unable to get warm? Either literally or figuratively? If the latter, not being able to get warm can describe it. So, I recently read some article or blog post or something, it probably doesn't matter and I don't know when, that used that. And I've used similar.

Anyway, I had this dream once when I was pretty young (maybe 5-8 years old?) that was rather silly but essentially it involved not being able to become warm, even after having *lots* of stuff stacked on top of me (it wasn't blankets, but their function was... comparable). It was sort of a nightmare, you could say. Another example is something that happens after a shower, when my hair is still wet. I want to get comfortable, in my bed relaxing or otherwise, but can't, because my hair is wet against my pillow or hood, and isn't in the shape I want, gets in my eyes, etc. And when I'm cold and uncomfortable - or too hot, though that's different because it has a sense of agitation, of "positive" energy, rather than being "cold" (literally or otherwise) and "negative," depressing, in a sense? Also with not being able to get comfortable no matter how much I shift, what clothes I wear, etc. Sometimes it helps to have my hood up, other times it's constricting or interacts with my wet hair.

Another feeling of unease/discomfort is like with (and caused by, too) having an unmade bed. At least for me. I don't want to make it, but can't settle in or relax until I do. It's both a mess to look at, and reminds me I can't relax fully until it's made. Hence discomfort, I guess.

Wearing jeans, sometimes. It depends on the person, I guess - I knew someone who went to bed in jeans - but personally I can only relax and get in bed to watch anime or do whatever once I'm in PJs or other cozy pants. Jeans and stuff just feel cold or harder, sometimes. I love them during the day, and when I go out, but yeah.

And I'm not sure how much this is making sense but basically I'm trying to convey experiences that either cause or serve as a metaphor or something for the persistent discomfort/unease feeling. It's the feeling that nothing will make me comfortable, at ease, in this body. It passes, sometimes, or fades into the background. It can be hard to talk about it - and other things - when not in the moment, when not experiencing it at the moment, but I think this is fairly accurate to my own experience, or how I remember thinking about/describing it in the past (not in a sense of potential distrust/caveat for the memory, but for the thoughts within that memory at the time.)

It also applies for when my body feels unclean, such as not having showered in that day, etc. Though... yeah. Anyway.

Inability to relax, to calm. Something-something what else do I say on this?

I don't know what the point of this post was, I guess I just wanted to write about a certain feeling.

If I do another today soon, I'll probably schedule it for later.